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- 6y
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
First of all, hate speech is stressful to be on the receiving end of, no matter who you are, so of course it hurts you. That's not your fault. Stress can make OCD flare up though, and your brain will try to find a way you can protect yourself, even if it makes no sense. Our OCD brains mislabel threats ALL THE TIME. Second, OCD doesnt care who you are, it will find something in you to attack and be scared of. If you weren't gay, you would be scared of something else. So there is no use or good in hating who you are. It wouldn't change anything. That said, me just telling you this isnt going to change how you feel, I just hope it encourages you maybe a little, to redirect your attention. Fight your OCD, not what your OCD tells you is the problem.
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- 6y
i’m queer too and i feel so predatory being around younger or straight girls sometimes that i get super fucking uncomfortable and have to leave. i totally hear you. i’m so sorry
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- 6y
i relate to you kylaj321, it's the worst
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- 6y
Hey I have pocd and I’m queer and sometimes other people’s prejudices really play into my ocd. I’ll have thoughts that I’m making people feel uncomfortable or that I’m sexually deviant. And my pocd thoughts trigger a lot of guilt and shame which reminds me of how I felt around the time when I came out. I also get thoughts like “if I was in denial about being queer back then, then I could easily be in denial about being a pedophile right now” or “if I want to have sex with women then maybe I also want to have sex with girls.” I hate that my ocd is using those kind of horrible opinions against me, my ocd is fully homophobic. I think it’s important to remember that other people’s prejudice against the queer community doesn’t say anything about your character or who you are as a person. Also, my queer friends and community bring me so much love and support and I never want to feel like it is a bad thing!!
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- 23w
So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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- 15w
My favourite animal is me when i cry because its possible to be gay and have hocd. Im so tired.i know im just 14.i know. Im simply like men.i know I shouldn’t think about this,but my ocd keep telling me that im not,because i have no experience.I don’t like or want women.i dont.i dont want it to happen.im not homophobic.i try to accept it because im afraid to not be honest with myself,but the pain is more and more. Im afraid that i wont love a man in future,and that i will love a women with no control..i hate that im just a silly teen that isnt “enough to know what i want”. I hate when people say im just young.i hate when my ocd say im just shame to be gay and im still homophobic because of my country(im a lgptq supporter and atheist for a year)i hate reading some people experience with hocd and they was really gay,i hate when my ocd tell me that when i travel to an open country to lgptq im gonne love women,i hate that it seems so true,i hate when i dont know whats ocd and whats not,but all i hope,that i heal from ocd..and still being straight..my peaceful dream..
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- 14w
I thought I’d gotten better about reading articles and posts about most men being attracted to children. It upsets me and that’s fine but what i can’t do is relentlessly research it. I know there’s no cure and that it’s normal even if it’s not moral. But for that reason my mind latches on to it and i want to know WHY WHY WHY, or what if this person is, or what if my favorite YouTuber is. Statistically the answer is probably yes, most of them i assume are probably attracted to kids. And that’s where my ocd stems bc them k go in the loop about why and who. There’s no one answer and no correct number out there. It’s a hard fact to accept and i thought i was over this but now im upset over it again and my stomach is sick. I’m not sure how to overcome this.
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