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I need help
Im having a horrible panic attack right now and have been because of rocd. I feel like a failure and my mom made it even worse. Please help me
Im having a horrible panic attack right now and have been because of rocd. I feel like a failure and my mom made it even worse. Please help me
Hey love! Ocd is beyond hard, and it’s very good at making itself seem invisible and like it’s not the problem. When I was younger my mom always made my ocd worse and honestly still does. But I’m learning to recognize that and to see that this is ocd and not me. Some people trigger it more than others but it’s not the people that are the problem. It’s the disease. And we have to remember in our hardest moments that this is a disease. I’m extremely proud of you for reaching out for help, and please know you are never alone. A lot of people on this app including me are going through very similar problems but it connects us all in a way. And knowing other people can get better just shows you can too. You’ve got this❤️🫶
Many successful people fail before they finally succeed. If you keep going and learn from your mistakes you will eventually succeed. Check out the YouTube channel OCD and Anxiety it has helped me a lot. Treatment for OCD takes work and consistency. First, start recognizing whenever OCD thoughts pop into your head to train your brain to recognize these are from OCD by saying to yourself " I think this may be an OCD thought" then face your fear by saying " this may or may not happen there's no way to be certain" ERP can be done by yourself but it's more helpful with a therapist. Your anxiety will spike at first because you are challenging the uncertainty but soon, if you don't do any compulsions, it will decrease quickly. Just don't reassure yourself, and don't look anything up online to reassure yourself. Don't try to be certain about anything OCD related.
I feel so upset right now. Can anyone relate? I keep having this delusional-type thoughts that my mom is out to hurt me. We live together and at night when I’m trying to sleep I get the thought that she is going to come in my bedroom and hurt me. My mom is so kind and loving, she’s my best friend. I know OCD attacks what we love, but I can’t let this go. I try to just reply with a “maybe, maybe not,” but then it comes back full force and says “you’re in denial, they’re brainwashing you to think that way, etc.” and it freaks me out and makes me feel so down. Like it says “your life is in danger, don’t dismiss this!” I keep thinking I’m in psychosis. Like if someone asks me if I truly believe these things, I want to automatically rely “I don’t know.” Because the doubt and realness of the thoughts/feelings deal soo real like I’m convinced of these things. I just feel so lost and confused. It makes me feel sick. I confess all of these things to my mom, which I know is just me seeking reassurance. I try to say to myself if I truly believed she was out to hurt me, I probably wouldn’t even be sharing this with her. But then again my mind always has a rebuttal to bring me back into rumination. I want this to be easier. I want my life back. I have been dealing with ocd for years now and this flare up has been the worst yet. Please, I know I’m seeking reassurance, but can anyone relate to any of this?
Tonight is one of the hardest nights I’ve ever had with harm ocd. It’s really one of those nights I’m doubting it’s ocd. I’m having panic attack after panic attack and it’s been the past couple of days where it’s been its highest. I’m doing everything I can to cope, like a hot shower (in the middle of a panic attack, hardest thing ever) skin care, turning my diffuser on and skincare. I took a klonopin but it hasn’t kicked in yet. My brain is beating me up with thoughts like “who thinks like this, you’re a serial killer! A murderer! You should be locked up!” Watching my family around me have peace and be normal is so hard because I’m here struggling to just lay down and relax. Part of me feels like I’m gonna lose my mind and end up in the hospital tonight. I just need positive reinforcement and people who can relate. Are you guys there?
I’m going through a really bad flare up. I developed ocd many years ago when I had my first child. Postpartum ocd. I suffer from harm and pocd. At first I had mostly mental and some physical compulsions but the physical faded away pretty early on and i’ve just done mental compulsions since. My ocd was in remission for alot of years and if the ocd would pop up now and again, I was easily able to shrug it off and not engage. A few years ago I went through a stressful time in my life and the ocd came back to stay. At first it was bad but then it got better and has been pretty mild until now. It’s been really bad this week and the physical compulsions are even back. I never thought it would ever get this bad again. My ocd is making me doubt who I am and how I feel. I know it’s all ocd and not real or true but the ocd makes it feel so real that I can’t easily dismiss or disprove it. The more I try to disprove it the more real the ocd makes it feel. I’m really struggling and don’t know how to get back on track. I don’t have access to a therapist because there are no ocd specialists near me and my insurance doesn’t cover online therapy. That’s why i’m reaching out here. Has anyone been through a rough relapse? How can I get through and past this??
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