- Date posted
- 43w ago
Why did it come back?
The last few days I have felt amazing! No ruminating! Today out of no where… it came back!!! Why?
The last few days I have felt amazing! No ruminating! Today out of no where… it came back!!! Why?
Recovery is not linear! I was diagnosed in 2020, consider myself well into recovery and still catch myself doing compulsions. That’s okay! Practice self compassion and redirect your attention. You got this
I know how you’re feeling, I’m in a similar boat. I was on the right track towards healing, thoughts were getting to a stage where they weren’t bothering me as such, but something happened this morning and now I’m right back at square one. You’ve got this, you will be alright I promise
@Sasquatch1 That’s exactly the same situation as me! Ugh it’s so hard! Thank you for your kind words. I hope you get through this too!
It’s the nature of OCD and mental illnesses in general. That is why staying present in the moment and accepting the things that come up without fighting or judging them/you is very helpful. It gets you used to the silliness in your mind.
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
I don’t know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
Does anyone Else’s ocd flare up bad when in stressful life situations? I was doing amazing and now that I’m having some drama with my life it seems to have come back with a vengeance. Anyone else?
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