Starting my OCD journey tomorrow with NOCD. I’m so ready to get tips and tricks and send this OCD Flying out of the park! Anyone with suicidal OCD that’s newly starting and want to chat?
I have suicidal ocd and it is so hard!
@emmaelliott21 Do you have instagram? We could chat!
@JessieB Sure, it’s emmaelliott21
@emmaelliott21 Just requested you!
Currently struggling with this. I’m 4 months postpartum from my daughter and just moved to Hawaii. My thoughts are so overpowering of suicide, but then I’m like “I would never do this, I’m so happy, what is happening why am I thinking this” and I usually always get random thoughts of “how would I do it” and then I go “I wouldn’t do it because I don’t want to die”…. Pls tell me I’m not crazy haha
@KenzieRae96 Yep! That’s how the old brain is tricking us. Right now I barely get thoughts unless I find myself looking for them. But I do have the terrible anxiety everyday.
Pretty new to NOCD but very new to this particular theme 🥲
@Anonymous Yea it’s a real pain in the rump roast!
@JessieB No joke! I reallllly despise this one. I've been obsessed with worrying I have depression
@Anonymous Same! Exact same. My most troubling thought has been why are you making appointments, planning future events, buying stuff. My brain did the why do that you won’t be here. Now I don’t even get the thought. I just get a zing of anxiety. So dumb! Errrrrrr
@JessieB YES! man ocd is so unoriginal lol like I will be tired (from something totally explainable like poor sleep night before or hormones) and I will think "omg...they say ppl with depression have fatigue, it must be that" and spiral
@Anonymous Yep!!!! When I get anxiety I want to lay on the couch and relax. And first thing I think it’s welp! You prolly have depression. 🤦🏼♀️🙄
@JessieB Literally same. I saw a news story friday about a woman that committed suicide bc she had post partum depression and I spent the weekend crying bc I told myself I couldn't have children then in the case I ever develope that. My husband is very understanding but even he was like "honey...cmon" lol
@Anonymous Oh yes. The poor husbands lol. Mine too. He now does the “I’m not gonna reassure you.” lol. Perinatal OCD is when I first realized my thoughts were intrusive. Very scary. But I think I just ignored them and they went away. That was 11 years ago. So not really sure. I do remember googling my thoughts bc it scared the 💩 outta me.
@JessieB Ugh I remember the first moments when I realized I was getting scared of my own brain. If you want to chat more about it you're welcome to dm me on insta! mo.millan 😊
@Anonymous Will do!!!
@Anonymous Sent a request!
@Anonymous SAME. how are you now?
@Anonymous Oh my god, you have no idea how much i relate to that thought
@IN01 The key to winning over OCD is to not give two shits what it says. Just brush it off and go on. Once you don’t care what it has to say it goes away and YOU WIN.
Hey! It's definitely a really hard one and probably the scariest one I've gone through. My main theme is health related but out of no where the suicide theme came up. I'm glad you're in therapy, it changed my life and my therapist saved my life. You got this, trust in yourself and remember all of the tools they will teach you to help manage this. I went from being terrified of being alone and feeling trapped in my own mind to feeling like myself and feeling a lot more prepared when shit hits the fan!
I’ll be starting NOCD therapy on Monday, any words of advice?
I'm new to NOCD and have been dealing with harm/suicidal, and Pure OCD for some time now. It started off being healthy related anxiety that led to compulsion where I would research information on an uncommon illness or something I thought I had. Now it has snowballed into intrusive thoughts and images of me killing myself in various ways or my wife. The former is what has been the most debilitating and hardest to shake. Recently I seem to find triggers almost every where I look. "What if I killed myself this way" if I see a kitchen knife or a bottle of pills. A friend talked about going to a gun range a while back and an image popped up of me being there and turning a gun to myself which is something I dont want to do. I love life and its so painful to go through thoughts that try to tell me otherwise. That particular image/thought has really stuck with me. I know about ERP and my therapist said I could rip the bandaid off and go to a gun range but it terrifies me. I don't own any weapons but I often think, "what if I buy one and im actually suicidal?" Just typing it makes me anxious. I'm wanting to start a low dose of Prozac which opens up another can of worms about worried my "overdose thought" will come true, on top of potential side effects. This is long winded but im looking for any advice to get through this. I know others are worse off than me but considering I've never been like this and it only started 6 months ago, I'm really struggling. Thanks everyone.
Im new here so im not exactly sure what im supposed to be doing but my therapist recommended that I start using this platform. I have had OCD my whole life as does my mom and her parents, but I never had a formal diagnosis until about 5 years ago. Recently my OCD has been absolutely taking over my life and it is just so mentally exhausting. I know there’s nothing “wrong” with me but I really wish that I just didn’t have OCD. I really just want to be able to exist without all of these obsessions. I’ve seen a few posts from people just talking about experiences so if anyone has any tips on how best to use the platform that would be great! On a funnier note - I’m pretty open about my OCD and I mention it to a coworker and there response was “Do you really have that or is that just something you say”. And my response was oh yeah no I really have it and it really impacts every minute of everyday in my life and they were just like 😶
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