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I’m finding it really hard to argue back with the thoughts/feelings. I don’t understand why I’d feel this way if I truly loved him. I feel like I’m just trying to make it be OCD when In fact it isn’t. I have found him annoying recently and the idea of intimacy has suddenly made me feel uncomfortable (it didn’t beforehand). I just want this to go away but i really can’t see how I’ll ever feel the same about him again. I want it to work and go back to normal. Everything was fine until recently and this started out of the blue- I don’t think it’ll ever be good again now.
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I will do! It’s in an hour or so, I’ll let you know as soon as I’m done!
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I feel the same- 80% of my brain might be screaming ‘leave, it’s over, you don’t love him’ but there’s a tiny little whisper saying ‘you do, stay, make it work’. It’s so hard! I finally get over one thing and it throws another into the mix.
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I’ve got an appointment with Alexis tonight! I hope it’ll give some insight
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I have struggled finding one- Alexis and Kiyomi were my only option. And okay that’s good to know- I’m hoping this passes too. It’s such a weird thing, I’d love to know why it happens
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Guys let me know how those sessions go!
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Reading articles is never a good thing .... ocd can make u feel and think all kinds of negative rubbish and be so real I’m at point at the moment where the thoughts are not what if there like it’s over just leave don’t want this anymore etc but somewhere in my heart there is a little voice saying it is what u want don’t let ocd throw this away
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Can totally relate last week I finally felt free of ocd for about 4 days then boom it’s back with a bang I want to be with my partner so much but all these thoughts are saying otherwise I feel guilty and angry for feeling this way then I feel nothing because so tired from it then I start worrying that I don’t want to be without her and I can feel emotions and love then I’ll get a thought of it’s over and and my guy just sinks
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I just started the awaken into love course with kiyomi fae it makes so much sense and how devastating rocd can actually be
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Ah brilliant ... my therapist in uk is very good ... I went thru the I don’t find my partner attractive and couldn’t bring myself to touch her but it passed they say rocd fixates on what matters the most and the most distressing thoughts will heighten the anxiety as we don’t want to feel it so will feel it a whole lot more if that makes sense .... but when spiked nothing makes sense or reason does it
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How did it go with alexis hope was good for u
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- 21w
It hurts so much to write that. Lately, every time I talk to my boyfriend — whether it’s through text or in person — I feel this deep irritation, like everything he says or does annoys me. Sometimes, it even feels like disgust, and it’s terrifying. I don’t feel love. I don’t feel excitement. I don’t even feel sadness about not feeling anything… just numb. I look at him and I don’t feel like I used to. I don’t know what happened to me. I used to be so sure I loved him, and now I feel like a completely different person — cold, distant, empty. My brain keeps telling me: “You don’t love him anymore. You never did. You’re only staying out of habit.” My mom told me that if I don’t like him anymore, then I’m hurting both him and myself by staying in this. And hearing that broke me. Because that’s exactly what I fear — that I’m faking everything, and I just don’t want to admit the truth. I feel so lost. And I don’t know how to separate my thoughts from reality anymore. All I know is that I want to feel something again — anything. Because right now, all I feel is guilt, fear, and confusion. i used to know these thoughts are just thoughts and that if i didn’t have them i would be so happy but now, i cant think aboyr that bc the thoughts feel too real.
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- 20w
Hi everyone, I’m a 30-year-old woman, and I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 5 years. I’ve always felt emotionally close to him — he’s caring, supportive, and we planned a future together, including having a family. I don’t want to leave him. He means so much to me. But for a while now, I’ve been obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction to him anymore. It’s not like I never felt anything — when we first met, there were butterflies, excitement, emotional connection… something real. He was never “just a friend” to me. But the physical side of the relationship feels like it’s slowly faded, and I’m panicking about what that means. I keep thinking things like: – “Maybe I chose the wrong person.” – “You can’t be in love without sexual desire.” – “If I was truly in love, I would still want him.” – “What if I’ve been lying to myself this whole time?” Sometimes my body reacts — I can feel physical closeness or even arousal — but my mind shuts down and says: “no, this isn’t right.” Other times, I feel tension, resistance, or even disgust during intimacy, and I can’t tell if that’s anxiety or if something is fundamentally wrong. What makes this even more confusing is that I truly believe that real love includes sexual attraction. For me, it’s all part of one feeling — not separate. So if the attraction is gone, does that mean the love is too? Is it possible that this is still OCD — that my mind is obsessing and disconnecting me from my real feelings? Has anyone experienced something similar? Any support would mean so much. I feel so stuck between my mind and my heart.
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I’m struggling with something I’m afraid to even admit out loud. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. He’s kind, safe, and emotionally close to me — and we’ve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe… I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection — and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, I’m starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was “supposed to.” Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness — but not sexual chemistry. And now I don’t know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: – “If you really loved him, you’d want him.” – “You’re leading him on.” – “What if you’re lying to yourself?” – “If you try to fix this and fail, you’ll have to leave.” I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship — and being terrified that trying will just prove it’s hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
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