i absolutely hate going out in public now bc people existing is a trigger for me. it’s gotten sooooo bad that i can’t interact with anyone outside of my family and close circle of friends :/ being around people triggers the thoughts and i hate them!!
Haha I can relate
I did not contact my family for a week because of my anxiety and I was in fear that if I was around them I would hurt them or my mind would make me believe that I would want to hurt them. I have been slowly going back to being around them, and confronting my fears has helped more than running away from them.
When it comes to soocd exposures, that sometimes means engaging in triggering things like sex and intimacy with my partner, but I worry that I am sometimes also being compulsive like wanting to be intimate to see how it makes me feel, check my feelings, sensations, emotions etc. and then at that point how can I really do the exposure? Idk I’ve just been struggling so much with this theme lately. I feel like a fraud most of the time and the thoughts convince me I am deeply in denial, constant loop.
I feel like my job triggers a lot of how im feeling. Im now a manager and the stress of it really causes my thoughts to convince me that I am worthless and all of the customers and my staff hate me
does anyone else with this theme hate to be alone?? i deadass get panic attacks when i’m left alone and i sit and watch the time until whoever is coming back because im so scared. i get scared that when im alone im going to lose control and act on my thoughts. my mind goes “oh your alone now nobody would know” or “your alone so you won’t feel guilt”. i hate this so much and as much as i try to deal with it i feel it never gets better. it doesn’t help that i have agoraphobia now either. i need tips!
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