My ocd seems worse (6 weeks pregnant) I’ve developed a lot of health fears and fears of losing the pregnancy etc. Along with my other ocd themes seeming worse atm. Does anyone have advice or help?
I’m really scared of getting pregnant again but we are trying because I want a baby! There are so many unknowns but honestly with ocd you just have to say, well maybe I will miscarry or maybe I won’t. I don’t control that so I’m just gonna enjoy my life! Haha and really just let go of all worries. Sit with the uncomfortable feeling of not knowing what “might” or “could” happen. Enjoy your life and live your life! I promise that’s the best thing you can do for yours and the babies health anyways is to let go!
Also get on a good prenatal and exercise regularly. Trust me regular cardio exercise helps ocd soooo much!
It is extremely hard to have OCD while pregnant. Pregnancy actually kickstarted mine. I dont have any advice, but just know that you do have the strength to make it through. It has gotten better since having my baby. They put me on SSRI’s during the pregnancy and i was still taking them while nursing. It helped in the sense I didn’t want to unalive myself. But with the meds, there are other things to overcome. Once I was not nursing anymore I looked into CBD and now I smoke the flower which has worked wonders for me. I wouldn’t recommend that while pregnant or nursing though. But, remember that those are only bandaids and you must also try therapy like ERP or CBT to help with the root of the problem. It also depends how well you feel you’ll tolerate while pregnant, I waited until my baby was 8 months. Should I have done it sooner? Maybe, but it was all circumstancial.
I am 8 weeks and going through the same thing. Let me know if you want to talk!
I’m 21 weeks and struggling with my OCD more than ever. I got back on my meds 7 days ago. I thought I’d feel guilty, but I know it’s best for the baby. I started seeing an ERP therapist today as well. I’m anxious about upcoming sessions. I want to get better, but I wish there was a way without being exposed to my distressing thoughts :/
My ocd convinces me that no one else has the ocd thoughts I have. I am newly PP and had an intrusive thought about my baby that sent me into the worst panic attack imaginable. I went to OBGYN and she said “but you aren’t having thoughts about harming yourself or the baby right?” I had to lie. I obviously didn’t want the thought, it’s my biggest fear. But how can we be honest with our doctors without being locked away. I had visions of them taking my child from me or me being locked away and now I’m just spiraling. I went down the rabbit hole for sure. How do we know what intrusive thoughts we can tell our doctor/therapist??? If I can’t share what’s going on in my head, then how am I supposed to know that I am not alone 😭. I want to find a therapist on here to work with but my ocd convinces me that no one else has struggled with what I have for some reason or that my ocd is “different” and I’ll be reported. This is miserable. Can anyone else relate? It’s like it convinces you that you are the “worst case” & what If it’s not even ocd. This has kept me from getting the therapy I know I need. Hope someone can give me some insight…
Kind of a vent, thank you if you read all the way through. It feels like every time a new chapter of my life opens up or is on the horizon, my OCD flares up so bad. I get imposter syndrome, I get the urge to confess, self-sabotage, ruminate, etc. I’m moving in with my boyfriend’s family soon. Me and him are long-distance (14 hours away from each other), and this move means we will be able to get married sooner. I am SO excited! … but I also have ROCD soooo bad. My OCD tries to convince me I’m a liar, I’m an imposter, I don’t deserve him, “what if I cheated on him and can’t remember?”, etc. and it’s miserable it eats me up. It feels like lately I’m having 1 good day and then 3 bad days, over and over again. Me and him just met in person for the first time this year (in June actually) after knowing each other 4 years and being together for 2. I have also had some other life changes, family drama, and now moving on top of all of that, I can’t help but wonder if change *itself* is triggering my OCD. I stayed with my boyfriend and his family for a month, and I loved it! My OCD was bad maybe the first week I was there, and it flared here and there, but I was able to cope and I felt so hopeful. It was really nice being around his family a lot, his siblings and parents are really fun to be around and my OCD is much better when I’m around people. Now, I’ve been home for almost a month, and throughout the past month I’ve been so anxious on and off with OCD flares. I got home, and then the next day my mom went out of state for about 2 weeks and I was home completely alone. Going from always being around people and talking to them, to being home completely alone and sleeping alone, it drove me crazy. I am also thinking of my future and I’m simultaneously excited and terrified. I’m so scared for when me and my boyfriend get married and eventually have children, I want kids so bad, but I’m scared because I have to be off my meds (Clomipramine) during pregnancy. I’m afraid that if I can barely cope *now* while I’m medicated, how the heck will I cope when I’m pregnant and unmedicated for 9 months? It’s just so many thoughts roll in and my OCD and anxiety takes over and I’m so sick of being so overwhelmed all the time. I’m so sick of feeling knots in my stomach for not confessing or ruminating. Please, does anybody relate?
I recently was diagnosed with postpartum ocd/ depression/ anxiety it’s by far the hardest thing I ever had. As an adolescent I struggled with depression/anxiety/ & self harm I didn’t realize back then that self harm was a compulsion for me. Anyway recently ocd has been attacking my baby along with my loved ones or even strangers. I feel horrible about it & feel insane I have panic attacks very often. I do my best to remind myself it’s ocd not me. I am genuinely the kind of person that is disturbed by road kill & cry over new all the time. I didn’t have these intrusive thoughts until my baby was 4 months (he’s now 6 months) because of a stupid true crime case & then it spiraled. I believe the only reason it’s doing all this is to have me feel like I am a villain & evil. It causes me to wonder if I have psychosis (like my mind purposely thinks the worst to try to convince me of psychosis) I am aware that’s not how it works. I am doing everything possible to overcome this sadly my insurance is Medicaid & it doesn’t work on here to find a OCD specialist. I move in 10 days to a new state & my insurance will be cut off for some time. I recently started Zoloft so I’m hoping it helps me until then. I want hope from other moms that have gone through similar experiences… this feels so exhausting & endless I wasn’t like this a few months ago. All I do is pray for things to get better I read the Bible to ease my heart & try to trust God that this to shall pass.
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