Taboo thoughts

NSFW One of my compulsions is m-sturbation and I struggle with it here and there. Literally most of the time this compulsion is done is to get rid of groinal responses or the intrusive thoughts. but the compulsion itself is bad, and sometimes I think of really bad taboo thoughts and it gets me to finish but afterwards i feel very disgusted and shameful. i think these thoughts because i noticed they get me to finish way faster and im trying to look for a solution. i hate this so much because i know its wrong and i know it gives me temporary relief but thats the only “immediate” solution i guess. i feel like this makes me different. like something is ACTUALLY wrong with me. the taboo ranges from family, animals, trauma. how do i get out of this cycle. i feel disgusting and i feel as though this compulsion means im more likely to act this stuff out.

Username: Kat_GriffithKat_Griffith

Date posted: 24w ago

I’m sorry you feel this way for 1 but I also am glad to hear I’m not crazy and the not only one going through this, I thought I was addicted to these things but now I know it’s OCD it kinda gives my a horrible relief but, like you, I also feel disgusting in the moment. I thankfully mostly grew out of this compulsion but I do feel the need to at the same time. I’m here if you wanna full on rant about this :)

Username: dee012dee012

Date posted: 24w ago

@Kat_Griffith Thank you for your comment it’s nice knowing I’m not crazy lol, i hate this compulsion so bad but i feel like I’ve done it enough over time that i just conditioned my brain

Username: micahblueemicahbluee

Date posted: 24w ago

you’re not alone i do the same thing. i used to think i was addicted too but i think it’s ocd for me also. i think it’s hard to get out of because that activity as a compulsion gives such a visceral “”relief”” for a short time (along with the shame and disgust). i haven’t figured it out yet, but im rooting for you.

Username: dee012dee012

Date posted: 24w ago

@micahbluee Thank you for ur comment this actually made me wanna cry lol happy tears though because i feel super alone in this. I’m rooting for you also. I also struggle with hyper sexuality since a very young age so idk if that’s part of it.

Username: Rhys34

Date posted: 2y ago

Has anyone ever had a compulsion in the middle of erp? As I’ve said before adult sites are a form of erp for my taboo sexual ocd. Tonight while doing erp I got an intrusive thought and followed through with a compulsion before I even realized it. The site had opened side sites, like those clickbait add things, but it was for adult stuff. The people it showed definitely didn’t look old enough to be doing anything of the sort. It can be so hard to tell these days but I’m really freaking out because what if they were underage? Or am I just letting my ocd control my thoughts?

Username: Racheljustine

Date posted: 2y ago

OCD and sex

Does anyone else have trouble weeding out thoughts of taboo sexual situations?

Username: dee012

Date posted: 1y ago

TW// rocd sex trauma

i have thoughts about incest, specifically from trauma, and i love my boyfriend and we are intimate. 99 percent of the time when i have intrusive thoughts during sex im able to move past them, but yesterday, my mother ended up texting me during it (TMI i know lol), which stressed me out, which caused more intrusive thoughts PLUS groinal responses, then she decided to go into the kitchen that’s RIGHT outside my room, causing more thoughts and feelings, while this was happening me and my bf were intimate in the moment and it felt as if the thoughts and feelings helped me finish, i was trying so hard NOT to think about them that i sortve thought about them on purpose???? it’s weird to explain… i told my bf about it since he knows about my ocd and he suggested we could take a break if it ever got that bad again, but it’s making me question myself and my morals i guess like now i feel like i really enjoy those thoughts and im just making excuses for myself. i feel so horrible and this is so haunting to me my ocd therapist doesn’t even know how to do erp for this according to her and i just feel so stuck

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