My dad makes me hate myself…

After a year of depression and OCD episodes I finally got a job as a barista and have been developing so, so much confidence. It’s been incredibly fulfilling for me, and I feel myself being ready to take on more fears, such as driving. My dad, for the first time since I really got the job, asked how work was. I told him how great it’s been, and he said, “well, when you get a REAL job it’ll be way more fulfilling.” Shut down the conversation instantly. Such a big accomplishment for me, but not for him bc the bar was too low. My dad makes me hate myself. Nothing I ever do makes him happy or proud. My appearance isn’t good enough, my bf isn’t, my education (WHICH HE CHOSE BTW) isn’t, my hair isn’t, my personality isn’t, my politics isn’t, NOTHING is good enough for him! If there is anyone in the world who makes me hate myself it’s my father. If it weren’t for my father, I think I’d love myself a lot more.

Username: khloe!!khloe!!

Date posted: 34w ago

Im so so sorry. Parents can be major a holes and very closed minded when it comes to their kids also having real life problems. Dont listen to your dad, you are ENOUGH. The fact your living on this earth is enough! Im proud of you. 😊

Username: Cinnamoroll Cinnamoroll

Date posted: 34w ago

@kksilly Thank you 🥹❤️ I really appreciate it

Username: Ben84Ben84

Date posted: 34w ago

I'm glad work is going well. I really like my baristas. I imagine you have regulars whose days you can make a little better :-). Yes, one should be able to get affirmation from their parents. It's unlikely going to come from your father. This doesn't actually reflect on you. There's a book called Running on Empty by Jonice Webb about emotional neglect. You might benefit from it.

Username: Cinnamoroll Cinnamoroll

Date posted: 34w ago

@Ben84 Yesss I love my regulars!!! 🥰 And I will check this book out, thank you so much. It’s been tough, but I hope it will get better. Thank you again. ❤️

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 17w ago

Wow this post sounds just like my dad!

Username: Chellie

Date posted: 5y ago

My dad said I should never have been born yesterday. He also wanted to kill himself because of my OCD. I feel heartbroken.

Username: Anxiousashley

Date posted: 4y ago

My OCD has been attacking my Dad lately. For whatever reason my ODC says “what if u r face gets red around him or while you’re talking to him and ppl think u like him or what if I have a panic attack around him and ppl think that he must’ve done something to me to make me afraid of him and HE DIDNT! He’s never been anything but a loving great Dad. It makes me feel like such a horrible person. It causes me at times to avoid him and I don’t want to. I just want these horrible thoughts about my Dad to go away. Has anyone else experienced this? And if so how did you cope? I HATE myself for this😭

Username: shazam_

Date posted: 1y ago

Fuck

So my biological father had a talk with me a couple hours ago. I’ve been trying to process it and honestly it’s not affecting me as much as I thought it would. Anyway so here’s what happened: he told me that I should be careful what I claim. (For context I told my bio parents that I had ocd and possibly schizophrenia due to some signs I’ve noticed) he thinks I’m making this up, to quote this bastard; “I don’t know what game you’re playing…” and he also said that I might’ve been influenced by social media and im attention seeking. In the car he also said that if word got out that I do have a mental illness then no one is going to want to work for me or want me on the road (now I’m not learning how to drive anytime soon, I’m 16 and was supposed to learn this summer because next year I’m going to college) but that’s not the worst of it. It’s the fact that he said I’m causing THEM problems by having mental problems and asking for help. Help that I really need because I have tried to take my life and cut myself a few times now. I’ve also resorted to drinking to numb the pain. But now I’m going to have to tell them that I am in fact fine and have no mental illness because even though I need help, I value my freedom to get away from them than I do getting help. He has told me to go to hell and that he doesn’t care about me multiple times and every time I knew he wasn’t lying when he said he wished this would happen but now there’s no denying it. He never cared and will never care. My bio mother lets this happen and tries to convince he he’s a good guy who does these things because he cares. Someone who cares about me wouldn’t do this. Both of them can go fuck themselves. Thank you for listening to my rant talk 😻🫶‼️

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