- Username
- lrmgry
- Date posted
- 1y ago
breakup
going through a breakup and my intrusive thoughts are having a field day. making me feel like everything is my fault when that wasn’t the case at all. im struggling so much.
going through a breakup and my intrusive thoughts are having a field day. making me feel like everything is my fault when that wasn’t the case at all. im struggling so much.
I’m sorry you’re going through a breakup. Give yourself time, sit with the unknowns and do nothing to try to figure them out 🫶 you can do it
This is always difficult. I recommend doing something you like in the physical world, like a sport, going for a walk, using your voice like singing, etc. Also ERP would help for sure.
I am sorry you are going though this. It was always hard for me to give myself to process stressful situations because I did not want to be ruminating. But when trying to force it away it just makes the intrusive thoughts stronger. What helped me was to allow myself time to be in my brain, processing it and going over what happened, but then choosing, ok my good ol brain has had enough time to process so I am going to start pulling myself back into the present moment and allow the thoughts to be there without engaging and trying to figure them out or putting judgement on them. Hope this helps some. Remember self-compassion.
I'm so sorry you are going through that. It sounds really difficult. When any type of big life change happens (or really any type of change whatsoever) it can be so hard with OCD. Self-compassion has helped me in similar situations. Even though I don't always feel like I "believe" it, I do my best to treat myself well. With OCD that can be an exposure even because sometimes OCD makes us feel like we need to beat ourselves up. Sending strength!
another post break-up day that just completely wrecked me. i hate how much this shit won’t leave my mind. i can’t stop going over every detail and bringing myself to the verge of a panic attack. these last few days have been absolute ick. it’s been almost two months—i don’t understand why i’m not better. and it feels so stupid to feel this way and not have my best friend to confide in because he’s not by my side anymore. i just feel sick to my stomach and like walking away from everything i’ve been doing to distract myself because clearly it’s not working. if you have any advice on breakups and navigating them with ocd, please share—i’m struggling more and more every day.
I feel like OCD ruins so much. My boyfriend broke up with me because of it. It got to a point where I made him do compulsions (ex: open and close the door a certain amount of times). I have OCD in combination with PTSD so I would get triggers often. He got to a point where he got up and left me while I was at work and cut contact completely. I don’t know how to feel and I feel like a failure. It’s been two months and my OCD has been nonstop telling me I was an abuser or narcissistic and that’s why he left. Everyone tells me I’m a broken record… but they don’t know that this is torture for me, too. I wish I could start over with my ex, but I can’t, and that bothers my OCD, too. Lack of control. I also seem to have memory issues in that relationship, I can’t remember what happened or not, and I’m not sure if that’s part of my OCD.
so back in july i made a mistake of going behind my partner’s back and hanging out with an old guy friend (who i had a romantic past with) and while i was hanging out with him i had a great time but man my thoughts were going crazy. i found him attractive, funny, etc. i’ve known him for years and everytime we would talk i felt there was some type of tension. like romantic or something. well i felt it again when we hung out and immediately regretted it because i know i love my boyfriend a lot and i felt like a horrible person for doing something like that. i couldn’t hide it from him any longer than i did (not even 3 days) so i told him and he got really upset. at the time i didn’t know what i want, either my boyfriend or that friend. i decided to stay with my boyfriend and ever since i’ve been getting crazy intrusive thoughts about my old friend (i blocked him so i don’t have contact with him). a few months later (now) i know that i want and love my boyfriend, i don’t want to be with anyone else. but i’ve been getting so many intrusive thoughts about that guy and seeing certain posts just remind me of him even when i don’t want them to. then my brain starts to spiral - ‘what if you actually want to be with him instead and you’re just in denial right now’ or something like ‘you dont love your boyfriend, if you did you wouldnt be having these thoughts’ and i’m just so..drained. i’m so tired of thinking about this guy, i seriously don’t want to think about him. i just want to be happy with my boyfriend. i keep telling myself i know what i want, because i do. i want to be with my bf and i want to be happy with him…i love him so much. but my brain just tries to tell me otherwise. i know i messed up and i’m paying the price for it. maybe i do deserve this. i just wish i could erase everything, my past, etc. and just move on. my boyfriend doesn’t hold what i did against me but he’s well aware of what happened and i know how it made him feel. i would do anything to take it back because he doesn’t deserve that, he never did. and i seriously want to be better for him. but these constant thoughts i get are always getting in the way and almost making me feel hopeless. i haven’t told my bf about these thoughts because i’m worried he would take it the wrong way. i really don’t think i should tell him because i know for a fact it would send us both down a spiral and i don’t want that. but, ocd will always try to get what it wants. anyone else going through something similar? some common humanity would probably ease my mind a bit. (in a non-compulsive way. or maybe this is a compulsion. idk.)
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