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Also I forgot to add - I look like shit as a result, I have no motivation to dress nicely anymore, my skin is awful, I drink loads, my makeup routine is no more, I don’t sleep enough, I’m isolated and have no idea how to find more work cuz I never hear back so I gave up. I’m late a lot and have to make up time, every day drags and I am not productive of professional anymkre
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It’s not about the job. It’s about the “snowball effect” everything has been slowly piling up to the point where it’s out of control. You can take that control back. That’s your decision. That’s your choice. Keep paddling against the current and keep fighting the rapids or go in a different direction. Take baby steps and change the habits. Spend your time and energy on YOU. Get to bed on time, limit drinking, get up early exercise and spend time getting ready. Get to work 10 mins. early for YOU. Stay positive and happy for your well being!
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I’ve tried to apply for jobs and it always seems futile when o hear nothing back. I’m tempted daily to just get up leave and never return. I see no other way out
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Why not improve yourself first and then quit the job. Make a plan and follow it. There’s no easy answer or solution, but you can always better yourself and your outlook on things.
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I can relate to your post so much :(
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Most jobs are soul sucking, but we need them to support our lives outside of the office. What can you do to improve your life outside of it all? Reinvest in old hobbies? Find new ones? Reconnect with friends? Make new ones? Redecorate? Fix this up? During your work day, try practicing mindfulness. If you can plug into some headphones a few minutes a day you can even do guided meditations with the Stop, Breath & Think app. You can also do something on the side to build new skills that could take you to a new job. This could be night classes, online classes, or self taught skills.
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