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Dreams, especially when they're influenced by OCD, can be extremely triggering. It's normal to feel anxious and uncomfortable after having OCD dreams. I think an important thing to remember is that, just like the OCD thiughts you experience during the day, dreams aren't reflective of your true, authentic self.
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Vivid dreams about OCD fears are a common symptom amongst sufferers. The fact that you are distressed by this dream and overthinking whether or not you are pleased by this dream, rather than just being pleased by this dream, means this is OCD and you are not a pedophile. You wouldn’t have to hyper-analyze whether or not you find it pleasing. You just would in the same way you enjoy a delicious slice of cheesy pizza
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i feel really weird now i hate it
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And possibly overthinking whether or not you are pleased* you didn’t state that you were but I’m trying to cover every angle of my own past experience ?
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thank you guys for your replies, truly, every time i get a reply whether it's one i like or not i appreciate it. of course i'm also wondering - what if it wasn't an ocd dream? what if really did pleasure me and i'm just saying it distressed and disgusted me to cover my own tracks because i truly am i horrible person? what if i'm a pedophile who obsesses if they are moral or not? obviously, i know the what ifs don't help, but also, a part of me knows that what ifs are valid because it could be possible, you know? again, thank you so much for commenting
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Man, this was me after I had my kid. I was so worried that I was a pedo that it affected my bond with her initially. I was terrified to change her diapers, to bathe her, to breastfeed her, literally anything involving me touching her in ways I deemed “inappropriate” even though I’m her mother and it was my job to do all those things. The thing that helped me most was purposely trying to imagine myself hurting a child sexually. it made me physically ill. The thoughts repulsed me so much that I began second guessing my intrusive thoughts until eventually, I was able to separate them from facts.
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- 20w
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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- 8w
I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation
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- 10d
18+ TW! POCD Is this still Pocd. I’m so scared For example, I’ll be feeling aroused over a child and feel genuinely aroused like I want the arousal and I’ll stop forcing it to not come because in the moment it feels like I want it in the moment so alllow the arousal to happen. Another example is I’ll feel aroused over a kid and my ocd will say make your blanket touch your private areas for a feeling over kids and I’ll do it in the moment because I feel aroused over the intrusive thought of the child. Another example is I’ll even think “yes I want this arousal over the child” and in the moment it feels like I want it I hate all of this after and do many compultions
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