When the massive paranoia of death hits lol

I'm literally just hanging out with my sister and having a good time and I realized "I'm not gonna be young like this forever" and that I'm not immune to death or aging. I'm living just to slowly watch my body die. I'm already going to be 15 this year. I've already passed so much time and I feel like it's going to be so quick and I'll be dead. What if I like living more? What if there's nothing after death? What if it's just black and everything is for nothing. It kinda makes me wish I wasn't born so i wouldn't have to deal with this. it's so stressful. Every moment that passes I'm just getting closer to something I can't control. It's so scary. I can't do this. I physically cannot accept one day I'm going to be gone absolutely forever. I'll have to leave everything. Two minutes ago I wasn't as close to death as I am now. I'm cant handle this.

Username: MichaelOLangleyMichaelOLangley

Date posted: 49w ago

hey, sounds like you're dealing with some really intense thoughts right now - that existential stuff can hit hard, especially outta nowhere when you're just trying to enjoy time with family. it's tough when your brain spirals into those unanswerable questions and the whole concept of time starts feeling like a ticking clock. 😓 have you heard about "unstuck"? it's this ai therapy tool just for us with ocd (unstuckmyocd.com/try), and honestly, it's been a game changer for me this past month. someone from this forum put me onto it, and i just wish i had known about it sooner!

Username: Vee4444Vee4444

Date posted: 45w ago

I'll look it up thanks :)

Username: Kuan462

Date posted: 3y ago

Existential Anxiety Anyone else question their life’s purpose or wonder if there is an afterlife. I have been obsessing over the idea that we are mortal and it’s stressing me out. I want to live in the moment and enjoy my life, but I can’t stop obsessing over these thoughts. Can anyone relate? What helps?

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: Sparkle_kiwi

Date posted: 3y ago

Hey guys! Trigger warning because I don’t want anyone to read this and adopt a new intrusive thought! So I’ve been struggling recently with something that seems pretty unique, and I could really use any help I can get with this thought. Basically, a little while back, I all of a sudden had this thought that nothing matters, because at the end of the day, we are all going to die anyways. Since then, any time I start getting really excited or if I start feeling depressed about something, that intrusive thought pops into my head. It tells me that there’s no point in feeling anything deeply because it’s not a big deal and life is short. I know some people might say this is a good way to look at things that stress you out, but it’s really really starting to affect me in the realm of things that make me happy too. I’ll get excited to move in with my bf, and then this thought pops in intrusively and I immediately feel nothing now. I’m struggling to start my schoolwork that I was looking forward to doing well on because this way of thinking tells me it doesn’t even matter to finish my degree and be passionate about it, because I’m just going to die someday and this doesn’t matter. The things that made me excited before, now don’t simply because of this very thought. Not to be dramatic, but this one thought has changed my entire mindset and is literally changing my life. I really really really need help with this. It’s causing me not to feel like I used to, and I’m scared for how the rest of my life will feel now that I’ve adopted this intrusive thought.😢

Username: justsomone1

Date posted: 1y ago

I just don’t know :(

why am I so scared of death at 15 ???? I think everything is a sign and I’m constantly in fear of how my friends and family would feel if I died it makes me wanna cry. 🥹🥹

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