@Cody I hear you friend, I know what it’s like to be stuck🙏😔 I’m so sorry😔🙏 it sounds like ocd is messing with you , trying to get you stuck on questioning your salvation. It likes to go after things we value. The devil likes to use that trick too😔 stand in Gods word, it’s truth🙏🙌🏻God knows your struggles with ocd, bipolar🤗🙏 he loves you and wants to help and will keep meeting you there, don’t listen to the lies. Go towards your values , surround yourself with people who love Jesus and care about you and can support you/ pray for you thru this and everything🤗🙏 I totally hear you about looking to man made things for fulfillment or comfort instead of God, we all do that at times being human is hard😔🙏 God knows our struggles, ask him to give you the desire to only look to him for help/ fulfillment. tell him u just can’t do it on your own and you dont have to, reach out to him and to resources he sends🙏💝Are u in a Bible study right now or life group at church? That can help a lot for sense of fellowship and accountability and prayer support 🤗🙏💝It’s helped us a lot especially during life’s hard seasons 🙏 I’m praying for you , please don’t be hard on yourself, we all sin everyday, just turn to God, tell him and ask for forgiveness and then in his strength move forward. The devil wants you to doubt and question and so does ocd. Turn towards God, his love and truth, you belong to Him. Leave the doubt, worry, and lies with God and say to yourself , I’m going to lay this in gods hands, I dont have to figure this out right now and then just move onto the next thing in your day, not giving the lie or doubt your time, let God handle it, he sees ur struggle🙏🤗💝 you might need to do this a ton of times each day , that’s ok, you are moving forward 🤗💝🙏 it’s taking the power away from ocd and the devil, choose to let God handle it all. 🙌🏻🙏🤗Also , ask God to give you the desire/ strength each step to pursue him, that prayer honors him, he knows you are having a hard time and wants to help, he loves you right now, right where u are, and all the time🥰🤗🙏 dont struggle alone and when ur ready reach out to Lynn , she can help support you and reach you some erp to kick ocd in the face🙌🏻🙏🤗👍🏻❤️ big hugs to u my friend, u are awesome , brave, and a blessing !!🤗🤗🙏🙏💝💝