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The thing is I love my boyfriend so much but I’m so scared of my thoughts. I’m terrified of doing ERP because I’m afraid my thoughts are actually true and have nothing to do with OCD. I keep telling myself about how special he is and how much I love him but my thoughts tell me I’m lying to myself...
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Don’t worry. My boyfriend is really talkative and social and has a lot of friends, and I get anxious when he talks to other girls. Once we met a couple of classmates while at the movies (they’re both girls) and spent like 15 minutes talking with them. Not gonna lie I got super jealous. I’m not the jealous type either?
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Oh god.. I have the exact same thing! I’m truly sorry because I can’t help because I’m struggling with this too, but I wish you luck. You can do this!
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I get feelings of happiness then an intrusive thought of but u don’t really want to be with her then I get upset at thought of not being with her so sort of clarify that I actually do only for like a guilty sinking feeling comes back in saying don’t and not to kiss her or have sex etc it’s a nightmare but I just kee Trying to ignore thoughts feelings and urges seems to work for a while then something different pops up
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Thank you! My boyfriend is awesome and is always willing to talk about what’s going on with me
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And it’s pretty damn good at convincing :’) we’ll get through this
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I keep coming to the conclusion I don’t think it’s that I don’t want to be with my partner it’s more the thought of not being with her that gets me worked up my ex wife was physically and emotionally abusive also cheated numerous times my therapist says although she doesn’t really diagnose she has no doubt at all I have a severe case of ocd and need to be more compassionate to myself I love my lady more than anything my therapist says my exes actions will have triggered me somewhere along the line .... keep fighting we can win this war
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Dude, I’m really hoping you’re okay. You really will win this war, I promise you. You clearly know that you love your girl, and the thought of being without her is just a thought you can let go. We’ll all get through this!
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Been suffering since June a few days of being “ok” but sort of learning to accept and ignore the thoughts etc just some days harder than others also getting like a jealousy feeling towards my partners ex because he was with her first ? I know crazy isn’t it I’m 100% not the jealous type I never have been but all of a sudden I seem to be
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It’s up and down for me which is what’s hard. When I hit the lows and feel anxious I’m like “What happened from an hour ago until now?” I’m working through it though. What helped too was being honest with my boyfriend and said that I’m just in it for the moment and I’m not trying to look to far into the future. So many people around me my age get married right out of college and marry the person they date in college so I feel like that’s what freaks me out sometimes
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Does anyone have any advice on how to get through this?
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You too! I really like my boyfriend and when I’m with him I feel fine, but afterwards I start to freak out and I don’t know how to feel and feel like I did something wrong.
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I know what you mean. It all feels very real. But one thing OCD does is try to convince you that it’s not OCD
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When i do the compulsion of checking if i want my bf or a girl it always makes me feel like with my bf i cant kiss 1nd then i am like this is because of ocd but when i then think about kissing a woman it feels like it would go easy , shouldnt the compulsion bring me peace like bad reassurance ? Does this mean i am not into men , it feels way to similar ,like my intrusive thoughts are like normal thoughts
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I just saw my boyfriend, and even though everything was okay on the outside, inside my mind it was a storm. I kept having thoughts like: “You don’t like him.” “You’re not feeling anything.” “You’re pretending.” “You don’t care.” And then, he said something sweet — something that should’ve made me feel happy: “We should marry.” And instead of warmth, I felt anxiety. A pit in my stomach. A voice in my head saying: “You don’t want that.” “You’ll never stay with him.” “If you really loved him, you’d feel joy.” And I hate it. I hate that I’m in this state. I don’t feel connected. I don’t feel clarity. I don’t even know what I feel anymore. I just feel… numb. And the worst part? It feels like I don’t even care. But I know I do. Somewhere, beneath all the noise and panic and obsessive thoughts, I care. I want to feel close to him. I want to stop second-guessing every word, every touch, every thought. This is ROCD. It makes me question everything. It makes me feel like I’m lying — even when I’m not. It steals the moments that should feel warm and turns them into confusion. If anyone else feels this awful mix of numbness, fear, and guilt — please tell me I’m not alone.
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- 18w
Sometimes I think I truly think negative thoughts about my bf but I feel it could be because of how obsessive I am over the thought. Does that make any sense ??? Like I genuinely think it often but only because of how obsessed I am over it
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