I’ll feel fine for a few weeks, then get a scary thought like “what if this isn’t real” or “what if this is a video game or made just for me” scary things that I stupidly read one time can indicate “psychosis” or things like that. Now I know it’s not truly psychosis as the thought scares me and isn’t a “belief” it is an anxious intrusive thought but my mind always is like “but what if you have other mental illness”. I’ve been told by countless psychologists that I have anxiety and occasional OCD thoughts. But my question is has anyone else experienced that before, and if so how did you get through it and not focus on it? The anxiety sucks because the body sensations that go with it, but it just makes me hypersensitive and overly aware of everything. Advice?

flowerpond

Date posted: 6y

Going thru that rn. I'm lucky enough that I'm on a medication that works for me, I have a strong support network, and I'm in uni right now so I have things to do with myself. I recommend trying to figure out what's important to you and just commiting to it even if you feel like nothing is real or matters. It seems strange that you would care about something possibly fake, but everything's strange in some way. Commit to what you still have to do and do it. Accept that you probably won't know if you're developing psychosis or not. Don't tell yourself it is impossible or unlikely, tell yourself that you don't know, can't know right now, and that you have to keep going about your day-to-day despite this uncertainty. When I get really concerned about losing my mind, I tell myself "Well, I'm either going to lose it or I'm not, I can't really do anything to change that, maybe later on I can do stuff to treat it but thag's no guarantee, so I'm just gonna worry about stuff I actually care about and enjoy." It takes time (I've been doing this a few weeks and it takes lots of practice to accept the concerns) As for the anxiety, imagine your body and mind as a stove. The anxiety is a pot boiling water in the front. You can't put the pot away or it'll burn you, even if you dump the water. You can't leave it on the front burner either, because you have other stuff to cook. Put it on a back burner while you do other things - the heat will stay initially but then it'll eventually reach room temperature and you can monitor it without it taking up all your focus.

hannie

Date posted: 6y

Going through the same thing at the moment. It’s crazy how much OCD can trick us into believing things. I have questioned if I’m in psychosis so much. It went away for awhile and then all the sudden comes back. I always feel like when it’s comes back, will be the time I lose it for real. I’m so sorry you are going through this as well. It helps to know we aren’t alone. This too shall pass. I have a hard time with if I was delusional, would I know it? Would I have insight? Those kinds of things. Trigger warning but I have a fear of becoming delusional and doing something bad, of believing a intrusive thought. It’s so hard to deal with. I can convince myself I’m losing it or something. Anyways, we will make it though this! Stay strong❤️

BlitzOP

Date posted: 6y

I can relate to this as well. I would have similar thoughts plus others, and they would cause me a lot of distress. Eventually I’d get over them for the most part, and poof several weeks later out of nowhere they reappear. They’re not as intense as they used to be though, thankfully. I have gotten better through making HUGE lifestyle changes like going to the gym daily, sports, doing chores around the house/yard, cutting back a little on video games, and vice versa. It does get really difficult at times though, but I find it a little easier to surround myself with people who support me and telling them about what’s on my mind from time to time. I’d also recommend following up on your faith if you are religious. Just make sure to keep yourself busy doing things that you enjoy. If you need anybody talk to, then feel free to send me a response through here:)

Drepet123

Date posted: 6y

These are all fantastic bits of advice and I appreciate them very much!!! I just have to accept and learn to do that. I know I’m in the up and up and in the ends of the recovery phase, it just sucks to have the flare up again.

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 20w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

justsomone1

Date posted: 19w

ocd or phycosis?

idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when I’m not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it 💔 I can’t pin point if it’s intrusive thoughts because it’s a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have

cait1299

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 17w

Really struggling!

Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!

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