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Right now, I feel convinced about the thoughts. I felt aroused about thinking of same sex scenarios. I feel sick and just lost. I just read something on quora , and it made me just so confused. I really hate this, I’m so sad. I don’t want to think about my sexuality 24/7.
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@esosa !!!! Tik tok triggers me so much! There’s triggers everywhere because man, this generation is so accepting that everyone is free to be gay/bi/lesbian and any other sexuality.
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She doubted it, but maybe in another way than we do it. We analyze it, we think about it constantly, we get triggered by nearly everything sexual and we don’t like the thought. It’s intrusive with HOCD.
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@advice It’s sad to hear that, but I think if you have HOCD it’s normal to have days like these. I hope you will get better soon. Do yourself a favour and AVOID forums like „quora“. Believe me, since 2 weeks I avoided every forum (expect this) because it drove me crazy! Especially quora and reddit! As soon as I quit searching for answers on forums like these, I started feeling better and I could handle my uncertainty MUCH better! On forums like these sometimes there are people who will generalize their experience on all other people. Especially people without (!) HOCD/OCD. It’s good to ask for help or to share feelings on forums like this app because we can understand each other better as we all suffer from the SAME issue, but other pages will drive you crazy and male you sick as a HOCD-sufferer. There will come better days, believe me! ❤️✨ sending my best wishes to you
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Thank you, have you ever felt this way? Like convinced and aroused ?
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Yes, a hundred times! Like I can’t tell you how often I felt this way. Same sex scenarios can also turn straight people on, there are plenty of girls which also have sex with the same sex but don’t are homosexual or love the same sex in a romantic way. So many sexual things can arouse humans. And I felt so often convinced. I had like thousand moments where I said to myself „Accept it. You‘re lesbian“ but after that, the relief didn’t come. The thoughts started again. And this is because of your mental illness: HOCD. Your thoughts are your symptoms, nothing else.
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I was on tik tok today (I know, sue me) and there was this one where this girl who is bi said that she didn’t come out till 17 because she shoved the possibility of liking women so far down, that she doubted it. Like the silly person I am, I immediately started analyzing my past. I also feel guilty for not liking girls? Like I’m supposed to because I’ve questioned it but I don’t so it’s like I’m wrong?? If that makes sense.
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@advice? As it should be. Coming from a Christian household despite being reluctant to speak up on it, it never made sense to me of how people within the LGBT community are treated. But because of that (which isn’t anyone’s fault) it makes it more confusing as to whether we’re truly suffering or preventing ourselves from living the lives that we “want” or should have.
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@MentalHelp that makes so much sense!
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And: she doubted that she is gay, we doubt that we are straight! I think it’s not the same...
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Hey everyone. I wanted to share my story and some of the things I have/am experiencing in my journey with OCD- particularly with Sexual Orientation OCD. My goal is not to use this as a means for reassurance for myself or for any other, rather as to be a reminder for myself and you all that you are NOT alone. No matter what you are experiencing you aren’t alone, and we have all gone through the same thoughts and feelings as you, in whatever form they may have been. For personal reasons I will not share my name, but I do want to share about me and my journey with what has truly been one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced. I am a 24 year old female and for as long as I’ve remembered I’ve always been a “worrier”. My dad used to tell me that worrying will be the fastest way I’d die lol. Oh! How I wish I could go back to those days of just simply worry. For the past few years I have struggled with what I now know is intrusive thoughts. But, luckily for me they were a little calmer than what I’ve experienced now. They were the occasional worrying that my boyfriend died but I would get over it rather quickly. Well, in may of 2024, I had just graduated college, was about to get married and about to move out. So, that triggered some switch in my brain and thus began this horrible disease of OCD. My main type has been SO-OCD but I have found some moments that I’ve also struggled with ROCD as well as some existential crisis OCD. I have unfortunately not been able to go to therapy because of money but I am on meds and have been using tips and tricks I’ve found online. My goal is to still go to therapy when I can find the right time. And I, like many of you have months of great “freedom” from the disease; and then, like I find myself now, fall back into its trap. I wanted to share some of the things I’ve experienced with this to see if y’all have experienced the same things and to let you know you are not alone. For reference, I am straight (I am happily married to my wonderful husband). 1. Thoughts from the past: I slightly remember having a thought that I’d be gay when I was around 12-13… that was around the time I actually first figured out what that meant. Even then, I (more easily than now) brushed it off. Continued to have about a million crushes on boys and never thought of it again. But now, with my OCD, I feel “convinced” that that was a sign that I was gay. 2. I have always been a girls girl. Me and my friend have a joke that we are worse than men! Meaning that when we see a pretty girl with a nice body, we stare. We say they are pretty. Never have I ever thought anything of it. It was always from a place of envy and admiration. Never a place of lust or anything along those lines. But NOW. OH! If I even look that direction I feel guilty, I feel like that’s confirmation that I am gay. And even worse- that is one of my compulsions. To look and make myself “prove” I’m not gay. 3. I have lost “feeling” for my partner. I love my husband. More than anything else. I could not live without him. But since this all happened, my emotions and fears have been all over the place that I’ve somewhat lost that feeling. It doesn’t help that I’m on medicine that can have that effect. I have to just remind myself that love isn’t always feelings, it’s a choice. And I choose him every single day. 4. sex life issues: bc/ of the OCD fear as well as my medication, I don’t have much sex drive or pleasure in the bedroom as I did before OCD… and, my OCD likes to convince me that that is because I would be better off with a woman (even tho I don’t want that) and then, OH THEN, I proceed to experience some groinal sensation from that though. So- cue even more “proof” that I am gay. well- that’s all I can think of now. Let me know if any one yall struggle with those. And I hope you know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS. YOU ARE NOT YOUR OCD 💚
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I wanted to voice that homosexuals can get HOCD too. I remember when i was younger and knew i was gay i still got HOCD one time when watching The Office. I thought Pam was so pretty and then started doubting my whole identity because what if i am straight? Oh god, what a terror if i was heterosexual. But anyway, thought that maybe this would help heteros with HOCD by knowing that this is a universal symptom across OCD sufferers of all sexual orientations. A big problem is calling this subtype “Homosexual OCD,” because its not. It has nothing to do with being homo or hetero or bi or anything. Its just OCD being a bully. I think labelling subtypes is an issue altogether, as it can unconsciously make people feel like its not just OCD. But it is. Does this make any sense? What are yall’s thoughts on this? Or is this just my OCD talking? (Im not seeking reassurance just genuinely find this interesting) TLDR; each time we “qualify” OCD with a subtype, we reinforce that the subtype is part of the issue. In reality, OCD is just a broken loop in our brains, and thoughts are just thoughts. And Pam Beesly is a hottie.
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Hi all, I deal with HOCD and been seeing a therapist for about 3.5 months. It has definitely got better but still affects me very much. Was wondering there is anyone out there who has dealt with HOCD as well and has recovered. I would love to message or even chat just see how your experience was and hear what was beneficial to you.
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