Cody, I’m so sorry for what your going thru friend🥺😢😢🤗🙏 please don’t apologize , I understand what you’re feeling and going thru🙏💝 give all those feelings and everything to God, lay it all at his feet, he loves you and knows your heart ❤️ iv felt all those feelings myself too🙏 take good care of yourself today, maybe go do something fun that you enjoy or even just relax and watch a favorite show/ movie, call a friend/ family member and chat, whatever would be good for you to be kind to yourself💝, you are going thru a lot🙏🤗 also, don’t give up on erp therapy to help with the ocd, did you mention the bipolar and adhd to your counselor? If not , and u liked the counselor , you could give them another try. Or you can try Lynn 💝 if she’s in your insurance network, she’s great, talk to her about the bipolar and adhd and see what she recommends and what she can help with, also she is a Christian too 💝if you aren’t able to see Lynn and your therapist isn’t a good fit, you can contact nocd and you can mention you would like to work with someone who can help with the ocd, bipolar and adhd and if possible is a Christian too, and see what therapists they have that have a background / training in those things to help. Don’t give up friend, take a break today💝, let God give you his rest and anything else u need today. I’m praying for you to trust in God and not your own understanding 💝and for him to meet each need and for you to feel his presence and love in an extra special way right now friend, sending hugs🤗💝🙏