Doubt and rumination
Everytime I feel like I have a hold on my ocd, I always get that thought of what if you just did it? What if you do feel that way? It makes me feels hopeless and delve deeper into anxiety and worry, should I ignore and stay true to my morals and self or seek help??
I feel the same way. Idk what all your dealing with and I am NOT all better from ocd by any means, but I have a better idea of why/what’s happening due to different habits: 1. Research OCD subtypes and general psychological/neurological stuff. If you feel like your one of those people that has a hard time describing what your feeling, finding the right vocabulary can enable you to validate and advocate for yourself. 2. Do a free 15 min phone call with a OCD specialist on this app who could help you find a long term therapy solution maybe idk for sure though. (Make a bullet list of what you want to ask before the meeting! If you like me lol I forget all the time) 3. YOU CANNOT THINK YOUR WAY OUT OF RUMINATION. watch something funny or: Diaphragmatic breathing: Breath in through nose deeply for 5 seconds Then HOLD for 3-4 seconds (the HOLD makes alllllll the difference trust me) Then breath out slowly through mouth for 5 seconds REPEAT a total 10 times (tbh I never do it that much but I should haha) OCD effects is in different ways and so we are all alone in that sense, But since we OCD suffers are all alone in some way, That makes us not alone sorta? Not sure if that makes sense haha Anyway best of luck to you🫡
OCD loves "what ifs."
You are experiencing classic OCD. The what-ifs are the headliners. They are designed to keep you on the OCD treadmill and fret about it all day. Do you have a trained OCD therapist? OCD is treatable.
that "what if" thought is classic ocd – it's like just when you think you've got a handle on things, ocd throws in a curveball to make you doubt yourself. it's really tough, but those thoughts are just the ocd trying to shake you, not reflections of your true self or desires. staying true to your morals and who you are is important, but seeking help doesn't mean you're not doing that. in fact, getting help can be a way to strengthen your commitment to your values by learning how to manage the ocd so it doesn't get in the way. the AI OCD therapy tool i've been using could be a good step for you. it's like having a guide to help you work through those intrusive "what if" thoughts without engaging with them. it's been really helpful for me in moments of doubt, and it might give you some relief too. remember, seeking help is a brave and proactive step in taking care of yourself. you're not hopeless – you're dealing with a challenging disorder, but there are tools and support out there that can make a real difference. hang in there. 🤍
There is this time in treatmemt or recovery when you feel less anxious (or depressed if thats an issue) because you are commiting to process doing exposures and its working. But then you start saying "what if I didnt have ocd"? "What if I made it all up"? "What if Im just weak"? Obviously this is just more ocd doubt. But it starts a slippery slope. Amy tips for navigating this fragile part of recovery?
I hate how my mind is making me doubt of my intentions when i clearly know that I don’t have any desires to act on my thoughts. It makes my intentions feel so uncertain, and sometimes it would even make me feel like if I wanted to act on my thoughts when I actually don’t, because I wouldn’t be doubting if I did. So since I feel my intentions so uncertain I need to come to an answer, and sometimes it is so damn hard to get that answer, which makes me anxious and disturbed. It would also make me think of my past like, how were you okay without having these thoughts? Or makes me think of my future like, will you be okay without these thoughts? So it would make me think that these thoughts are really desires and I won’t be okay unless I act on them. As horrible as it sounds. And I don’t know if someone gets this too but, it would also make me doubt my feelings. When my family tells me cute things like “I love you” and stuff, I would feel so bad, because my thoughts are towards them. So I would say “ily too” but I feel like an hypocrite saying it, or like I don’t mean it at all, so it makes me doubt if I really love them or not. This is all so overwhelming, and I have gone through so many disturbing and crazy thoughts, feelings and situations, that I don’t know if this might be OCD.
Does anyone else have problems of doubting what if it’s not ocd and what if and I actually want this if so what do I tell it when it does ??
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