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- 5y ago
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Going thru that rn. I'm lucky enough that I'm on a medication that works for me, I have a strong support network, and I'm in uni right now so I have things to do with myself. I recommend trying to figure out what's important to you and just commiting to it even if you feel like nothing is real or matters. It seems strange that you would care about something possibly fake, but everything's strange in some way. Commit to what you still have to do and do it. Accept that you probably won't know if you're developing psychosis or not. Don't tell yourself it is impossible or unlikely, tell yourself that you don't know, can't know right now, and that you have to keep going about your day-to-day despite this uncertainty. When I get really concerned about losing my mind, I tell myself "Well, I'm either going to lose it or I'm not, I can't really do anything to change that, maybe later on I can do stuff to treat it but thag's no guarantee, so I'm just gonna worry about stuff I actually care about and enjoy." It takes time (I've been doing this a few weeks and it takes lots of practice to accept the concerns) As for the anxiety, imagine your body and mind as a stove. The anxiety is a pot boiling water in the front. You can't put the pot away or it'll burn you, even if you dump the water. You can't leave it on the front burner either, because you have other stuff to cook. Put it on a back burner while you do other things - the heat will stay initially but then it'll eventually reach room temperature and you can monitor it without it taking up all your focus.
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- 5y ago
Going through the same thing at the moment. It’s crazy how much OCD can trick us into believing things. I have questioned if I’m in psychosis so much. It went away for awhile and then all the sudden comes back. I always feel like when it’s comes back, will be the time I lose it for real. I’m so sorry you are going through this as well. It helps to know we aren’t alone. This too shall pass. I have a hard time with if I was delusional, would I know it? Would I have insight? Those kinds of things. Trigger warning but I have a fear of becoming delusional and doing something bad, of believing a intrusive thought. It’s so hard to deal with. I can convince myself I’m losing it or something. Anyways, we will make it though this! Stay strong❤️
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- 5y ago
I can relate to this as well. I would have similar thoughts plus others, and they would cause me a lot of distress. Eventually I’d get over them for the most part, and poof several weeks later out of nowhere they reappear. They’re not as intense as they used to be though, thankfully. I have gotten better through making HUGE lifestyle changes like going to the gym daily, sports, doing chores around the house/yard, cutting back a little on video games, and vice versa. It does get really difficult at times though, but I find it a little easier to surround myself with people who support me and telling them about what’s on my mind from time to time. I’d also recommend following up on your faith if you are religious. Just make sure to keep yourself busy doing things that you enjoy. If you need anybody talk to, then feel free to send me a response through here:)
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- 5y ago
These are all fantastic bits of advice and I appreciate them very much!!! I just have to accept and learn to do that. I know I’m in the up and up and in the ends of the recovery phase, it just sucks to have the flare up again.
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My mind keeps telling me “something is wrong with you. the weird feeling you are feeling or the weird tingling you are feeling or there is a weird mark on your body. Those are actually a severe symptom and by ignoring it you could die!” Or especially the constant, “go to the emergency room because this impending doom you are feeling, yeah that’s because your gonna die shortly” It doesn’t help whenever people say “well if something was wrong your body would tell you” because my mind keeps telling me that what I’m feeling is proof something is wrong and I need to get it checked out. That I actually am severely sick and that I need to get it checked out as soon as possible, that if I get one more test than I’ll be okay because it will prove nothing is wrong. How do I tell my mind that it’s just anxiety whenever my mind keeps telling me “well if you keep saying that you could be ignoring something more serious.” Or “the doctors are just brushing you off..something is wrong with you” It’s hard to live with my thoughts whenever they are constantly coming up with ways to challenge me and challenge logic. New reasons on why I need to get this checked out because “I’m just being ignored” or “no one is listening to me so I’ll just end up dying” My symptoms range from weak and shaking legs and body to dizzy and unbalanced and dissociated. Recently I’ve been getting this tingling feeling inside my head and on the back of my neck. And my temples have pressure on them. My body keeps coming up with new symptoms I need to worry about, whenever most of them are probably caused by severe and constant anxiety. So severe I can’t even leave the house because I constantly worry about whether this is severe and something will happen if I leave the house. I need immediate ways to start fixing this because it’s especially horrible whenever my period comes around and my anxiety/depression is already higher than usual. I’ve even started considering taking medication (Zoloft, 25mg) which is another trigger for me, I worry about the symptoms I might get from taking it. That’s how you know it’s gotten pretty bad whenever I’ve come to taking something that I’ve been actively avoiding. What are your thoughts? Do I take the medication? What are ways I can deal with my symptoms that seem so severe in the moment but pass by once I’m not anxious? What are ways my thoughts can ease and I stop taking every symptom as something serious, because at the end of the day my anxiety is most likely the reason I have these horrible symptoms. I’ve always been extremely healthy and everytime I go to the doctors they express how healthy I am with all the tests I’ve had.
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- 21w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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- 18w ago
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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