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We worry about fixing the wrong things— when we fix our mindsets, alot of those things that control our thinking get a little quieter. Practice positive self talk. Validate your own feelings. Keep a journal with only positives from your day, as small as “i own a toothbrush.” simple ways to help improve self image is correcting yourself. “I’m too skinny/i’m not attractive” —> “My looks don’t define me. My body does it’s job despite outward appearance. I am worthy of love no matter what i look like.” I hope your relationship with yourself improves— it’s a journey. Good luck friend. Go with love

I’m so sorry that you’re experiencing this — that is really hard. I’ve had similar struggle in the past. Are you able to talk to your therapist about it and have you talked about body dysmorphia? It’s a common co-occurring condition with OCD and something I’ve struggled with myself. I’ve found self-compassion helpful (Kimberly Quinlan has a great workbook about this) as well as doing ERP for my thoughts and feelings about my body (and the rest of my OCD symptoms). I also find observing and labeling my thoughts really helpful (ex: I’m having _____ thought/feeling about myself. Or my OCD/brain is telling me the “I’m not good enough” story etc). This doesn’t get rid of the feelings but it helps me disengage from my thoughts and not get trapped in the struggle of trying to fix or solve them. Hope something in there helps! I’m cheering you on ❤️