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My OCD seems to take things way too literally and make reason out of everything. I’ll see something that sort of relates to the topic of my OCD and think it’s a sign that applies to me and think “well if it’s not true why did I see that then”. Lately I’ve been struggling with the fact that “everything happens for a reason”. I am a Christian and cherish my relationship with God very much. Because everything happens for a reason, does this mean that every time I see something related to my OCD God wants me to have these thoughts? I suffer with false memory OCD. Are these signs God telling me I actually did do something bad in my past or is this just OCD playing tricks on me. I’m just really confused because I know God does create coincidence. So am I seeing these things because I did something bad? Ugh OCD is so hard. I just feel like my brain is in a big scramble and I just can’t seem to make sense out of reality. My thoughts feel so real

Username: cyc1017 cyc1017

Date posted: 45w ago

I am an OCD sufferer also as well as a Christian. I hope I can reassure you somewhat. There is no place in the Bible that says "everything happens for a reason", but it does say that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him. Because God is ALWAYS good and wants the very best for His kids, I have to believe He doesn't want you to have the thoughts you're referring to. He also is not a God of confusion. So it's not God; it's OCD playing tricks on you. I'm trying to remember to not refer to it as "my OCD" because if I own it as mine, it's hard to have the faith for God to take it away from me! And I fully believe God wants us to be free from this illness. He died so we could be free, not only from our sins but from our illnesses and infirmities. I hope this helped somewhat. I'll be praying for you 🙏

Username: ellij ellij

Date posted: 45w ago

@cyc1017 Thank you so much. This was such an amazing message to open. I feel as if you are an answered prayer. Thank you, my friend. I will be praying for you. You are so right, we cannot own this as ours! We just need to have faith that God will remove this from us and fill us with His perfect peace 🙏

Username: GodsgoodGodsgood

Date posted: 45w ago

i can relate so much as a Christian that also struggles with scrupulous thoughts and scared that i’m sinning all the time. this is such a struggle and i’m sorry that you are dealing with this. it’s so hard because like u said we value our relationship with God so much and with these things it can bring animosity towards God because you feel that it’s unfair that we struggle with our relationship with God in a way other Christians never do. seeing them having the freedom in Christ that we want can be so challenging when we are debating about things in our head that are not stated as sin but our minds feel we should feel guilty. i felt this way today and i just wanted you to know you’re not alone in this ❤️

Username: drglrd.trf5drglrd.trf5

Date posted: 27w ago

i have come to the conclusion that the devil will try to bring you down in mysterious ways that are custom to you, for me the devil uses my OCD to make me feel guilty to talk to god. anxiety is of the devil, god is accepting he knows your heart and he is not going to turn you away for having thoughts that are planted by the devil !!!!

Username: joyouscreature

Date posted: 23w ago

Is it even OCD anymore?

I started seeing every little thing as a sin. Or at least things that will bring bad karma. Everything, even little things like listening to music or enjoying a meal. In my eyes, everything everyone is doing is mostly sins and it terrifies me to death. It scares me to the point of paralysis and I can’t even do anything anymore because everything is a sin in my eyes. I’ll definitely spiral if I think about it more, but if I don’t, I feel like I’m lying to myself. I don’t even have confidence that this is OCD anymore. What if I’m right (I’m not necessarily wrong according to my religious doctrines, not that I’m a 100% sure) and nothings going to help me, not even therapy? And if most things humans do are sins anyway, what’s the point of anything? (See how it starts relating to an existential crisis) I’m terrified that no one’s gonna be able to help me anymore. I feel like I’m at wits ends. I don’t practice Christianity btw. Any insights or even “me too”s would help.

Username: KelSul73

Date posted: 19w ago

Spiritual warfare or OCD?

Hey guys- I don’t know if any of you with religion/spirituality ocd struggle with the “unacceptable thoughts” about like evil and stuff but I’m struggling.. it feels like I believe that I want the evil stuff because I had demon-like voices in my head as ahead where I went to talk to God when I was experiencing great distress and then these evil thoughts came in and I let them in and like “ok-ed” evil stuff. Especially because I felt so forced into my faith journey as a kid so it’s like that “feeling rejected -> rebellion thing) but I also know that but I also have such fond memories of feeling so close to God to leaning on Him for so many things. It’s so hard because 90% of my memories as a kid, I struggled with severe ocd and no one knew what it was or how debilitating it could be I’m trying the ERP with these thoughts but😭 have any of you gone through the same things? It’s so strong In my mind because I know there’s actual spiritual warfare so I feel like - pray for me guys

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Username: AnonCat227

Date posted: 19w ago

Feeling Distant From God

OCD often makes me feel distant from God. I often feel unforgiven, unloved, and even hated. In my head I often view God as someone who hates me and who is always constantly disappointed in me. My relationship with him feels like an Obligation now more than a relationship. I’m always on the cusp of becoming an atheist, but I always draw myself back because I don’t want to give up my faith so fast, even if it’s been 4-5 years of living like this. I’m often at war with myself daily. There is never a day that I feel as though if I do one small thing whether it be buy something or eat something that I’m going to end up in eternal damnation. And even though I know it’s only OCD and it’s cognitive distortions, I still feel uneasy.

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