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pocd intrusive images
Am I the only one who gets truly terrible and graphic intrusive images? They're too much.
Am I the only one who gets truly terrible and graphic intrusive images? They're too much.
Me and a lot of other people with pure ocd obsession have dark I intrusive thoughts and have graphic images of doing the intrusive thoughts. My are of hurting my family or myself and see I fast graphic images of me killing and it used to scare me. I have been working on my ocd , I am slowly getting better. I recommend looking up exposure response and what are compulsions and how not to do them. Ocd is hard and I hate the image they creep me out . Stay strong you can heal from ocd.
One of my biggest fears is that Im the only one who has had these particular intrusive thoughts. They are disgusting and make me feel so guilty. I feel as if I need to hear that others have the same thoughts for me to forgive myself
I get this too, whenever I see a child (real or fictional) i get horrible intrusive thoughts and images.
when those intrusive images happen, I think, "intrusive images can't be that bad, so I must be a ****."
@Nameless000 Intrusive images can be ANYTHING that you’re afraid of. OCD is just a bully who likes to see you upset.
@regretfulrain But why does it have to be so graphic. it feels very real. i can't tolerate it. Even though it might not be my fault I feel guilty anyway for seeing such disgusting things in my head.
@Nameless000 It’s that graphic because you are afraid of it. The more you learn distress tolerance and exposures the easier it will become.
I do and I hate them
Nope, that’s POCD in a nutshell. You need to let them be without reacting to them and go about your day.
but that's impossible. Because ocd is quite literally forcing my brain to reproduce illegal things without my consent and forcing me to see it, be a spectator of it. I feel complicit. You can't not freak out. If a bad person showed you something illegal you would freak out. And that scenario already happened to me and it traumatized me till this day.
@Nameless000 It’s definitely not impossible as thousands of people with OCD do it daily, all the time. Thoughts aren’t illegal. If you went to a police station and told them l, “Here’s a list of my intrusive thoughts” they will ask you if you’ve physically broken a law, and when you say no, then they will ask you to leave because you don’t break any law. You need to speak to your OCD therapist about this. You constantly seeking reassurance and reacting to your OCD is what’s making it worse. You have had many people say this same thing to you on here, not just me.
I get thoughts of kids Whever I think or see an image of someone my age, like for example today I saw a bikini pic of a girl my age and it randomly reminded me of a pic of a kid in a bikini I saw a month ago, is this a sign of something bad? My thought usually come up when I think abt someone my age I’m into, and they also feel like I’m purposely thinking of them, I’m not sure if it intrusive thoughts or not, it feels difficult to figure out. These thoughts also don’t distress me anymore, idk if it means something bad or not, but I do not wish to be a pedo, I hope to eventually have a relationship with a girl my age. Alongside all of that, sometimes when I see a kid I get a sense of attraction, but I’m not sure if it is false or not, to me it feels so real, but I don’t wanna be attracted to kids. I’ve just started therapy, I’m currently trying to find a way to get a diagnosis, I really hope I’m not diagnosed as a pedo. Ik that false attraction comes with negative emotion, but I don’t feel negative emotion when I get what I hope is false attraction, I keep trying to figure out if what I’m feeling is false or true because I don’t feel negative emotions, it makes me worried that it’s real and that I really am a pedo. Not looking for reassurance but can someone tell me if these are pure o ocd symptoms or something actually bad?
so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
are they truly intrusive thoughts or am i thinking and creating automatically graphic images that i dont want to think? i think it happens because it's too easy once you're anxious abt it. i dont enjoy it. i just saw a trigger and had a graphic disturbing se&ual image in my head.
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