- Username
- Dearabbey
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Recovery
Was curious to hear what recovery looks like for some of you? If you’re doing better or if you would consider yourself “recovered” whatever that looks like lol
Was curious to hear what recovery looks like for some of you? If you’re doing better or if you would consider yourself “recovered” whatever that looks like lol
I’ve been recovered for 4 years now and I still have intrusive thoughts and images but it’s not a big deal. So, it never becomes an obsession and I don’t do any compulsions.
@Nica Oh my gosh, the goal!!! Congratulations!!
I would consider myself “in recovery”… not recovered because OCD doesn’t ever go away. But let me tell you… it gets better IF you do the work… IF you resist the compulsions… IF you do ERP. The best thing I did for myself (besides all of those things I just mentioned) is educate myself. Oh, and got the best therapist who specializes in OCD. Hang in there! :)
I believe, the recovery means that we no longer do the compulsions. We also realize and understand that we have no control over when the thoughts pop so that we let go of the struggle and be free from it. When they pop, they no longer have any effect on you or maybe when it does trigger you, you do not engage with it as much as you did before. For me, I still have to urge to ruminate and every time I do not give in, I win and I feel better a lot these days. :) And you try to divert your focus to something worthwhile, things you enjoy and or maybe has a benefit for others. Hoping all the best for your recovery. You can make it through that road.
And to add, we can't get rid of the intrusive thoughts. They just do appear but they don't have to affect us anymore as much as before. We also have no control over these obsessions. We try to carry on with our day. Thoughts are just thoughts. They do not define us.
Since 2019 I've met with 7 different therapists and slowly made more and more progress as I found therapists who better suited my needs. I was just paired with a therapist who does both PTSD work and OCD, so I'm feeling confident about the future!
Recovery looks different for everyone. I’ve been in recovery for a year and it’s been up and down but the downs are not nearly as bad as they used to I’m able to recognize them and push myself to do the work I need to to help myself get back on track. My advice to anyone in recovery or seeking it is just to be compassionate your will can take you a long way especially if your kind to it And that having a down period does not mean your back to square one You’ve got this
Im in recovery right now but yeah as you know doesn’t dissapear but we learn to live with it. Im still struggling with different themes that come up as new but im more conscious about myself and can stop compulsions and just do ERP when im having ocd attacks and sitting with it even if is hard
Hey everyone. Long post, but just want some advice. I’ve had suicidal ocd, with some relationship & existential on the side lol, for about a year and a half. My suicidal ocd is pretty severe. I did a small amount of erp for a month or two, but then took a break. Last week I started an IOP program. I also take 10 mg of Prozac, and have for about 5 weeks. The first week of IOP was great. This week I have went downhill and feel like my ‘old ocd self’ again meaning heavily ruminating and seeking reassurance. My exposure today was standing near train tracks. It made me sad, and scared. I didn’t want to do it. I keep ruminating. I am absolutely terrified I will not get better. I’m scared I will get depressed and think life is not worth it. Thoughts constantly run through my head. I want to be here so bad, but I’m scared I am going to give up. I constantly worry I won’t be “happy” long term and I won’t recover. Can anyone give me some hope? I am scared I’m a lost caus. Any recovery stories? I’ve never had depression and I’m feeling a bit worried about myself from feeling tired and sad. I don’t know many people with suicidal ocd- I just want to know I can recover. Thanks for reading!
I’ve completed 11 sessions so far and I can honestly see progress. I’m not back to my “normal” self but I’m gaining parts of my life and my personality back. I never knew I had OCD. I always attributed things to anxiety. Being diagnosed let me know I’m not alone, I’m not crazy, and that there’s help for me. I have a long list of OCD subtypes. As you can imagine, the thoughts and images in my head were extremely distressing and I was concerned for my quality of life and my sanity. 11 sessions in and I’m able to watch shows and movies without being scared I’ll see a trigger, I can practice exposures and navigate through my obsessions better, and I’m finding joy in the little moments in life. I used to avoid so many things and people because I was scared I’d have intrusive thoughts. I still struggle with intrusive thoughts every single day. Some days and even weeks are bad and I struggle more than usual. I have mood swings, extreme irritability, and even sometimes experiencing depersonalization. Sometimes I just plain out feel uncomfortable and weird. But like my therapist said, progress is not linear. I’m learning to count my wins instead of always counting my losses. I’m learning to enjoy the little bits of life that are ok, and I feel proud when I get through hard moments. I’m excited for the future. I’m excited to see how much I progress. Sometimes I’m still scared but I know that’s my OCD trying to get me to quit because we both know this ERP therapy is helping. If you’re struggling, please seek help. It does get better. I wanted to quit after doing my first exposure. I’m so happy I didn’t. And on hard days when I want to give up, I know this is what I’m supposed to be doing to help myself.
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