- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
SUICIDE OCD
Starting my OCD journey tomorrow with NOCD. I’m so ready to get tips and tricks and send this OCD Flying out of the park! Anyone with suicidal OCD that’s newly starting and want to chat?
Starting my OCD journey tomorrow with NOCD. I’m so ready to get tips and tricks and send this OCD Flying out of the park! Anyone with suicidal OCD that’s newly starting and want to chat?
I have suicidal ocd and it is so hard!
@emmaelliott21 Do you have instagram? We could chat!
@JessieB Sure, it’s emmaelliott21
@emmaelliott21 Just requested you!
Currently struggling with this. I’m 4 months postpartum from my daughter and just moved to Hawaii. My thoughts are so overpowering of suicide, but then I’m like “I would never do this, I’m so happy, what is happening why am I thinking this” and I usually always get random thoughts of “how would I do it” and then I go “I wouldn’t do it because I don’t want to die”…. Pls tell me I’m not crazy haha
@KenzieRae96 Yep! That’s how the old brain is tricking us. Right now I barely get thoughts unless I find myself looking for them. But I do have the terrible anxiety everyday.
Pretty new to NOCD but very new to this particular theme 🥲
@Anonymous Yea it’s a real pain in the rump roast!
@JessieB No joke! I reallllly despise this one. I've been obsessed with worrying I have depression
@Anonymous Same! Exact same. My most troubling thought has been why are you making appointments, planning future events, buying stuff. My brain did the why do that you won’t be here. Now I don’t even get the thought. I just get a zing of anxiety. So dumb! Errrrrrr
@JessieB YES! man ocd is so unoriginal lol like I will be tired (from something totally explainable like poor sleep night before or hormones) and I will think "omg...they say ppl with depression have fatigue, it must be that" and spiral
@Anonymous Yep!!!! When I get anxiety I want to lay on the couch and relax. And first thing I think it’s welp! You prolly have depression. 🤦🏼♀️🙄
@JessieB Literally same. I saw a news story friday about a woman that committed suicide bc she had post partum depression and I spent the weekend crying bc I told myself I couldn't have children then in the case I ever develope that. My husband is very understanding but even he was like "honey...cmon" lol
@Anonymous Oh yes. The poor husbands lol. Mine too. He now does the “I’m not gonna reassure you.” lol. Perinatal OCD is when I first realized my thoughts were intrusive. Very scary. But I think I just ignored them and they went away. That was 11 years ago. So not really sure. I do remember googling my thoughts bc it scared the 💩 outta me.
@JessieB Ugh I remember the first moments when I realized I was getting scared of my own brain. If you want to chat more about it you're welcome to dm me on insta! mo.millan 😊
@Anonymous Will do!!!
@Anonymous Sent a request!
Hey! It's definitely a really hard one and probably the scariest one I've gone through. My main theme is health related but out of no where the suicide theme came up. I'm glad you're in therapy, it changed my life and my therapist saved my life. You got this, trust in yourself and remember all of the tools they will teach you to help manage this. I went from being terrified of being alone and feeling trapped in my own mind to feeling like myself and feeling a lot more prepared when shit hits the fan!
Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
i am starting NOCD therapy on monday and was just curious on others’ experiences! what happens in your sessions, generally speaking? how do you feel during and after? i’m excited but also nervous to start. i’ve been in talk therapy for years with minimal improvement with my ocd, so im hopeful to start feeling better.
Hi everyone! My name is Tara, I’m a therapist here at NOCD. Before becoming a therapist, I worked various jobs in arts, textiles, prop styling, I worked in restaurants... I basically did what I could do with an undergrad in art living in Brooklyn, with a secret hope that I might someday pursue a career in mental health. Fun fact, I held onto that hope for 10 whole years before I decided to take a risk and apply to grad school! I wanted to become a therapist because I just knew that this was a field where my mind could work at its best and do the most good. Anyone else here with ADHD may understand. I simply cannot retain long term focus on something if I don’t absolutely love it, and I absolutely love this work. Having a job where my sole purpose is to connect with others and help them tap into their inner strength is an actual dream come true. I specifically love working with Exposure and Response Prevention and treating OCD, since the whole point of ERP is to show you you’re braver than you think you are. And it works so, so well. If you have a fear, and you think you “can’t” approach it, know that you most likely can. It might take some time to prove that to yourself, but with time and a steady dose of discomfort, you’ll get there. I’m sure that “discomfort” part didn’t sound appealing but let me ask you this - does OCD make you feel uncomfortable? Why not put some of that discomfort to work, in your favor? If you’re struggling with OCD, or you think you might be, know that you probably already have what it takes to thrive in ERP. You’re here. You recognized that you were struggling, you decided to find help, you downloaded the app, and you started reading through posts. I’m sure somewhere along the line, you felt at least a little uncomfortable, and you decided to take the next step anyway. That’s ERP in a nutshell :) Please ask me anything about OCD, your current symptoms or ERP. I’ll be responding over the next 2 days to questions.
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