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Yes all the time I always ask myself “why did this have to happen to me” and this just started happening to me out of the blue like I had intrusive thoughts all the time but they weren’t ever that bad to the point I obsess over them now it’s so bad I cry everyday and I don’t go out my room and my bf even asks why I’m sad everyday I just don’t know how to tell him I don’t know what to do anymore I can’t even talk to anyone because I’m scared of getting intrusive thoughts or images I been really suicidal lately I don’t know what to do I just turned 17 and I’m supposed to be happy and enjoy Life but I can’t I also very depressed suicide is on my mind 24/7

Yes me too. Constantly. However, I have a problem. I was so hellbent on proving that a particular thought was unwanted that I inadvertently made those thoughts reflex. This is horrible and I was telling myself all last night that I just want to forget, but do I really desrve to? It's like I am becoming what I fear the most. I need CBT and some form of amnesiac because that's the only way I'll put an end to this madness. It's like I was so caught up on the idea of having OCD that I forgot why I developed an OCD in the first place.

I can remember the day like it was yesterday. However, it was many years ago. I remember coming home pissed at myself and it was an awful day at work. I smoked a joint & began doing some exercise. I experienced my first panic attack and I couldn’t sleep. I kept praying, asking god to please don’t let me go crazy. The next day I woke up and shaken but had to go to work. Came back home, lit another joint and had another panic attack. I swear the pot I was smoking was laced. PCP was big in those days but I wanted no part of that stuff. I quit “cold turkey” and haven’t smoked pot in 40+ years and I was never the same. And I’m still on my journey. I can’t unwind the clock and still moving forward. Stay strong everyone!!!✌🏽

My mom has OCD and passed it to me. She felt fear was safety, she was a great mother but everything lead to death. I was taught to not trust others or myself