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Dealing with this right now, I don’t know if I’ve done so many mental reviews to the point where I don’t even know anymore. I used to be able to say I’m straight, had a little anxiety because I thought I was lying. My mind now says I need to accept the bisexual label but I don’t see myself entering a relationship with a woman. I hate how OCD manifests and continues to grow

Honestly, I feel like sexuality is a spectrum, like following Kinsey's theory that only a small part of the population is genuinely 100% gay or straight and everyone else is somewhere in between. I have read research done that says that more neurodivergent individuals tend to be queer than neurotypical individuals because us neurodivergent people tend to have a harder time understand gender norms and social expectations of femininity/masculinity so we tend to be more fluid when it comes to gender and sexuality, this doesn't go for all neurodivergent individuals obviously but it's just that it's a more common pattern amongst us than it is in neurotypical individuals. Also, I read that women tend to be more sexually fluid and open to exploring their sexuality than men are, I don't quite understand why and have to read more on it but something about women feeling more comfortable in their femininity than men are in their masculinity that just allows them to be more open to experimenting with their sexuality. Anyways, I think it's common for many neurodivergent individuals to question their sexuality and romantic or even platonic attractions to others because most of us don't understand like social standards of relationships as well as neurotypical individual, so if you're questioning whether you're truly straight or maybe slightly less straight like finding the same sex individuals attractive but still liking the opposite sex more that's completely normal. Sexuality is such a complex thing and it's different for everyone so don't feel bad feeling that you may or may not be 100% straight. You are valid in your feelings and you're allowed to be attracted to whoever you are. Hope you feel more certain in your sexual identify as you grow and explore yourself as a person ❤️.

You use to worry about that before?

I feel exactly the same! I’ve done so much mental review that it makes my brain so confused! I know I want to be with a man it’s all I’ve ever wanted but this little voice in my head keeps saying I’ll never feel fulfilled and that I’m more turned on by women and that I’ll always feel like something is missing with a man …but being with a man is all I’ve ever wanted! I’ve lost some of my attraction to men too out of the anxiety! It sucks!!!!