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is it okay..
is it okay to take a break from reading your bible once in a while? sometimes my ocd gets really bad and reading scriptures and verses sometimes make it worse. but i feel bad for not doing it.
is it okay to take a break from reading your bible once in a while? sometimes my ocd gets really bad and reading scriptures and verses sometimes make it worse. but i feel bad for not doing it.
Yes I would say so, it’s not healthy to have it feel so much like a chore with reading words getting too ritualistic which is not good for OCD at least in my case, this happens to me too and I feel like I’m reading it just to say I did and not get anything out of it. Try to let God guide you towards reading scriptures at the right time and discern things to take out of the Bible rather than just reading it as if you’re on autopilot is better to me. Taking a break would certainly help I’d say since the OCD is making you feel bad for not reading it but we have to break that feeling, as long as you don’t completely detach yourself from reading it altogether you should be fine. Hope this helps ❤️
@VictoriaCatherine#88 thank you!!
How come you steer away from reading? Do you have triggers to some words ? but also, sometimes steering away from something because your ocd makes you feel anxious from this certain thing, can sometimes make your ocd get worse in other area
Would it help to keep the routine of reading something reflectively, but read/do something else? Like reading religious poetry, a different liturgy that’s not the actual Bible (Kate Bowler has a lovely collection of prayers specifically for terrible times), or making reflective or religious art. I even saw a coloring book inspired by the psalms! At least for me, the part of regular religious practice that’s healing is setting aside time in my day to reflect and connect with something bigger than myself, but if reading the Bible every single day is not healthy for you, then I would not feel pressured to do that. Maybe you can take out time to do something else that rejuvenates you, even if it’s not directly religious
@RatDad thank you!
I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️
hello everybody! 🔞 last saturday i did something i shouldn't have done, and i even posted about it here, but no one responded to my post (it's okay, i completely understand). to inform you, since i deleted the post: i consumed erotic literature where two 14 year old children had a relationship (☠️), on wattpad. and i consumed this theme to see if i was really attracted to it..i think. i'm unsure about it, but i know i didn't feel anything consuming it. i was feeling extremely anxious and felt extremely bad the next day, and i only got better when i talked to my girlfriend and an online friend. i'm still feeling bad, i know i shouldn't have done it and whenever i'm feeling genuinely good, it comes back to haunt me.. i'm worried because i'm not feeling enough guilt or remorse, idk.. i feel bad and i regret it, and i can't stand going through this problem anymore.. i was in therapy a few months ago, but i stopped for financial reasons and my psychologist doesn't see me virtually anymore. it's been difficult.. just a vent.
Nearly a week since I stopped in the middle of a compulsion and I still feel stressed and tempted to finish it. My throat, ears, head, chest, legs,arms, my body has been hurting since then. And if I finish it will it stop? But what's stopping me is.. I've been trying to trust God to handle it. Idk what to do rn, Ive been trying to set up a schedule for this week but it ended up not working out so I will try again next week, and School work I'm years behind (I'm in yr 10), I don't rlly have any friends either to help me. But anyways I try not to think about school that much since I have alot more to think about. And I don't even have any talent or anything I want to be I just want to be a good person but I'm horrible I just need to do focus on stuff Like getting closer to God. looking after myself. The OCD thoughts which. I can't do any of these tho because the OCD makes me so stressed I just want to hit the OCD in the face but I can't obviously so I do it to myself, And they make me want to do more to myself but I don't because ✝️ And I don't want to. Anyways I can't even do the basic things to look after yourself, and The OCD thoughts keep saying about death all the time, and illness. I don't like hearing it in my head all the time I can't do anything properly. And Those thoughts are active when I try read the Bible. Even when I used an audio bible. And a app where u read 1 verse at a time it's still hard. But basically what do I do My throat keeps feeling weird like burning without the feeling hot ughhshsheh I don't want to go back into that life when I was 12-13 where I was worrying about my health and checking with doctor all the time
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