I’ve been staying home from school to much because of my fear and I’ve been screaming at my family and crying myself to sleep and sobbing on the floor trying to find answers. Does anyone else fear death?
I fear death and what’s beyond it, but the way I see it is that life is to beautiful to end. Why you may ask? Because no story truly has an end, it’s passes on through the circle of our human life! Life is a gift a true miracle to see breathe move walk talk all of these amazing things and amazing people you meet. The emotions and love and the beauty of everything that lives around you. It’s to beautiful to worry about my friend. Live it! make your story the one that lives forever and that never ever ends (it never will) may peace be with you!
So sorry you are suffering so much. Are you getting erp therapy to help you?
Ty
I have OCD and I know the fear that OCD creates. Debilitating fears. So please do not take offense to what I am going to say. I am a Christian and have accepted Jesus into my life (which by the way helps ma a lot) but the Bible explains where we go if we are believers after we die. Heaven is beautiful and there is no pain or suffering there. I don’t know if your fear is where you will go after dying or is it dying itself. Please, please know there is help out there and the worst OCD I had has passed. It may take a long time , but it always gets better. Are you on any medicine? Medicine saved me literally. Also, I have to work on my thoughts. But, the promises in the Bible calm me, especially Psalms. Please get the help you need and consider medicine. There ARE brighter days ahead , it is just so hard to see. I’ve been on the floor crying before and telling my parents that it is just so bad. I got help and slowly it got better. So much so, that I was like in remission from it for like 5 years. I’ve had some trauma lately and it has returned, but I know my savior is there to help me and I know He cares for me. You WILL be ok. It just takes time sometimes. Like I said, I mean no offense if you are not a believer. By the way, as I’m writing this , an OCD commercial just came on the tv. I’ve never seen a commercial specifically for OCD! To me, that was God saying, there is help out there! I pray you will get the help you need. It’s out there .
Tmrw I start therapy
But the introduction is a waste of time I need help fast
Yeah the intro sessions are lousy but the therapist needs it to know if they can help or if you need higher level care. Good luck tomorrow. 🫶
Ty 🥲
I’m on medicine but it’s not helping very much and my phycolgist is kind of sick and he doesn’t respond
Idk if I believe in God but I think I do and my mother and I would like to go to church
I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
Of course we can’t stop the inevitable but with my ocd it’s all I can think about. I’m afraid I’ll be alone for ever and I’ll fear forever. Fear does not stop death it stops life. But how do I stop fear??? I can’t think of anything scarier than the fact that our conscious will vanish for eternity. I am only 20 years old but I mean the last 5 years flew by like nothing.
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond
