My therapist triggered me Bc she was like “how do u know ur doubts aren’t just doubts and u don’t love him” and I was like no I do love him Ik I do I love being with him and never can get enough of him and I miss him and a part of me knows that and she goes “Ik u like him I was just wondering”

Should I be worried?

That is the problem of not working with an OCD specialists. Even if they have PhDs they don't know how OCD works.

Yeah i also went to a therapist that isn't specialized in ocd,and at one point she tried to use logic to change my ocd irrational thinking, lmfao she got absolutely destroyed by ocd it wasn't even funny ?. Ocd requires special training so i recommend finding an ocd specialist if you can

When originally read your post I immediately knew your therapist was not an OCD specialist because an OCD specialist would never ask something like that.

You shouldn't really argue with intrunsive thoughts. You should either agree and amplify or just disregard. The More you "fight", the harder it gets because Your brain thinks the thought is important so it keeps sending it. So for example, if you get the thought "My boyfriend is unattractive" the responce should be "Ok ocd. Thanks for the update!" Or "Yah right?? Like he is the most unattractive!" With a sarcastic tone. This is not easy but you have to fake it till you make it. Over time, you will see this thought becomes less and less because you acknowledge the thought but keep moving Your boyfriend anyway.

Cheeky therapist...

I mean it's Kind of weird that an ocd therapist would throw Your trigger like that at you as if she was your ocd herself. Is she always like this?

She’s not an ocd specialist tho

The therapist probably doesn't understand how triggering her question was, especially if she never had OCD firsthand. One of the pitfalls of OCD is always looking for proof that this isn't OCD, etc. One way you can work around this is by choosing not to do your compulsions and doing recovery work, despite the uncertainty of this not being OCD. Like, "I'm going to treat this as OCD and do recovery work for OCD. If it's not OCD, then that's when I'll deal with it, but for now, I'll treat it as OCD no matter what it says". I

I have been to so many therapists throughout the years and it was the absolute best decision I could have ever made to go to a therapist that is trained specifically in OCD and utilizes ERP.

She also told me she was like “what if you’re trying to convince urself to love him and forcing urself to love him” Bc I always like convince her that I love him but I do that to reassure myself but I think she asked Bc I said sometimes I find my bf unattractive and she was like “maybe u don’t like him as much as he likes u” but now I can’t get her words out of my head Bc what if I am lying to myself even tho a part of me actively wants to stay but what if that’s just me convincing myself ugh

*loving. German keyboard...

I get worried me worrying about what she said is Bc it’s true

i worry tho about what she said but even if she was right and the doubts were “true” I still wanna love my bf and stay but I get worried that that’s just Bc I have trauma from breakups