Kaayslimm
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Feels so real
The harm thoughts feel so real I feel like they’re true and I’m a psychopath..it’s like I convinced myself I am evil and they won’t stop and I’m getting exhausted
Edwin PEdwin P
- Date posted
- 1y ago
 same here I’m having these intrusive thoughts of killing people it does feel so real it’s like it’s already happened. I try to keep going to YouTube make sure I’m not a psychopath but we know that we’re not gonna do this. This is not what we are this goes against our values, even though it feels so real. We need to keep fighting this. 
Edwin PEdwin P
- Date posted
- 1y ago
How long have you been suffering with harm OCD? I’ve been suffering since 2012 in and out of hospitals I’m 22 now nothing is getting better. I just keep going to the hospital but they keep giving me the same medication just increasing it or changing it but nothing is working. I get really frustrated because I want to live my life without these intrusive thoughts interfering with my life.
KaayslimmKaayslimm
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Edwin P About 13 years now on and off.. the past 6 years had been great with meds and good therapy.. I should start back
oumsoums
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Kaayslimm Can you tell me which medication has worked for you ?
Edwin PEdwin P
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yeah, mine been getting worse lately. It’s telling me that I’m gonna be in prison I’m gonna go to jail I’m gonna kill somebody. This is my OCD every day I wake up I like going to sleep because I don’t have to think about anything
KaayslimmKaayslimm
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Edwin P These are the thoughts on having right now
Edwin PEdwin P
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I was feeling suicidal lately I feel like ending my life feel like that’s the only option. I what to rest in peace I don’t want to die but OCD it’s a b,it.ch. 
KaayslimmKaayslimm
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Edwin P Yes I can understand because I have those thoughts too. I want to live and be happy but my thoughts are telling me I don’t even want that and I like being this way and thinking these thoughts but they aren’t me at all
KaayslimmKaayslimm
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Edwin P We have to keep going.. are you in therapy with someone who knows about OCD?
Edwin PEdwin P
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Well, I tried it NOCD but they turned me down. And charge me $200. 
Edwin PEdwin P
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I only have a psychiatrist and that’s about it. I am going to look for a therapist even though they’re not specialize in OCD I have insurance but this company does not take my insurance and I can I cannot afford $200 every visit 
KaayslimmKaayslimm
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Edwin P Yes please get into talk therapy it definitely helps.. someone who specializes in ocd among other things would just know how to handle the harm part better
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Edwin P You need do ERP… part of why you’re not recovering and suffering so long is because you’re not speaking to someone that specializes in OCD.
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- Date posted
- 11w ago
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- Date posted
- 5w ago
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