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im always worried about something when im bored and for a long time i have been scared of being a psyhopath how do i tell myself im not someone help and tell my how do i tell myself im not is this ocd?
im always worried about something when im bored and for a long time i have been scared of being a psyhopath how do i tell myself im not someone help and tell my how do i tell myself im not is this ocd?
Yeah I have ocd and it sounds similar to what I struggle with- my obsession was whether I was a psychopath too a couple years ago. I suggest you seek professional treatment as the number one thing you should do- but I have some things that have helped me. I found it helpful identifying any compulsions if there are any… Examples can be searching symptoms of a psychopath a lot, thinking of past memories where you may have been a psychopath a lot? If you have compulsions finding ways to avoid doing them will ease this anxiety in the long run because your brain will stop viewing this worry as so important. Accepting that whatever worry I was worrying about could possibly be true also helped and maybe I’ll never know the answer to whatever my obsession is and that’s fine. Maybe we are both psychopaths. No amount of fear and worrying is going to change that though. You deserve peace of mind and a life without the restraints of your anxiety. I’ve improved at not doing the mental compulsion of worrying about my obsession all day by doing this thing called worry time, which my councillor taught me, basically you schedule a time in the day for worrying, it can be before tea of after- anytime, but I don’t recommend doing it before bed because you need an activity to take your mind off your worries after your worry time otherwise you will probably stay up at night worrying. In worry time you write a list of what’s worrying and then you label them hypothetical or practical. A practical worry is something you can control, like if you’re worried about an exam you can put in your calendar to revise for it. Hypothetical is something you can’t control, like if you’re a psychopath and for those worries you have to distract yourself from them. When you are listing and labelling these worries you also have to do it between 5 and 15 minutes, I found 10 works for me, I thought it would be longer, but actually 10 is quite long. Then after worry time you need to do an activity that distracts you and makes you think of something else. I found using the app Duolingo as a good distraction technique because I just forget everything around me when I’m going on it and it’s such a cute designn :D Also don’t stress if your worry does come up when it isn’t worry time, it’s completely normal and won’t mess up the results, you just need to try to redirect your attention to something else. I’m not a doctor and again- seeking professional help is the 1st thing you should do, but I know how crappy waiting lists can be in some countries and this is what helped me :)
@Lilybethxoxo Sorry I forgot to include- the purpose of worry time is that you put off any worries you have in the day for this designated time
@Lilybethxoxo thanks so much but how do i tell my mind that im not a psycopath do you have any advice idk why that thing came to my mind i think because i saw a thing on tik tok
@denidom Oh TikToks can be pretty bad with discussing things like social issues, misinformation is so easily spread and when I was on it it never felt like topics were discussed to their full complexity because of how short TikToks are. I think that you should try to redirect your attention to something else instead of trying to tell your brain you’re not a psychopath when you’re brain just isn’t believing you
@Lilybethxoxo okay thanks so much ill try ❤️
Hello , You are not a psychopath . It is just OCD telling you that you are . If you find it easier to control your symptoms when you are doing something find yourself something to do: hobby , or what you always wanted to do later , or something that could make you feel relaxed like meditation . I hope that helps .
@ Liza how do i tell myself im not?
If you was one you wouldn’t be worry about it so you are not real one don’t care they don’t worry about it
@Monii thanks so much you made me a lot better
@denidom :) your welcome
i’m trying to not let the thoughts bother me but it’s just so stressful. even me typing that feels like i’m lying when i know i’m not. i’m scared because even my therapist tells me that it’s just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly don’t believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know it’s ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like “dude, your therapist said it’s ocd, she isn’t wrong” but the back of my mind is like “she is wrong, it’s not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and it’s your fate”. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling
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I don't know what this is, I don't know enough about OCD, my psychiatrist put me on a medication and told me I have OCD and a mood disorder but I didn't ask any questions because I didn't want to be annoying. I have "evidence" that every year, when I think about death, the world kills someone I love, and it always happens twice. I have nothing to help change that, like, I don't do anything with my thoughts or anything numbers or ritually, so I wasn't sure if it even was OCD, but I do move my hands in certain ways to make my friends happy or improve their lives. Also I cant turn off my fan or something SA related will happen (i dont know how) I think that the world is threatening me, and that if I do something wrong or involve myself with certain things, the world will punish me and the people around me, so all I can do is apologize I've tried looking into the different types of OCD, and all of them are things that I've been anxious about before, but I haven't really been so anxious about any one of them in particular or held onto it for so long, or done any rituals, that I would probably not even say I have OCD. Like, I worry that I'm a nazi, I worry that I like kids, I worry that I killed my friend, I worry that I have schizophrenia or am somehow giving myself it, I worry that I'm going to abuse someone, I worry that I've already abused someone, I worry that somehow I might die, I worry people can hear my thoughts, I worry about ignoring my friend when he cried out for help, I worry that God has already rejected me from heaven, I worry that I like women, I worry that if I don't hit the hammer 9 times on the wall when Im using it that just something bad will happen that I dont know what and I don't know why, and I feel like I don't have a single compulsion that can even "fix" or bring relief to any of these things besides saying sorry, because if I say sorry at least people know that I am apologetic for the crimes I've committed, but saying sorry doesn't fix anything except my own guilt so I'm just a bad person looking for sympathy or seeking attention I don't know enough about OCD, and I don't know how to seek help for my condition because I don't even know if that's really what I have, if I'm not just simply anxious, or possibly schizophrenic Does any of this seem familiar to anyone? Can it be this varied and unfocused? Does this really sound like OCD, or can it be anything else, because I don't want to bark up the wrong tree when I could just be taking medication for something else.
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