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The thing is I love my boyfriend so much but I’m so scared of my thoughts. I’m terrified of doing ERP because I’m afraid my thoughts are actually true and have nothing to do with OCD. I keep telling myself about how special he is and how much I love him but my thoughts tell me I’m lying to myself...
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Don’t worry. My boyfriend is really talkative and social and has a lot of friends, and I get anxious when he talks to other girls. Once we met a couple of classmates while at the movies (they’re both girls) and spent like 15 minutes talking with them. Not gonna lie I got super jealous. I’m not the jealous type either?
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Oh god.. I have the exact same thing! I’m truly sorry because I can’t help because I’m struggling with this too, but I wish you luck. You can do this!
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I get feelings of happiness then an intrusive thought of but u don’t really want to be with her then I get upset at thought of not being with her so sort of clarify that I actually do only for like a guilty sinking feeling comes back in saying don’t and not to kiss her or have sex etc it’s a nightmare but I just kee Trying to ignore thoughts feelings and urges seems to work for a while then something different pops up
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Thank you! My boyfriend is awesome and is always willing to talk about what’s going on with me
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And it’s pretty damn good at convincing :’) we’ll get through this
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I keep coming to the conclusion I don’t think it’s that I don’t want to be with my partner it’s more the thought of not being with her that gets me worked up my ex wife was physically and emotionally abusive also cheated numerous times my therapist says although she doesn’t really diagnose she has no doubt at all I have a severe case of ocd and need to be more compassionate to myself I love my lady more than anything my therapist says my exes actions will have triggered me somewhere along the line .... keep fighting we can win this war
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Dude, I’m really hoping you’re okay. You really will win this war, I promise you. You clearly know that you love your girl, and the thought of being without her is just a thought you can let go. We’ll all get through this!
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Been suffering since June a few days of being “ok” but sort of learning to accept and ignore the thoughts etc just some days harder than others also getting like a jealousy feeling towards my partners ex because he was with her first ? I know crazy isn’t it I’m 100% not the jealous type I never have been but all of a sudden I seem to be
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It’s up and down for me which is what’s hard. When I hit the lows and feel anxious I’m like “What happened from an hour ago until now?” I’m working through it though. What helped too was being honest with my boyfriend and said that I’m just in it for the moment and I’m not trying to look to far into the future. So many people around me my age get married right out of college and marry the person they date in college so I feel like that’s what freaks me out sometimes
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Does anyone have any advice on how to get through this?
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You too! I really like my boyfriend and when I’m with him I feel fine, but afterwards I start to freak out and I don’t know how to feel and feel like I did something wrong.
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I know what you mean. It all feels very real. But one thing OCD does is try to convince you that it’s not OCD
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When i have this scenario in my head : kissing a girl in my bed , i can image it very much mike i like it and it will come naturally I dont know if i really like it and i dont like that i like the idea Or That i just dont like the idea Also feeling really weird and maybe even sort of disgusted of my bf when i image the same scenario with him, or i feel like i cant image kissing him Wtf is this ?
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Ocd sucks. I’m at a stay away multiple days long event for school rn and ran into someone I used to talk with. We had a will they won’t they kind of thing for years and knew each other all growing up. I knew when we were really young that he had a crush on me for a while. And then when we got older there were times I had a crush on him but I don’t think he liked me anymore at that point. I never fully knew where he stood because he often was in a relationship or living somewhere else. Because we never dated or kissed or anything, only hung out on ambiguous date-like occasions, there has always been that what if sitting there for me and I hadn’t seen or spoken to him since before I met my current partner years ago. Well they happen to be at this place I’m staying at, where we are in the same places everyday, and I ran into them, said hi and caught up for a bit. It has totally triggered my ROCD in a way I’ve never experienced. I feel guilt and shame and keep having intrusive thoughts that are so extreme and catastrophic like what if I leave my partner of 8 years for him, what if I find him more attractive than my partner, what if I cross a line while I’m interacting with him this week, what if I’m a terrible girlfriend to my partner and a fraud??
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A few weeks ago i was reminiscing about my past. Like friendships and relationships. And then I realized that I thought about my ex, I shouldn’t have done that, especially if i’m in a committed relationship. Now I’ve been obsessing over that and having constant anxiety if i’m not truly over my Ex. It sucks because I fully love and commit to my boyfriend. And I can’t go through the day without feeling like i’m wasting his time. I’ve had so many cycles of anxiety and I don’t think all of it has gone away. First it was “i thought someone else was attractive” to “what if i don’t love him anymore” to “what if he doesn’t love me anymore” and now it’s this. What can I do? I don’t know if i should just end the relationship for my boyfriend’s mental heath at this point.
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