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I’m finding it really hard to argue back with the thoughts/feelings. I don’t understand why I’d feel this way if I truly loved him. I feel like I’m just trying to make it be OCD when In fact it isn’t. I have found him annoying recently and the idea of intimacy has suddenly made me feel uncomfortable (it didn’t beforehand). I just want this to go away but i really can’t see how I’ll ever feel the same about him again. I want it to work and go back to normal. Everything was fine until recently and this started out of the blue- I don’t think it’ll ever be good again now.
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I will do! It’s in an hour or so, I’ll let you know as soon as I’m done!
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I feel the same- 80% of my brain might be screaming ‘leave, it’s over, you don’t love him’ but there’s a tiny little whisper saying ‘you do, stay, make it work’. It’s so hard! I finally get over one thing and it throws another into the mix.
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I’ve got an appointment with Alexis tonight! I hope it’ll give some insight
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I have struggled finding one- Alexis and Kiyomi were my only option. And okay that’s good to know- I’m hoping this passes too. It’s such a weird thing, I’d love to know why it happens
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Guys let me know how those sessions go!
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Reading articles is never a good thing .... ocd can make u feel and think all kinds of negative rubbish and be so real I’m at point at the moment where the thoughts are not what if there like it’s over just leave don’t want this anymore etc but somewhere in my heart there is a little voice saying it is what u want don’t let ocd throw this away
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Can totally relate last week I finally felt free of ocd for about 4 days then boom it’s back with a bang I want to be with my partner so much but all these thoughts are saying otherwise I feel guilty and angry for feeling this way then I feel nothing because so tired from it then I start worrying that I don’t want to be without her and I can feel emotions and love then I’ll get a thought of it’s over and and my guy just sinks
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I just started the awaken into love course with kiyomi fae it makes so much sense and how devastating rocd can actually be
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Ah brilliant ... my therapist in uk is very good ... I went thru the I don’t find my partner attractive and couldn’t bring myself to touch her but it passed they say rocd fixates on what matters the most and the most distressing thoughts will heighten the anxiety as we don’t want to feel it so will feel it a whole lot more if that makes sense .... but when spiked nothing makes sense or reason does it
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How did it go with alexis hope was good for u
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anyone else have ROCD that has no desire to kiss their boyfriend, I almost feel like an ick when I do, I'm scared. Help!
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I’ve been really struggling the last week and I need some help. I’ve been seeing a guy for about 2 months who checks a lot of my relationship boxes. He’s so kind and we have a lot of fun together. The first few weeks I was totally smitten but had moments of fear about being committed. We talked about it and decided to take things slowly, and then I would have days of feeling like every thing was perfect with some fearful feelings in between. Two weeks ago now my SO-OCD and ROCD started to come back a little as well as my more anxious-avoidant behaviors. I started to get more scared of the future and it was more intense. At the end of last week, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. He is exactly the type of person I see myself marrying and has great values and is so secure about me. Until last week, he generally made me feel so safe and secure. Ever since saying yes, I feel so scared and anxious and my SO-OCD and ROCD is on max. I also find myself getting more annoyed and irritated about things that were minor annoyances or non-issues before. I’m having intense physical responses to both OCD themes, and the nagging thought and feeling that I need to end things with him because we aren’t right for each other. It makes me feel so sad and guilty. Sex is becoming harder because of the thoughts too, whereas at first it was perfect. I don’t know who I can talk to about this without them telling me to just break up with him. Everything is so new so I think they’d chalk it up to my intuition. But I do want to be in love and have less fear around relationships, so I don’t want to give into the fear. I think it could help me to set boundaries and have space for myself more often. I think I need some advice or insight. I know I shouldn’t ask for reassurance, but having some around how other people have felt at the beginning of a relationship would help. Why is it that the label is freaking me out so much? How do you guys set boundaries to prioritize yourself when you feel this way?
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Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely confused and guilty. My boyfriend has been really busy with exams, and we haven’t talked much this past week. I don’t really feel like I miss him, and that scares me. It makes me think maybe I don’t love him anymore, maybe I’ve changed, and maybe this relationship doesn’t feel right for me anymore. A few days ago, a friend invited me to go to a club with her and another girl. I know that if I went without my boyfriend, he would feel bad — not because he’s controlling, but because in our relationship, we’ve always had mutual boundaries and respect. I decided not to go, but ever since, I’ve been spiraling. My thoughts keep going: “What if I didn’t go just because of him?”, “What if I actually wanted to go, but I stopped myself because I don’t really love him?”, “What if I’m holding myself back and this relationship is limiting me?” All of this makes me think I’m bored, that I don’t like him anymore, or that I’m staying out of habit. It’s hard to tell what I really want or whether these thoughts are part of ROCD or some deeper truth. I keep wondering if I’m just attached to him because he’s my first boyfriend and we’ve been together for so long. Sometimes I even think I wouldn’t care if we broke up, and that I don’t feel anything for him anymore — and that absolutely destroys me, because he’s such a good person who truly loves me. He doesn’t deserve to be treated with so much doubt and coldness. I feel miserable. I don’t know what’s real and what’s just obsession. It hurts that I can’t feel any clarity or peace. I just want to know if this is ROCD or if I’m in denial and refusing to accept the truth
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