Hi guys me again with religious ocd. In December I had the very scary thought god doesn’t like what music I listen to. Prompted by this horrible verse (sorry but it does give me anxiety) ‘so brothers only think of good things, talk of good things... in all and everything you do it must glorify God’ I loved hip hop and rap. I have not listened to music since December. Because every lyric I now analysis. Whether t be sexual or drugs or love or anything. I feel bad and guilty and that I am a bad and dirty person. So.. how do I start listening again? And WHEN do I do it?! Like do I just put it on?!! And whennnn. Like I feel I have to schedule it as an exposure ? Please don’t laugh at me, I know it is silly but I really feel so much anxiety about it

Marilyn

Date posted: 6y ago

Hi there! I definitely have experienced and still experience something similar to this. I used to have to pray and say “please forgive me for cussing” whenever I listened to song with curse words. I have stopped listening to a lot of music with curse words or inappropriate lyrics but unfortunately, sometimes I still do listen to certain songs even if I don’t like the words just because I like the rhythm . I still know I shouldn’t be listening to certain things because they don’t glorify God as well. I love music and have found some great artists/ Christian bands! Here’s a list if you’re interested: -casting crowns -elevation worship -Kim walker smith -NF -hillsong -Jesus culture p.s. there’s a Christian Rap station on Pandora if you’re interested ? You are SO loved by God! God already has the victory and loves us despite our flaws, nothing can separate us from Him. He is merciful and completely forgiving?

Rory

Date posted: 6y ago

Yo! It’s not weird at all. God loves you, OCD and all, and even if you “slip up” (which, listening to music isn’t, but still), he will forgive you, because he is merciful and amazing! I personally like to listen to classical music, but since you’re into hip hop and rap maybe you can start listening to Christian artists like Marilyn said? Anyways good luck and I’ll keep you in my prayers

a_panda00

Date posted: 6y ago

It’s not silly. I totally understand. Just try listening to a minute or so of a song and just listen to it. While you listen to it you can do calming breaths or just keep repeating to yourself, This is ok, this does not make me a bad person, this is just the OCD telling me this, etc. As you get more comfortable increase the listening time. I know it sucks and it’s gonna feel really scary but it will be okay

Whitestar

Date posted: 6y ago

Thank you so much for replying!! I really appreciate it. Going to try!?

Whitestar

Date posted: 6y ago

Thanks do much guys. I don’t want to have to listen to Christian music, it gives me more anxiety. I’m glad it makes you happy but when I listen to Christian music it just reminds me more and more of how much I have a problem with my religious ocd and the anxiety around it. Thanks so much guys. Wish my faith brought me a good feeling and safety like it does for others :(

Ocdstrugglesss✝️

Date posted: 25w ago

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Does anyone have any tips on how to move on from intrusive thoughts when you’re constantly afraid that if you ignore them God will be mad at you?

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Agent K

Date posted: 24w ago

Real Event Ocd

Hi there I talk about religion (but I'm not trying to force it down anyone's throat) So my main event (which is the one that truly bothers me) happened in 2015 when I was 14. I won't go into any details or anything. I will say that it got so bad once that I almost committed something detrimental to my health earlier this year. Not long after that I spoke to a doctor and basically confessed what's been happening to my brain and my mistakes, he mentioned things that really resonated with me, I'll paraphrase a bit: "Okay, so what you did was not good but it's not something to condemn yourself for. It falls into the grey area, you've apologized and have been forgiven (even though I apologized over text, which comes across cowardly)but it seems that you haven't forgiven yourself. There's a whole lot of difference between you at 14 and you at 23. Try to have some perspective." This really helped and it still does, but unfortunately ocd tries to find a way around this. I'll get a thought of "oh but you forgot to mention that other part of the event" and it magnifies it. Can anyone relate? I've done everything but fully move on because I sometimes feel like I don't deserve to move on. And I'm still worried over the future.

Jesuslover28

Date posted: 14w ago

Idk what to do

I don't even know if I should put this here, but I have the greatest girlfriend in the whole world, and I love her very much, but my thoughts keep saying I'm going to hurt her, so I can hurt God and idk what to do, I feel so disgusted and idk what to do, and the worst part is why does some part of me just not even care idk what to do anymore, it's almost like I'm turning into this horrible person and idk what to do, I'm really not sure what to do. I have really been able to be happy I just feel like I don't deserve it and I want to care about people and God and I want to be a good person, but a part of me shuts off my caring nature and idk what to do, I'm really freaking out because it's like IDC and idk what to do I just feel so nasty and scared because why don't I feel like I care. Why does it feel like it's something I wanna do idk, what to do I'm really freaking worried. Also I don't want OCD but a part of me says I need it or I like these thoughts and idk what to do, as im writing this i just feel like laughing and idk what to do, i really judt want jesus to hug me and say everything will be alright, i am such a monster....

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