OCD and depression

I’ve been wondering a lot these past two months have been really bad. I’ve had just about every theme of OCD from harm, sexual, existencial you name it. The only theme I haven’t had is germ OCD, I think it’s because I’m a nurse and I literary live around germs. This time around I’ve been obsessing with sleep and not being able to sleep, which has caused me to have depression. And now I’m like obsessed over my depression to the point where I’m literary questioning my own sanity, and my own experiences almost as if I’m over analyzing every experience and feel depressed over it evened good experiences feel like ass cus I just start doubting them. Has anyone experience this before? I got started on sirtraline and now I am obsessing over the fact that I need a pill to get better which I hate cus I’ve been able to beat my OCD unmedicated. Am I beyond help at this point ? I feel like I am a completely different person I don’t even remember what I used to be like.

Username: SavcatSavcat

Date posted: 31w ago

You are not alone and not beyond help. Please try be easier on yourself. Just because you were able to bear the OCD in the past unassisted doesn’t make you any less now for considering your options and taking the assistance of a pill. And it’s not like you will have to stay on it forever. I can relate to the sleep obsessions. I put way too much importance and stress on the quality of my sleep and having a sleep schedule. Having a routine definitely helps me wind down and relax. Anyways, just trust that things can stay the same forever. It won’t be like this forever. Things will get better 🙏🏻

Username: Hopefloats227Hopefloats227

Date posted: 31w ago

And you aren’t beyond help! OCD ebbs and flows. Recovery is possible and it will get better! If you aren’t doing ERP I would definitely consider it.

Username: Hopefloats227Hopefloats227

Date posted: 31w ago

Been there. Give the meds time and find the right dose and you’ll see a difference I promise.

Username: bekind89bekind89

Date posted: 31w ago

I can relate ! I don't know if I'm really depressed or obsessed with being scared of being in a deep depression. Constantly analysing how I feel, checking I feel love for my family....I feel worse during happy/special moments. Questioning have I ever really been happy, doubting all my happy memories. Its awful!! Telling myself I just need to ride it out and it has passed before. Sertralline has helped me in the past and on it again just now so hoping it works again x

Username: Boytattt123Boytattt123

Date posted: 31w ago

@bekind89 How was your expiriance with Zoloft ?

Username: bekind89bekind89

Date posted: 31w ago

@roger_1997 - In the past it's worked really well, to the point I've felt almost normal ! This time I had initial improvement but now feeling more anxious/obsessive again but I lost my mum last year so think it's more complicated now. I would definitely give it a go. X

Username: thebubblyonethebubblyone

Date posted: 31w ago

hey, i'm really sorry you're going through such a tough time. it sounds like your ocd has been throwing everything it's got at you, and that's incredibly exhausting, especially on top of your demanding job as a nurse. it's understandable to feel overwhelmed and to question things, but you're not beyond help, not at all. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck?" when i was struggling, just like you are now, my nocd therapist recommended this free ai ocd therapy tool (unstuckmyocd.com/try) to me, and honestly, it made a big difference. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it's designed to provide personalized, step-by-step support for managing ocd, even with the wide range of themes you're experiencing. it's like having an ocd therapist in your pocket, ready to help you navigate through those tough moments without judgment. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: a.non2

Date posted: 1y ago

numbness

I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.

Username: Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 41w ago

Depression

Can OCD make you have a fear of depression? I’ve struggled with harm OCD for a while but now it’s morphing into “I’m depressed” theme. I got instant anxiety. Has anyone else experienced this where it convinces you that you’re depressed ?

Username: Sway_04

Date posted: 19w ago

My OCD Story

Hey all, I was recently diagnosed with OCD and MDD a few months ago. I’ve been experiencing symptoms for the past 11 months though. I used to be a person who would downplay depression, reasoning that if someone is depressed, they should be able to snap out of it. This year has taught me the truth behind how debilitating mental health conditions can be. My OCD has been absolutely tearing my life apart. For the past year, I’ve been coping with excessive guilt over past and recurring mistakes, my anxiety of which has recently been causing me panic attacks and throbbing headaches. I’ve also been coping with feeling unnatural sexual attractions, to those of the same sex and to children, which contradict the values I hold at heart. At one point, even simply shaking someone’s hand would cause sexual arousal, due to my hyper-vigilance surrounding physical contact. My OCD and depression nearly led me to take my life a few months ago. There are no words to describe the amount of pain I’ve had to endure. My thoughts and feelings have been absolutely tearing my life down, bit by bit. I feel like I lost who I was, and like it’s impossible for me to know who I am. This isn’t me. Over the past couple weeks, I’ve been feeling constant sexual arousal, it’s so easily triggered now. I don’t know if it’s because of the OCD, if it’s a result of the SSRI I’m on, or if it’s just a product of me being a young adult—Or maybe a combination of all of the above, but it’s debilitating. How easily I get aroused causes me so much guilt. There is a girl in my life that I love, but it doesn’t help that I get aroused around her because of the simplest of things. It’s not what I want for us. I want to be able to hone in on my self-control. I can’t help but constantly compare who I am now to who I was just over a year ago. My happiness has suffered, and my endurance is draining. I know there is a long road of insight and recovery ahead of me, this is just the beginning. If there’s anyone who can relate to me in any way, feel free to let me know. Comfort begins with feeling understood.

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