I'm overwhelmed and scared to share my feelings with anyone. What should I do?

I don't know what to do

I feel like If I don't tell someone something I'll go crazy and I can't talk to to my family or friends I am to scared that they will hate me if that did happen I couldn't take it I'm so scared I just downloaded this app and I don't know much about ocd except what iv watched on YouTube and read online why am I don't even know why I'm trying this I just want to be ok the last few days have been the worst I do my best to act normal around my family but I can tell I'm not do that good of a job I can't stop crying when I'm alone i soon know what to do with my self I'm so fucked sorry for this rable Idk if this even helped I know I'm not supposed to ask for reassurance sorry

Username: HipHopAnonymous🦛 HipHopAnonym...

Date posted: 1y ago

It sucks indescribably badly not being able to choose what we think and what we feel on a day-to-day basis. If we let it, that fact can make us feel powerless. But only when we don’t realize that that’s not where our power is. Our power is in choosing how to respond and react to our thoughts and our feelings. We get to decide if a thought is significant or insignificant for us. We get to decide if a feeling is significant or insignificant for us. It’s a higher level of agency than choosing the thought/feeling itself. It gives us dominion over what the thought/feeling represents. We mostly weren’t taught that. When we are afraid it’s because we believe our thoughts are significant. We fear the potential of our thought being true more than we have faith in the experiential truth that we get to choose if the thought matters or not. We have to challenge that. The more we recognize our own significance as the “choice maker” the less we feel our thoughts to be significant, therefore the less we will notice them at all; rendering them essentially extinguished. Within the OCD community, how many themes that you don’t identify with have you had thoughts about before, but they just didn’t stick? My guess is plenty. Do you see my point? The problem is our fixation on the content and the subsequent fixation on the disturbance, not the content itself. So if we can alter those two things our experiencing of those things will seem to reduce. It’s a bit paradoxical to be able to choose the response but not the content, thus seeing the content react to the response. But such is the human experience.

Username: LizekLizek

Date posted: 1y ago

Thanks for taking the time to comment all this

Username: HipHopAnonymous🦛 HipHopAnonym...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Lizek I hope it helps you 🙏🏽

Username: multiprez101multiprez101

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Maybe try getting an inital assessment with a professional through the OCD app and discuss how to proceed.

Username: tintin

Date posted: 1y ago

I do the same… I just try to act normal everyday around my family. They don’t know how much I’m suffering.

Username: Maybe,MaybeNotMaybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve struggled with confession as a compulsion too. It’s incredibly painful to sit through the urge, but I have to say, I don’t know that confessing anything ever got me anywhere. It really never changed anything or accomplished anything, and if I thought it was going to give me relief from my guilt and anxiety something else always popped right up in its place. I do know that most of us with OCD have felt like the most horrible person on the face of the planet though. You’re not alone. Have you found a therapist specialized in OCD? Are you on meds?

Username: LizekLizek

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm not on med or seeing a therapist I want to see one but I'm scared as dumb as that is

Username: Maybe,MaybeNotMaybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 1y ago

@Lizek I get it. I think most of us have felt that way in the beginning. But there’s nothing to worry about, they will understand. And if they don’t they aren’t the right therapist. I would look into getting a psychiatrist too

Username: LizekLizek

Date posted: 1y ago

@Maybe,MaybeNot I will thanks for the advice and taking time to comment

Username: Raine22

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi 👋 So I'm new to this app. I have OCD, it controls my everyday life and it makes me have awful thoughts that I don't want. I've never talked to anyone about my OCD and I think I should see a therapist but I'm not sure how to tell my parents that I want to see a therapist without them judging me or idk😩

Username: doeji123

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I don’t understand (pls help)

i don’t understand what’s going on. All of the sudden i started having intrusive thoughts and I thought the “devil” had me and i was about to check myself into a mental hospital but then one of my friends who also has ocd told me that she has these too and i felt less alone. Then for like a day or two I was fine and then I went to therapy and was triggered (? idek) and the intrusive thoughts came back and now i’m even worse than I was before and I don’t even know what’s going on. I can’t figure it out and I can’t stop reading and posting on this dang app BECAUSE IM CONFUSED AND SCARED IM JUST SCARED and idk if this is reassurance seeking or what but I have my first therapy appointment with someone on here on wednesday but i’m scared that I won’t make it… Idk what’s going on and idek if I DO have ocd bc i haven’t been diagnosed

Username: Nathanannon

Date posted: 1y ago

This is hell.

Ok sorry this is kinda a quick post just desperate for help. Any advice anyone who can provide some help or advice. I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed and suicidal at the moment so writing this isn’t easy, I’m struggling to find the words to describe how I’m feeling right now, so I’m just gonna lay it out as it is. Although I haven’t been formally diagnosed with ocd I have allot and I mean allot of the symptoms. My life and mental state is horrible and it’s hard. Ur I try and get get by with the good things in my life. Sorry I’m not here for a pity party or sob story. I know you all are better and have enough to worry about. Basically I had a friend who was 14 and I met when I was 17. We talked for a few months and while we where pretty chill out conversations sometimes involved more suggestive things. Talking as teenagers do. However as I was getting close to being 18 I knew I had to stop this out of morals and my own judgement. So I did. Or so I thought, I’m my opinion what i said here was wrong and my ocd if I even have it is telling me I’m a creep and some monster who deserves to die and suffer. Basically now I was at the time 18 we where playing Truth and dare. Classic party game for boring nights. And I asked what there best pickup line was. I responded to there’s with “aha that was funny” and moved on. I just feel the dare I said was sexual or inappropriate to ask them. And I feel horrible so horrible I can’t even begin to explain it. I feel hopeless and I’m slowly losing grip of myself. I don’t wanna seem like I’m begging or asking for reassurance but any semblance of hope would help. Or advice honestly I would be great full for both. Thank you for reading whoever you are and i hope ur day is going better than mine.

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