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- 6y
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y
First of all, hate speech is stressful to be on the receiving end of, no matter who you are, so of course it hurts you. That's not your fault. Stress can make OCD flare up though, and your brain will try to find a way you can protect yourself, even if it makes no sense. Our OCD brains mislabel threats ALL THE TIME. Second, OCD doesnt care who you are, it will find something in you to attack and be scared of. If you weren't gay, you would be scared of something else. So there is no use or good in hating who you are. It wouldn't change anything. That said, me just telling you this isnt going to change how you feel, I just hope it encourages you maybe a little, to redirect your attention. Fight your OCD, not what your OCD tells you is the problem.
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- 6y
i’m queer too and i feel so predatory being around younger or straight girls sometimes that i get super fucking uncomfortable and have to leave. i totally hear you. i’m so sorry
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- 6y
i relate to you kylaj321, it's the worst
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- 6y
Hey I have pocd and I’m queer and sometimes other people’s prejudices really play into my ocd. I’ll have thoughts that I’m making people feel uncomfortable or that I’m sexually deviant. And my pocd thoughts trigger a lot of guilt and shame which reminds me of how I felt around the time when I came out. I also get thoughts like “if I was in denial about being queer back then, then I could easily be in denial about being a pedophile right now” or “if I want to have sex with women then maybe I also want to have sex with girls.” I hate that my ocd is using those kind of horrible opinions against me, my ocd is fully homophobic. I think it’s important to remember that other people’s prejudice against the queer community doesn’t say anything about your character or who you are as a person. Also, my queer friends and community bring me so much love and support and I never want to feel like it is a bad thing!!
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- 24w
Now i have been a little upset, and i just came across a post that asked people, "What's one of those things that people refuse to accept out of morality, but you believe to be true?" One of the most liked answers was: "Killing criminals should be legal", another answer said: "Imagine a carnage of p... To be in a better world where children don't suffer" I mean, i'm not advocating for those criminals, and in some ways i agree that the world would be better off without them, but my mind keeps assuming i'm already one of them and they're talking about me. It's torture. I don't know what to do or think, It's just that there's no point in "accepting that it could or could not be the fear in my mind", because if it's true, it would mean the most horrible thing in the world. That is, for ROCD, for SOOCD, yeah, it's that irrational and fault logic by definition. There is no shame in being gay, heterosexual or not, loving your partner or not is not a matter of live and death, but POCD doubt IS, i mean... Not only does it feel important, IT IS important for me and i would believe that for everybody, because that's a matter of hurting other people or not, it's a matter of ruining someone's live or not. I can't practice ignoring my mind, saying "ok, maybe", BECAUSE IT'S AN EXTRAODINARILY HORRIBLE TOPIC.
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- 24w
Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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- 13w
My favourite animal is me when i cry because its possible to be gay and have hocd. Im so tired.i know im just 14.i know. Im simply like men.i know I shouldn’t think about this,but my ocd keep telling me that im not,because i have no experience.I don’t like or want women.i dont.i dont want it to happen.im not homophobic.i try to accept it because im afraid to not be honest with myself,but the pain is more and more. Im afraid that i wont love a man in future,and that i will love a women with no control..i hate that im just a silly teen that isnt “enough to know what i want”. I hate when people say im just young.i hate when my ocd say im just shame to be gay and im still homophobic because of my country(im a lgptq supporter and atheist for a year)i hate reading some people experience with hocd and they was really gay,i hate when my ocd tell me that when i travel to an open country to lgptq im gonne love women,i hate that it seems so true,i hate when i dont know whats ocd and whats not,but all i hope,that i heal from ocd..and still being straight..my peaceful dream..
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