This is just too much...and it just sucks because no matter what I do... in reality ocd doesn’t care about what it’s doing to me... it’s gonna keep doing this. My brother is sick with something that causes diarrhea...he was sick with it 2 weeks ago, got better last week, and we all got the stomach flu this week which caused his sickness to come back...he’s playful and doing normal 1 year old things but ocd keeps saying he is going to die. I don’t completely understand how a 1 year old would just magically die from watery shit, but just because this worry makes no sense, it doesn’t mean I’m still not scared.And it showed me a scenario of his funeral and it’s so fucked up.I think the worst punishment God has ever given me was ocd... ocd hurts me more than anyone else can... it’s so fucked up... I used to ask God for help but I guess mental health wasn’t that saving worthy so I just stopped praying about my mental health BC I’d be “wasting my time, he doesn’t answer you.” I just have so mu ch in. My life that isn’t going right and I’m started to get low key sad and miserable about my life at this point. I need help lately but I’m really depending on some sort of relief... just thought control and to get rid of bad people in my life and to get some of my grades up and...to be happy

Offcource ocd doesn't care,ocd is a survival mechanism it only cares keeping you and what you care about safe, unfortunately there is no way to remove intrusive thoughts because you are dealing with a survival mechanism and it's too powerful to control. There is only one way to deal with this and that is to show the brain that these thoughts aren't dangerous so how do you do that? You need to go against your instincts,every time tou you think my brother is going to die im sure you always try to fight it saying no he isn't or trying not to think that because it's terrible, unfortunately that makes your brain believe that thought is a threat to ypu survival so it will bring it out more so you deal with that threat, instead you have to accept that thought and say yes he may die i get it, obviously that's gonna temporarily make fear worse but if you do this every time your brain will realise there is no threat and the thoughts will lose power

thank you???

Great advice to follow!?

The OCD I experience is also about Health, more so myself, but I have people that are very close to me who have some sort of health challenge, and there isnt much in life that is scarier than those health related anxieties. But the hardest but best thing to do is, use this mantra “Maybe Yes, Maybe No” . Its what I do sometimes when my intrusive thoughts and fears are overwhelming me. It is accepting uncertainty that will help. I really understand how hard it is, right now I feel very low as well. But remember that you still matter to someone, all of us on this app. You arent alone in feeling this despair, we are there with you.