- Date posted
- 5y
- Date posted
- 5y
I don't think I am in the position to tell you what to do or even suggest possible solutions. There is so much I don't know and can't see. The only perspective I can speak from is that of how much harder is for men to deal with depression in general - in most cases we don't even know we are going through something like that. As much as you love him, you need to take care of yourself first. Make sure that you kindly communicate that to him so that he is aware. Sometimes that's what it takes for us to snap out of our dream.
- Date posted
- 5y
It's tough. What you are going through is not easy at all. However - for men shame and sadness is a tricky affair. I am not justifying him. It's just that it's probably hard for him to reach out for help.
- Date posted
- 5y
Yea I get that. But he doesn't do anything. Like I'll ask him to do laundry and he will put it in the washer but not the dryer. Like he's home all day? Wtf. I feel like after 4 months of having to do everything I'm at my breaking point.
- Date posted
- 5y
Hey there, I thinks it’s really childish, irresponsible and consumerist behavior on his part. I’m very sorry to hear you have to live like that right now. I can totally understand how you don’t want to break up, but what about co-living, but kind of separately? For example, each of you cooks their own food, does their own laundry, spends their own money. It’s not a question of love, it’s a question of some basic quality of life. You can love him, and even support him, emphatize with him maybe, but after all if he’s willing to go to the bottom, you’re not just expected to go there with him. And maybe he needs to visit his GP at least and ask about depression?
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you. That makes a lot of sense. I've been trying to do this as it's easier. Especially because I'm vegetarian and he's not so we already eat different meals. The problem is because of my OCD when he doesn't clean his share. I can only leave it a day or two before I'll do it. I can't stand to look at it. Which I'm working on....
Related posts
- Date posted
- 24w
It hurts so much to write that. Lately, every time I talk to my boyfriend — whether it’s through text or in person — I feel this deep irritation, like everything he says or does annoys me. Sometimes, it even feels like disgust, and it’s terrifying. I don’t feel love. I don’t feel excitement. I don’t even feel sadness about not feeling anything… just numb. I look at him and I don’t feel like I used to. I don’t know what happened to me. I used to be so sure I loved him, and now I feel like a completely different person — cold, distant, empty. My brain keeps telling me: “You don’t love him anymore. You never did. You’re only staying out of habit.” My mom told me that if I don’t like him anymore, then I’m hurting both him and myself by staying in this. And hearing that broke me. Because that’s exactly what I fear — that I’m faking everything, and I just don’t want to admit the truth. I feel so lost. And I don’t know how to separate my thoughts from reality anymore. All I know is that I want to feel something again — anything. Because right now, all I feel is guilt, fear, and confusion. i used to know these thoughts are just thoughts and that if i didn’t have them i would be so happy but now, i cant think aboyr that bc the thoughts feel too real.
- Date posted
- 21w
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
- Date posted
- 19w
Lately, I’ve been feeling like something has changed in me — like I have changed, and like my feelings for my boyfriend have faded or shifted. It’s one of the worst sensations I’ve ever felt. I keep thinking things like “I don’t love him like before” or “I’ve changed too much to feel anything now.” Sometimes when he calls me or makes a joke, I get irritated for no reason. I feel like I’m being mean, cold, disconnected — and then guilt crashes down on me. I remember how I used to feel: warm, close, expressive. And now… I just don’t feel the same. That makes me think: “Maybe I’ve fallen out of love.” But I’m also constantly anxious. I overthink every moment. I can’t relax into anything without analyzing if what I feel is “right.” It makes me wonder — maybe I haven’t actually changed. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed and tired from months of these thoughts and fears. I don’t know how to feel right now. I just want to believe that this disconnection isn’t proof that love is gone, but a sign that I’m scared and burnt out.
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond