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OCD pushes us around in all directions, sometimes in a calm, then in a panic state. Your experience is valid. Didn’t you forget you lost all this time when you were in obsession, while a normal person wasn’t? I also have OCD but am fairly recovered, still it ruined big parts of my life and my precious time

This is the exact kind of ocd i can relate to it also I kind of feels most of the time that I'm normal or I am overthinking but when I slip into obsessions nd compulsions I realise that no I'm not fine something is wrong

I 100% relate to this

Keep moving in the direction you want in life, not away from what you don't. Sometimes however needs might need to be addressed like stressors so maybe there's something stressing you out in life? (even a little) Not so much the thoughts