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Would anyone have advice or reading suggestions for severe rumination? I mean severe as in all day long, starts when I wake up and ends when I go to sleep (and starts right back again if I wake up in the night). I find myself constantly talking to myself. Is this how everyone's brain works? I find it runs non-stop and on very, very rare occasions, I am amazed to realize I hadn't been ruminating and talking to myself (at which point, it starts again of course). I thought I was having intrusive thoughts all day long, but really I'm probably generating them. I'm constantly thinking about my themes/triggers/worries and "on guard" against the next trigger. What's most difficult is that this is my brain on auto-pilot. No level of distraction helps (I'm at an active job most of the day) and this is probably why I've had severe depression (I'm stuck in my head and no matter how hard I try to get out there and do things, I fall back in). The only things that provide temporary relief are speaking out loud to other people (because I find it very difficult to speak to myself in my head at the same time) and reading (but I find it difficult not to get distracted by my thoughts)

So when I'm doing mundane things like working how do I not ruminate? 😭 it feels impossible...

I'm ruminating practically all day and because the subject affects every aspect of my daily life I can't just "be in the moment." I'm thinking about designating a specific part of my day to allow 30min for rumination and journaling. I figure having that time period well give me a chance to go over whatever I think I need to figure out and allow for me to "table" my ruminations when time is up until the next day. Any thoughts or feedback on this?