Religious OCD - being scared

The past few days have been a lot better. But recently I’ve been struggling again with dark wicked unwanted blasphemous thoughts. Such as demonic thoughts, devil thoughts, Satan heart thoughts, worship thoughts & s soul thoughts. These thoughts scare me so much. Especially since I have been having False Memory and it makes me think I’ve accidentally said those nasty thoughts out loud. Sometimes the thoughts are demands of blank enter my heart which is so scary! Or it replaces there names. I just hate when my mind says I “want them” I don’t. I love Jesus & God so much and I feel like I’m disappointed them or made them mad. I don’t ever want them to leave me. Does God & Jesus love me even with these awful thoughts? Sometimes I just get so much guilt & shame. Last night the really hit me hard after being ok for the last 3 days. I just don’t ever want God & Jesus to reject me or look at me with disgust. I know He loves us so much but it’s difficult to see whenever these disgusting thoughts come. I just feel so “far” or how could He want someone like me. I try to remind myself a lot of us Christians struggle with blasphemous thoughts. Religious OCD is pretty common for having devil/demonic thoughts but it just makes you feel so evil. Any advice? Does God & Jesus still love me even with these thoughts, feelings, urges? I pray and sometimes I just feel shame. I love them. Am I okay?

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Username: CatiedidCatiedid

Date posted: 37w ago

So sorry to hear you’re struggling with this Cammy 💔 I went through a very similar experience while I was growing up and the most important thing to remind myself was that God knows our hearts and intentions. While you may focus on how hard it is thinking blasphemous thoughts, what God sees is the fear you have of those thoughts and your hearts true desire to be close to him and love him. People who are truly blasphemous are not frightened of it, God knows you love him and wants a relationship with him. He sees your struggle and sees the effort you make to overcome it. He is not disappointed in you, i can only imagine he is so proud of you and your desire to be close to him despite your struggles.

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 36w ago

Cammy I’m sure I’ve told you this before. As somebody who has gone through this it really does not serve you to try and figure this out. You are seeking reassurance and the ocd will never be reassured. God does not care about your thoughts. You were created to have those thoughts and to overcome the need to control them. You will only be free when you allow yourself to think anything and not assign meaning to it.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 36w ago

@Malisimo I know I’m sorry. It’s just really hard. Will He forgive me for the awful demonic ones too? Also the rejection ones? It’s like I try not to think them then sometimes do but it’s like I know I was trying not to think that thought then ended up thinking it. It was a rejection thought and now my mind is freaking out thinking I rejected Him because I had a thought about rejecting Him as my Savior which I would NEVER. I love them so much. It’s just hard

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 36w ago

@Cammy123 Cammy, again you just want reassurance. It’s never going to be enough for ocd. First off you need to change your thinking, strengthen your rational mind. You can’t reject God, you are thinking your will is stronger than his will. You are making God so small in your mind, like an old very angry, very grumpy man that cares about perfect thoughts. Whatever you think about it is Gods will that you are able to think that. God is love and unchanging, your thoughts do not make him feel anything more or less towards you. As for the “demonic” thoughts I think that is a totally pointless question. You will be anxious until you stop trying to solve this.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 31w ago

I completely understand where you are coming from. My thoughts are abouting saying the word devil . It is so frustrating because these words become part of your daily life. They become of your daily routine in your head and you don't know how to sit with them and be okay. It's like these awful words or thoughts attach to the things are doing. For example you are at a store buying something and that thought is your head while you are buying something,so now you have those thoughts associated with those items.Its like as long as this thought is with it is going to ruin your day.In your heart you know these thoughts aren't you but it still brings you down. I keep trying to figure out the best exposure and response technique to help ease my mind without going overboard.

Username: Kaila Conque...

Date posted: 24w ago

Thoughts are getting stronger

I love and believe in Jesus. I always have believed in Jesus. I don’t know why my thoughts are saying that I don’t believe anymore. I think it might be because I feel like I’m so close to a breakthrough from OCD and spiritual warfare, but I have no idea. I feel like God is going to deliver me soon, so the devil has been attacking me more. I don’t know, but I seriously am so scared. If you’re a Christian, please give me advice.

Username: anonymousmm

Date posted: 23w ago

RELIGIOUS/HARM OCD

I don’t know what to do, I feel so lost and feel like I’m losing my mind… I don’t know what to do, I am still getting the terrible thoughts of “God is telling you to kill someone” and I’m literally mid panic attack, I keep trying to reason with logic because it even says in the 10 commandments “thou shall not murder.” So I don’t even know why I’m getting these thoughts… ugh… people say that intrusive thoughts trigger things you care about the most, which mine would be Jesus & the people around me, which is why I get the harm OCD about people I care about the most.. someone recently said that I could be schizophrenic and now I’m terribly worried that I could have that.. I am so terribly afraid of becoming “crazy” and doing horrible things… can someone please give me tips to help this, and or message me?

Username: KelSul73

Date posted: 19w ago

Spiritual warfare or OCD?

Hey guys- I don’t know if any of you with religion/spirituality ocd struggle with the “unacceptable thoughts” about like evil and stuff but I’m struggling.. it feels like I believe that I want the evil stuff because I had demon-like voices in my head as ahead where I went to talk to God when I was experiencing great distress and then these evil thoughts came in and I let them in and like “ok-ed” evil stuff. Especially because I felt so forced into my faith journey as a kid so it’s like that “feeling rejected -> rebellion thing) but I also know that but I also have such fond memories of feeling so close to God to leaning on Him for so many things. It’s so hard because 90% of my memories as a kid, I struggled with severe ocd and no one knew what it was or how debilitating it could be I’m trying the ERP with these thoughts but😭 have any of you gone through the same things? It’s so strong In my mind because I know there’s actual spiritual warfare so I feel like - pray for me guys

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