Can your brain trick you into having fakememories?

Im currently working on my depression and i have feelings that feels similar, and i keep thinking about my past. I found out that i felt some of them, i was really sensitive like i couldnt be alone without my mom or family members. When i was outside with people and my mom wasnt there i felt sad. And i dont know if that sad feeling was depression, but im wondering if i was depressed as a kid or i just was sensitive and bc of that i developed depression later. Anyway i have obsessive suicidal thoughts now, and while i was thinking about my past, a random memory of me saying to my mom something like "yall would be happy if i would be dead" or something like this and i was like "did this really happened?" I cant decide if its just my mind or it really happened. I remember that once my mind tricked me by believing something is happened before while not, but i cant decide this one.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

My mind makes me fight itself to know whats real and whats not, it truly is a lonely battle. But you’re not alone in this

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y ago

Then how should i work on my depression?

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@PRIV8 well idk what works for you personally buut my way of helping myself is lately I’ve been keeping myself very close with family, because i have no friends, and i try to listen to happier music than i usually do. I also have been going on daily walks which is really good for me even though sometimes i cry while walking just because idk i’m just scared of being alone

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Oh okay, i ment about my past. I dont know the reason why i am depressed and i try to se if i was born with depression or i just was sensitive, but its hard if my mind makes up memories like this

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@PRIV8 I feel like some people just have a chemical (serotonin) imbalance, but sometimes it can be your living situation, being unconfident in yourself, not having a solid routine, or maybe deep down you’re searching for something your soul feels like its missing. Try doing some soul searching if you’re not sure whats wrong, the only person that would know why you’re depressed is you, friend

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Im trying to find the solution, and im afraid all of these, the negative thoughts, being unconfident and lazy is bevause im depressed, so these are the symptom not the causes... i try to change my thinking too, its not that easy, some days it feels impossible... so i dont know what is the reason

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@PRIV8 im right there with you, i wish there was a why and a how to fix it

Holl1

Date posted: 12w ago

Can ocd mimic depression

Can OCD mimic depression? With this theme I’m always wondering if I have OCD or depression. It first started out as harm OCD and now this. Today I told myself if I did have depression then it’s treatable and I would work on it. Then I started to feel depressed and emotional and like had an urge to google the difference. When I did this I just broke down because I felt like I related to them, it made me worse. However when I look up OCD symptoms it makes me feel better. So now I’m unsure. Almost like OCD wants me to believe it’s depression

Suicidal OCD

anonymous2580

Date posted: 11w ago

Remembering things from my childhood

(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.

Anonymous

Date posted: 6w ago

HELP PLS I NEED ADVICE

Ii spoke w my bf this weekend and he mentioned that he has thoughts just like me, but his don't bother him like me. I then felt a lot better and he tried dissecting one of his thoughts like I usually do and realized it felt more real for him after. That made me realize that none of my thoughts were ever true and I blew them up. However, yesterday I had a thought ab “wait wut if you liked that one guy? How dare you bc youre supposed to love your bf and not secretly like someone else” and treated it as I usually did bc I accidentally wanted to see if it was true but didn't rlly but I would check to see if it was there and now that thought feels so so so real now and I feel really bad how do Ik it's not real? I feel so bad and guilty bc lividly this makes 0 sense but it feels so prominent. It felt pretty real when it happened yesterday too. And now I feel awful bc how is it possible after my clarity the other day? Why does it feel so prominent 😞😞😞

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