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- Drepet123
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Going thru that rn. I'm lucky enough that I'm on a medication that works for me, I have a strong support network, and I'm in uni right now so I have things to do with myself. I recommend trying to figure out what's important to you and just commiting to it even if you feel like nothing is real or matters. It seems strange that you would care about something possibly fake, but everything's strange in some way. Commit to what you still have to do and do it. Accept that you probably won't know if you're developing psychosis or not. Don't tell yourself it is impossible or unlikely, tell yourself that you don't know, can't know right now, and that you have to keep going about your day-to-day despite this uncertainty. When I get really concerned about losing my mind, I tell myself "Well, I'm either going to lose it or I'm not, I can't really do anything to change that, maybe later on I can do stuff to treat it but thag's no guarantee, so I'm just gonna worry about stuff I actually care about and enjoy." It takes time (I've been doing this a few weeks and it takes lots of practice to accept the concerns) As for the anxiety, imagine your body and mind as a stove. The anxiety is a pot boiling water in the front. You can't put the pot away or it'll burn you, even if you dump the water. You can't leave it on the front burner either, because you have other stuff to cook. Put it on a back burner while you do other things - the heat will stay initially but then it'll eventually reach room temperature and you can monitor it without it taking up all your focus.
Going through the same thing at the moment. It’s crazy how much OCD can trick us into believing things. I have questioned if I’m in psychosis so much. It went away for awhile and then all the sudden comes back. I always feel like when it’s comes back, will be the time I lose it for real. I’m so sorry you are going through this as well. It helps to know we aren’t alone. This too shall pass. I have a hard time with if I was delusional, would I know it? Would I have insight? Those kinds of things. Trigger warning but I have a fear of becoming delusional and doing something bad, of believing a intrusive thought. It’s so hard to deal with. I can convince myself I’m losing it or something. Anyways, we will make it though this! Stay strong❤️
I can relate to this as well. I would have similar thoughts plus others, and they would cause me a lot of distress. Eventually I’d get over them for the most part, and poof several weeks later out of nowhere they reappear. They’re not as intense as they used to be though, thankfully. I have gotten better through making HUGE lifestyle changes like going to the gym daily, sports, doing chores around the house/yard, cutting back a little on video games, and vice versa. It does get really difficult at times though, but I find it a little easier to surround myself with people who support me and telling them about what’s on my mind from time to time. I’d also recommend following up on your faith if you are religious. Just make sure to keep yourself busy doing things that you enjoy. If you need anybody talk to, then feel free to send me a response through here:)
These are all fantastic bits of advice and I appreciate them very much!!! I just have to accept and learn to do that. I know I’m in the up and up and in the ends of the recovery phase, it just sucks to have the flare up again.
Has anyone else had an extreme fear of psychosis?? I made the mistake of reading so much about it that my mind is now always on “the lookout” for signs of it. This includes fixating on background noises, etc out of fear of hallucinations or hearing things. Naturally my mind has convinced me I must be, even though my psychiatrist has assured me I am just having anxiety/ocd. Has anyone had this and if so how did you get through??
Does anyone else struggle with the sub type of getting other mental illnesses? I don’t know why but out of nowhere I have now been struggling with thoughts of developing schizophrenia. Now I spend my time checking and making sure I’m not having any symptoms but the weird thing is my brain is like mimicking symptoms and then I end up with an anxiety attack because I feel as if I’m going crazy or I’m having delusional thoughts. It’s kind of put me in a funk and I’m hoping this passes. I’ve had something similar happen a few years before and was able to get out of it but if I have what I feel is a bizarre thought, I convince myself the thought wasn’t normal and I’m going crazy. Does anyone have any tips? Or similar situation?
Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.
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