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- 7y
- Date posted
- 7y
Yes, this is existential ocd; i spent 2 years reading endlessly about nature of the self and what all this is; could not go a moment without trying to attain enlightenment as taught by hinduism. I would suggest telling the thoughts, "i don't know exactly what existence is, but that is okay." And then move to another activity for a while. You will likely have to do this many, many times for your brain to get the message. Good luck!
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- 7y
Do you mind if I ask you what you experienced those times? The theories is what kills me. They give me panic attacks. I’m always thinking things of like multiverse stuff or that we’re all bacteria on this planet. These thoughts make me panic or depressed because of my fear. It makes me feel like nothing is real. Did you experience that?
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- 7y
Hi! This can be a troubling topic for many. I believe in God and that we were created by Him. Yes, that means God had to always exist but how did He even come to be? I truly do not know the answer to this but I know He has always existed. If He didn’t exist how could humans exist? How could dust, debris, rocks and so on in the Big Bang possibly be “intelligent” enough or even able to create life? I’m sorry if I confused you even more but please think about this! Also, please remember that you are SO immensely loved by a God who died to know you. This life is full of daunting questions but I hope you can find comfort in God for those questions you can’t seem to find answers to and for anything and everything else??????!!!
- Date posted
- 7y
Omie, i would continously ask "who am i"? Try to achieve a thoughtless state to experience true reality. My anxiety came mainly from trying to mimic the lives of certain hindu saints. Cleanliness, organization, etc. If i bent, dirtied, or smudged a spiritual text or picture i would have terrible anxiety. Lots of checking my home/belongings to ensure they were just right, like saints would live. Looking back it was actually all so ridiculous
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- 20w
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- 20w
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- 20w
I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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