My parents wanna kick me out if I dont take my benzos. I dont know what to do. Due to OCD fears taking them is hard. Help.

There are lots of new options for therapy nowadays: online, telephone, Skype, texting, apps. Just because there isn’t an OCD specialist physically in your area shouldn’t stop you from getting treatment. Doing ERP on your own is confusing and scary and I’m not surprised it hasn’t been that effective without the guidance of a professional. Get creative in your search and I think you can find something that works for you!

Oh yes I've heard of Ali greymond f.e. who does online therapy and seems to be good at it but then the money issues kick in... :(

Try contacting these guys: https://ocdla.com/telephone-online-therapy-ocd-anxiety

What are thoose?

Medicine/anti anxiety pills

I would explain to them that you may need some encouragement or help because you are scared of taking them. I would yell at my mom because she didn’t understand but I didn’t wnat to explain to her what was happening... explaing to them why helps. God gave me the courage to tell them

I've told them already... they don't listen and literally say they don't wanna understand my illness. I feel so alone and depressed honestly...

I’m so sorry your parents have that attitude towards your mental illness.

Do you have a therapist? or a psychiatrist or anything? Perhaps you could go and see them and explain that your parents need a little bit more information on the subject?

I truly hope things get better, I’m sending all my strength and energy to you.

Benzodiazepines may help momentarily but they’re not going to cure you. I’m so sorry your parents are unsupportive. As much as you can, I’d try to keep them out of your illness and recovery. Don’t go to them for advice, support, consoling, or reassurance. You’ll need to handle this on your own, unfortunately. What benzodiazepines are you on? And how often? I think it’s perfectly reasonable to struggle to take these. And realistically, therapy with ERP is going to be waaaaaay more effective and what will actually help you get better. These pills just keep us calm for a little while.

Honestly thank you all for the love ♡ this was written in the heat of the moment, my parents are supportive most of the time but ERP therapy just isnt available in my area unfortunately so drugs is the only solution they can think of for now. It's just a sad situation and it's driving my entire family mad and I feel guilty and at the same time I feel angry at them at times because it feels like I'm being punished for something I didn't ask for. Just a mess. I've been trying to do ERP on my own for 2.5ish years now, but the results aren't good and the crisis service which checks up on me to see if I don't commit suicide (they do not treat me though) actually discourages me doing exposures and it's messing with my head as I really wanna do everything I can to get rid of it and I think ERP is the only way. Either way thank you everyone for the support in this difficult time and I hope all of you are doing at least somewhat okay too.

Also, I forgot to mention but I'm on oxazepam 10 mg 5 times a day, for now that's the plan. They do actually work for me and besides being tired/slow from them I don't feel any bad side effects, it's just that taking the pill itself ironically gives me anxiety/OCD thoughts. I also don't wanna do this long term either though as I don't think that's good either, but I'm not against trying it for a while as the way I function (or rather lack there of) right now is very bad atm.

I've already spent a ton of money on talk therapy before unfortunately and experimental therapy like rTMS which did not work, only afterwards realising I need to do ERP instead

I understand. I think she’s realllly expensive though and there are plenty of less-famous Ocd specialists out there who will charge less. Many offer a sliding scale depending on your families income.

I’m so sorry you’re getting issues with money; depending on where you live, do you have free health care?

Yeah talk therapy isn’t effective for OCD unfortunately :/

Well I do have insurance, and I am on a waiting list for treatment across my country, it's just that the waiting list is like... 6 months probably (even that is not certain). So it's more about surviving the coming 6 months I guess... also, do any of you have experience with a good OCD therapist (online)?

Oh do you have any experience with them.

That was supposed to be a question mark, gg

I do! In person but they’re good

Do you think that maybe you can try an SSRI if you haven’t already? They take longer to take effect but they might help you feel more stable long term enough so that you can do ERP safely and live with your family until you can move out. I’m really sorry about your situation. My father is the same about my Tourette’s. Some people will just never understand the impact of some illnesses. Best of wishes!

I've tried 3 already. All 3 made me suicidal, one made me even aggressive and that is very out of character for me. My OCD also spiked (and I did take all these for months with the exception of the last one which also made me verbally very aggressive, so it wasn't the first period only where symptoms are supposed to flare up). I also had physical side effects like nosebleeds/weight gain but honestly if it would've helped I probably would've been fine with that. It actually made things worse for me though so after trying 3 out and reacting so severely to them all I don't feel like playing around with anti depressants anymore. Also I'm sorry to hear about that I hope things get better for you too.