christan

Seek the truth, which is that you are loved and forgiven God just wants a relationship with you, he’s not interested in punishment, he already took that on for you. Now he just wants you to know he loves you and to love him back

I’m not part of your religion as an agnostic, but I feel like if there is a god that they would want to support you and forgive you, welcome you no matter what. The negative actions do the church don’t accurately represent what the creator of everything would feel

I’ve been there….you are not alone in your pain. I suggest googling Mark deJesus. Also Jaimie Eckert has a site called scrupulosity.com and helps thousands of people struggling with these types of issues. I have a website called WagingWarAgainstOCD.com - I wrote a book you can learn more about there - Chapter 8 and 9 would be of great help. (You can email me at WagingWarAgainstOCD@gmail.com and I’d be happy to mail you a copy) A good starting point is to believe the character of God. The Bible clearly tells us He is kind, gentle, merciful, full of grace towards us. He is NOT sitting there to beat us over the head for every mistake we make. He knows our hearts more than we ever could and He still loves us.