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Hi there! I definitely have experienced and still experience something similar to this. I used to have to pray and say “please forgive me for cussing” whenever I listened to song with curse words. I have stopped listening to a lot of music with curse words or inappropriate lyrics but unfortunately, sometimes I still do listen to certain songs even if I don’t like the words just because I like the rhythm . I still know I shouldn’t be listening to certain things because they don’t glorify God as well. I love music and have found some great artists/ Christian bands! Here’s a list if you’re interested: -casting crowns -elevation worship -Kim walker smith -NF -hillsong -Jesus culture p.s. there’s a Christian Rap station on Pandora if you’re interested ? You are SO loved by God! God already has the victory and loves us despite our flaws, nothing can separate us from Him. He is merciful and completely forgiving?
Yo! It’s not weird at all. God loves you, OCD and all, and even if you “slip up” (which, listening to music isn’t, but still), he will forgive you, because he is merciful and amazing! I personally like to listen to classical music, but since you’re into hip hop and rap maybe you can start listening to Christian artists like Marilyn said? Anyways good luck and I’ll keep you in my prayers
It’s not silly. I totally understand. Just try listening to a minute or so of a song and just listen to it. While you listen to it you can do calming breaths or just keep repeating to yourself, This is ok, this does not make me a bad person, this is just the OCD telling me this, etc. As you get more comfortable increase the listening time. I know it sucks and it’s gonna feel really scary but it will be okay
Thank you so much for replying!! I really appreciate it. Going to try!?
Thanks do much guys. I don’t want to have to listen to Christian music, it gives me more anxiety. I’m glad it makes you happy but when I listen to Christian music it just reminds me more and more of how much I have a problem with my religious ocd and the anxiety around it. Thanks so much guys. Wish my faith brought me a good feeling and safety like it does for others :(
Ok so Christian OCD ers my OCD has been through the roof about all sorts. I was sat in my front garden listening to Christian music and sobbing. Basically Its a fear surrounding the unforgivable sin. Are there any Christians out there who can help?
Ok so I have a trigger word. It makes me panic. Idk why. It just does. And I was listening to music. And then this song came on. And the when the song came on, the chorus came to my head and I can’t remember excatly but I wanted to skip it bc the name of the song was close to my trigger word. So I imagened the chorus of the song being something else that had been triggering me this past month and I got into a state of panic. What if I meant it? What if I’m done for? I don’t know why, I didn’t even think clearly before singing it. I don’t meant it. This this has been scaring me for so long, why would I mean it? U know? But idk, it doesn’t feel like an intrusive thought. I think it was more of a stream of consciousness thing that I was imagining but not meaning. Don’t we all sometimes imageinf things we don’t mean? I’m so scared and tired of this. I just want my brain to shut up and I wish if I could knock myself out and forget everything. I don’t care anymore I’m so sick of this I can’t live like a normal person. I don’t know why I keep imageinf things that trigger me. :(
Okay so, I know ocd has prevented me from basically doing anything I used to do… but I also have had a lot of eye opening moments to what I see is or isn’t okay. Me and my partner have had issues with porn and shit in past, which has contributed to me not feeling ok about certain scenes in movies, like even if before ocd I used to watch whatever scene/movie with my bf, and we used to not care, porn is a big reason as to why I have chosen for us to not watch Sex/sexual scenes, strip club scenes, nudity, etc… I made it a rule when I had ocd , but just because I made that a rule doesn’t mean that it’s the only reason why. I shouldn’t have to be “ok” with certain scenes in movies, not everyone in life can watch that stuff without having their soul affected. I’m also religious and feel that certain things are wrong, so there’s a few reasons as to why we don’t do that now, but ocd is trying to tell me it’s a compulsion and that I’ll never get over ocd because of it. Like I think people are aloud to have change of opinions , yes when I made that rule part of it was because I was worried about triggers but there’s also that because of past issues I don’t want either me or my bf engaging in those types of scenes, no I’m not being immature (my own Nan skips past anything like that) we are religious and see certain things differently than others. On top of that because I used to watch like cardi b music vids and shit where she is just being a slut the whole way through in EVERY music video, I used to love her music and songs and shit, I still listen to her occasionally but just because I used to watch stuff like that doesn’t mean I should have to just to “get over ocd” yes part of it is about preventing being triggered, but also is a respect thing to myself, my partner, and Jesus and my relationship. I know lots of people wouldn’t give a shut about that stuff, but I do! It affects my soul. We are all brainwashed into thinking that people making videos like that is right, I’m sorry it’s not. I get that there may be some music videos I watch that may have certain things that pop up, but I can CHOOSE to look away like my partner does if there’s like twerking or something in it, but when I just KNOW the whole music video is going to be something that affects my soul or I feel Is disrespectful to my partner, myself and our relationship, (I wouldn’t like him watching a music video like that) I shouldn’t have to do that as an exposure right???? Exposures should be things that are normal like going to the shops, or public places for example. just because before in the past I didn’t see an issue with stuff like that doesn’t mean my opinion can’t change on that stuff??? As I said why would I do something I wouldn’t like him doing? It’s hard for me to sometimes know wrong from right because ocd fucks with my head, but sometimes I rely on other peoples insight like my mum or partner because I can’t think for myself at times… anyway all I’m saying is just because I used to fo that stuff before I REALISED how it affected my soul and stuff, I shouldn’t have to just be “ok” with it just because I used to, I just don’t want to think this is a compulsion and that I won’t ever get ocd with this mindset because that’s what OCD is telling me…. I don’t want to play it’s games anymore, but I also shouldn’t have to “expose” myself to sexual/slutty content/material just to “get over ocd” I’ll repeat again I have been a lot closer to god through this and feel certain things are just wrong like those scenes or certain music videos. Any Christian’s maybe similar to me, can give me some perspective?
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