OCD Sucks

I developed a crush for this girl and it feels great. But ya know, OCD did its thing and makes me feel like I don't really like her and that I like guys. It drives me absolutely mad. I even went to the gym today (which I have been avoiding) and one of the front desk guys was id say good looking and my OCD ran with that and told me I like guys and all the what if questions came roaring in. It feels really provocative to think persons of the same sex are good looking. It feels like anytime I look at a guy, my OCD tells me"oh look! you noticed him, how come you're not noticing the women?, you're gay." I get so many intrusive thoughts about any guy I look at and It feels so real. I feel defeated today. If anybody can relate, I'd like to hear.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: ejpwolfpackejpwolfpack

Date posted: 1y ago

I have that problem a lot. It feels like I notice every guy in the room sometimes. Then when I scroll through my phone on instagram or something and I see a picture with a guy and girl in it, I feel like I notice the guy first or I always check to see if I do. It makes me feel like it’s proof if I don’t notice the girl first.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@ejpresutty Im not trying to make this seem like reassurance. But noticing a guy or girl when scrolling on a pic does not mean at all that it’s proof. Are minds are spinning and we don’t exactly know why. But we do know the more we react and obsess over the thoughts the worse it will be because then we are just question our entire personality.

Username: My OCD AcademiaMy OCD Academia

Date posted: 1y ago

@ejpwolfpack LOL ME TOO. OCD IS DUMB

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Man, at this point I’m just exhausted with the whole OCD crap that I’m feeling. The only thing that’s weird is that I don’t get any weird feeling when I’m around other guys I just see them as any other dude. When I see other guys I’m like I know they’re good looking, but that’s it. And I’ve been feeling the same thing with the girl thing. I really like this one girl and I am attracted to her, but the feelings of attraction aren’t there if you know what I mean. I want that feeling back, like not just my heartbeat or nervous. I want the feeling of enjoyment and attraction back.

Username: My OCD AcademiaMy OCD Academia

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous Man I totally relate. This girl has me smiling and staying up late with our convos. She’s so great. But OCD is so freakin relentless that it takes anything to put me down. I’m so upset. I’m tired. I keep on saying I’m not gay and OCD takes that and makes me question myself even more. I know it’s a compulsion but I can’t accept not finding out. I need to know i’m not gay. Like, I need for that to be the answer.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@My OCD Academia Yea and like they said. We can’t keep asking ourselves those questions. We have to know deep down that we aren’t. I’ve been talking to this girl and I really like her and want to be more with her and then my mind is playing tricks on me like, you aren’t attracted to her. I fricking tire of this crap. It makes me feel like I’m hiding something when I’m not. Im done with it.

Username: My OCD AcademiaMy OCD Academia

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous Yea man I feel this 100%. It makes me feel like I’m hiding it too. OCD tells me all the time “you might as well come out, you’re gay. you’re hiding it.” like how are we supposed to get over this disorder when it says stuff like this??

Username: Madam StardustMadam Stardust

Date posted: 1y ago

Like who you like. It does not matter at all what you label yourself and you don’t have to wonder why you like someone. A LOT of tiny little things factor into attraction. It’s impossible to understand all those factors, so go with your gut. You can like a girl AND find guys hot. That’s just being a complex and normal human being. We call that pansexuality or bisexuality and there’s nothing wrong with it.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Carmen Loup Yea the difference is you can tell when someone is attractive but not be attracted to them. Like as a compliment

Username: anotherocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

Okay so I have been struggling with HOCD for so fucking long. I never felt like I had crushes on boys growing up but I wasn’t attracted to girls either (this was through 5th grade). Until 6th grade hit. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had the thought walking up the stairs and it was “You’re lesbian.” And ever since that thought was there and I fought it I have been dealing with all types of OCD ever since (been going on for 7 years). And only this year I found it was OCD. But it’s hard because I don’t know if I’m actually gay or I convinced myself I’m gay because I gave up and gave in. Now whenever I see I pretty girl I feel tingling. And I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn’t a lesbian so I look up pretty pictures of girls with their boobs out and I loved it. And I wanna make out with a girl so intensely. But then at the same I don’t wanna be in a relationship with a girl and I wanna marry a guy and I just desperately wanted to be like by a guy. But I get so horny whenever girls are in bikinis and stuff. But I have OCD and I’m so confused.

Username: linds💕

Date posted: 2y ago

Why is soocd so confusing?? Anyone else’s OCD just bring up past experiences and make you believe that it could mean you’re the opposite sexual orientation you are? I identify as a straight female but in the past I had thoughts I could have been bi so it made me think I was even though I’ve never actually liked a girl? Idk. I’m so confused. I’m not attracted to women, I’ve always been super boy crazy. I just feel super alone in this regardless of all the similar experiences other people go through. I can’t watch tv, work is really hard because I have to talk to other women, certain clothes trigger me, hanging out with friends is hard, being lovey to my boyfriend is hard, even looking at myself is hard. I don’t feel like me. I’m just so confused and so lost. My OCD really sparked back in October and since it’s just gotten progressively worse. I have therapy today, and I’m looking forward to it. Anxiety and OCD is so hard. It effects me of every moment of every day, in everything I do. Im just so tired. Anyone have exposures that may help with this??

Username: xX_Xx

Date posted: 1y ago

Questions about OCD

So I’m 17 & I’m curious as to how OCD effects you’re relationships & interests &/or crushes you get on people. This feels a little silly thing since it’s not that big a deal & feels like such a teenager problem, but I thought maybe other people might understand if it’s an OCD things. Whenever I start to take an interest in someone I quickly start to feel obsessed & all I do think about them, it’s been like this pretty much my whole life It; used to bother me & make me feel like I was crazy but now it doesn’t bother me so much. However I’ve started a new job a developed a little crush on one of managers who’s just a couple years older than me; that’s not a big deal but it’s frustrating me how much he’s on my mind the last couple days. I also feel like I’ll get random crushes on people I don’t actually I have interest in but all of a sudden I’ll be obsessed with them & feel like I have a crush on them but pretty much have no interest in actually pursuing anything with them. Are these OCD things? Both the becoming obsessed with crushes as well as feeling like I’m interested in someone even if I don’t & then also becoming obsessed with them? I just wanted to vent a little & get some opinions before I head into work today. I’m still fairly new to OCD, I’ve started to realize it affects a lot of aspects of my life but not sure on everything yet.

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

OCD Sucks

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community