New subtype for me?

Hi everyone, I’m planning to go to a therapist not specialized with OCD. I’m debating whether to bring up that I’ve dealt with OCD in the past. I want to try to explore my gender and sexuality without tying it to ocd to see if there’s anything true behind the scenes. What do you all think? Also, I know I’ve mentioned this several times lol. It’s like now I can’t even wear a bra without being uncomfortable. I keep mentioning this because it seems different from anything else anyone on here with TOCD has mentioned who is cis. I am still comfortable in sports bras, but isn’t a sports bra close to a binder? I even feel like I don’t want to wear those sometimes. Doesn’t that mean there has to be something true about my gender or sexuality not matching? I know some of the uncomfortableness has to be coming from the thoughts leading up to putting on a bra, but it’s just frustrating not being able to love who you are already and being uncomfortable with who you are. I just want to be comfortable in my current female body, but that’s just not the case. It sucks. Please help with these thoughts.

Hi everyone! I am a 22 year old AFAB nonbinary person from California, and I wanted to come on here and ask about people’s experiences with OCD surrounding taking testosterone and being trans/LGBTQIA/nonbinary. I am not talking about doubting identity but more so doubting whether taking testosterone is the “right” choice or whether the changes you might get are what you “truly” want. I would really love to hear from folks who also identify as nonbinary as I feel that nonbinary folks have a unique experience with taking hormones due to not being a binary trans person. I would definitely love to hear from anyone who identifies as trans or nonbinary, but I think that my experience with hormones is different since I know I don’t want to look or sound or feel like a full masculine person or man. For me, this means I am on a lower than normal dose of T right now, and I also don’t believe I plan on taking it longer than a few months or at least until I get my desired results. I want to be very androgynous, and I keep getting a bunch of intrusive thoughts about waking up and having all these drastic changes to my body and self to the point that I won’t recognize myself anymore. I know this is irrational and definitely attacking the fact that this is a huge decision to make to go on hormones, but I just feel like I haven’t seen this representation yet in both the trans and OCD communities. Again, please feel free to share any type of experience you have whether you are a nonbinary or binary trans person!

The thoughts still exist. For the last couple months I’ve been able to say I don’t care and lean into the comfort of being uncertain. Im having a tough time with some things personally right now and guess what decides to show up… Anyways, I’ve been trying to get used to the fact that maybe I’m bisexual with a romantic preference for men (I’m married and love my husband) but when you start going through your compulsions it’s soooo easy for everything to blur out. To my knowledge I’ve never had a crush on a woman but I’ve most definitely watched same sex porn and have thought women are hot and beautiful, then come the thoughts about comp het and how I’ve never been an overly sexual person so that MUST mean something. Ugh idk, just looking for someone to chat with I guess!