i had a pocd dream i think... i can't remember a lot of it but i'm scared..... in the dream i think i was using a child for sexual gratification or something i'm not sure. i'm feeling really anxious and disgusted

Dreams, especially when they're influenced by OCD, can be extremely triggering. It's normal to feel anxious and uncomfortable after having OCD dreams. I think an important thing to remember is that, just like the OCD thiughts you experience during the day, dreams aren't reflective of your true, authentic self.

Vivid dreams about OCD fears are a common symptom amongst sufferers. The fact that you are distressed by this dream and overthinking whether or not you are pleased by this dream, rather than just being pleased by this dream, means this is OCD and you are not a pedophile. You wouldn’t have to hyper-analyze whether or not you find it pleasing. You just would in the same way you enjoy a delicious slice of cheesy pizza

i feel really weird now i hate it

And possibly overthinking whether or not you are pleased* you didn’t state that you were but I’m trying to cover every angle of my own past experience ?

thank you guys for your replies, truly, every time i get a reply whether it's one i like or not i appreciate it. of course i'm also wondering - what if it wasn't an ocd dream? what if really did pleasure me and i'm just saying it distressed and disgusted me to cover my own tracks because i truly am i horrible person? what if i'm a pedophile who obsesses if they are moral or not? obviously, i know the what ifs don't help, but also, a part of me knows that what ifs are valid because it could be possible, you know? again, thank you so much for commenting

Man, this was me after I had my kid. I was so worried that I was a pedo that it affected my bond with her initially. I was terrified to change her diapers, to bathe her, to breastfeed her, literally anything involving me touching her in ways I deemed “inappropriate” even though I’m her mother and it was my job to do all those things. The thing that helped me most was purposely trying to imagine myself hurting a child sexually. it made me physically ill. The thoughts repulsed me so much that I began second guessing my intrusive thoughts until eventually, I was able to separate them from facts.