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Right now, I feel convinced about the thoughts. I felt aroused about thinking of same sex scenarios. I feel sick and just lost. I just read something on quora , and it made me just so confused. I really hate this, I’m so sad. I don’t want to think about my sexuality 24/7.
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@esosa !!!! Tik tok triggers me so much! There’s triggers everywhere because man, this generation is so accepting that everyone is free to be gay/bi/lesbian and any other sexuality.
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She doubted it, but maybe in another way than we do it. We analyze it, we think about it constantly, we get triggered by nearly everything sexual and we don’t like the thought. It’s intrusive with HOCD.
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@advice It’s sad to hear that, but I think if you have HOCD it’s normal to have days like these. I hope you will get better soon. Do yourself a favour and AVOID forums like „quora“. Believe me, since 2 weeks I avoided every forum (expect this) because it drove me crazy! Especially quora and reddit! As soon as I quit searching for answers on forums like these, I started feeling better and I could handle my uncertainty MUCH better! On forums like these sometimes there are people who will generalize their experience on all other people. Especially people without (!) HOCD/OCD. It’s good to ask for help or to share feelings on forums like this app because we can understand each other better as we all suffer from the SAME issue, but other pages will drive you crazy and male you sick as a HOCD-sufferer. There will come better days, believe me! ❤️✨ sending my best wishes to you
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Thank you, have you ever felt this way? Like convinced and aroused ?
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Yes, a hundred times! Like I can’t tell you how often I felt this way. Same sex scenarios can also turn straight people on, there are plenty of girls which also have sex with the same sex but don’t are homosexual or love the same sex in a romantic way. So many sexual things can arouse humans. And I felt so often convinced. I had like thousand moments where I said to myself „Accept it. You‘re lesbian“ but after that, the relief didn’t come. The thoughts started again. And this is because of your mental illness: HOCD. Your thoughts are your symptoms, nothing else.
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I was on tik tok today (I know, sue me) and there was this one where this girl who is bi said that she didn’t come out till 17 because she shoved the possibility of liking women so far down, that she doubted it. Like the silly person I am, I immediately started analyzing my past. I also feel guilty for not liking girls? Like I’m supposed to because I’ve questioned it but I don’t so it’s like I’m wrong?? If that makes sense.
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@advice? As it should be. Coming from a Christian household despite being reluctant to speak up on it, it never made sense to me of how people within the LGBT community are treated. But because of that (which isn’t anyone’s fault) it makes it more confusing as to whether we’re truly suffering or preventing ourselves from living the lives that we “want” or should have.
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@MentalHelp that makes so much sense!
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And: she doubted that she is gay, we doubt that we are straight! I think it’s not the same...
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