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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
Yes, this is existential ocd; i spent 2 years reading endlessly about nature of the self and what all this is; could not go a moment without trying to attain enlightenment as taught by hinduism. I would suggest telling the thoughts, "i don't know exactly what existence is, but that is okay." And then move to another activity for a while. You will likely have to do this many, many times for your brain to get the message. Good luck!
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- 6y ago
Do you mind if I ask you what you experienced those times? The theories is what kills me. They give me panic attacks. I’m always thinking things of like multiverse stuff or that we’re all bacteria on this planet. These thoughts make me panic or depressed because of my fear. It makes me feel like nothing is real. Did you experience that?
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- 6y ago
Hi! This can be a troubling topic for many. I believe in God and that we were created by Him. Yes, that means God had to always exist but how did He even come to be? I truly do not know the answer to this but I know He has always existed. If He didn’t exist how could humans exist? How could dust, debris, rocks and so on in the Big Bang possibly be “intelligent” enough or even able to create life? I’m sorry if I confused you even more but please think about this! Also, please remember that you are SO immensely loved by a God who died to know you. This life is full of daunting questions but I hope you can find comfort in God for those questions you can’t seem to find answers to and for anything and everything else??????!!!
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- 6y ago
Omie, i would continously ask "who am i"? Try to achieve a thoughtless state to experience true reality. My anxiety came mainly from trying to mimic the lives of certain hindu saints. Cleanliness, organization, etc. If i bent, dirtied, or smudged a spiritual text or picture i would have terrible anxiety. Lots of checking my home/belongings to ensure they were just right, like saints would live. Looking back it was actually all so ridiculous
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- 23w ago
I'm reaching out in hopes of finding others who might relate to my experiences or offer insights. I'm dealing with a complex interplay of OCD, depression, and existential anxiety, and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. Here's what I'm experiencing: I have OCD with various manifestations, along with episodes of depression. I find myself in a cyclical pattern where, after a few weeks, I start to remind myself about my depressive tendencies. This reminder seems to trigger a cycle that actually makes me feel more depressed or at least more aware of depressive symptoms. When this happens, I often experience feelings of nihilism and existential dread. I try to think about my family - my two young boys and my wife - to find motivation or a sense of purpose, but this strategy often backfires, making me feel even more anxious and depressed. I constantly check my feelings, wondering if they're depressive or anxious. At the same time, I fear that my feelings of anxiety and panic might spiral out of control. I think about my emotions and thoughts on a meta-level, which means I'm not just experiencing feelings, but I'm also constantly analyzing the fact that I'm experiencing them. There's an existential component to my struggles, a fear of depression and anxiety itself, and a sense that this might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Perhaps most frustratingly, I often have feelings, thoughts, or sensory experiences that I can't explain or put into words. I feel like I've never heard of these before, which leaves me feeling deeply misunderstood. Does anyone else experience something similar? How do you cope with this complex web of symptoms and experiences? I'm particularly interested in hearing from those who've found ways to break the cycle of meta-cognition and self-fulfilling anxiety. Any insights, shared experiences, or strategies would be deeply appreciated. Thank you for your time and understanding.
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- 23w ago
Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.
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- 17w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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