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I am not going to answer that question. Not because I do or do not accept you, but because that’s a form of reassurance seeking. That reassurance feeds OCD and intrusive thoughts. And I wouldn’t want to do that to you. I’m sorry you’re feeling so shitty! Everyone on here can relate to feeling numb and scared and alone. Do you have access to therapy? If not, how about buying a book? I think you could benefit from “Self-compassion: the proven power of being kind to yourself” by Kristin Neff. Cause boy oh boy do you deserve a little self compassion right now!
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Hey there peterifa ?? Do you have access to a therapist? Can you find one soon? A one on one session with an ocd and trauma specialist could really help you. I’m sorry you’re in so much pain. It sounds like you come from an abusive and traumatic background. And I think you deserve a little slack. Can you give yourself some? What you’re going through isn’t easy.
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Hey, you're a good man you don't deserve this and you can overcome it but not this way. Could you just read again what you wrote and think again? I think you will see that you're pressing yourself, which makes obvious to anyone that you are suffering but you are not a bad person. You are complaining man! That means you don't deserve to feel this way so nothing bad about you just think of it as bad thoughts that you need to be cured of. And I really suggest you should see a thyrabist. I agree with pure o life, you grew up in a bad environment and that's bad but you should try to get better, not to punish yourself. I hope you get better. ❤️
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I love you just pray for all who need
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- 5y ago
And about feeling numb or feeling nothing about your friend, freud said that if you dreamed of one you care about died and you didn't feel anything and then you hate yourself for not being sad, that you realy care about that person and you will be sad if he died. I think that is similar with you but in real life not in dreaming so don't feel sad about it you just don't see the real problem maybe you were depressed or something then, Idk but I feel something is wrong in here and you didn't solve it. ? Try again bro, you can overcome that?
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- 5y ago
I really appreciate your words thankyou soo much❤️
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Pure o life can i ask you a question!
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- 5y ago
Do you accept me as a human? As a good one after all this? Do you accept me as brother?.. do you believe that I deserve to live as anyone?
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Sometimes I feel nothing and that scares me more
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