Not surprised

Hello all! Yesterday I had another event, and I recognized it immediately and was able to calm down a bit. Unfortunately it's still on my mind today, but I realize how absolutely silly it most likely is. Most people would shrug something like this off and move on; so I'm going to just move on. OCD really tries to grab and pull me away from experiencing life. Yes, unpleasant or gross things will happen, you will do those things, and there is no sense in hiding away in a locked room all day in fear of those things happening. If you do that, you miss life.

Just been discharged from hospital outpatients after operation and 3 month recovery. There was an ultrasound on eyes and possibility of radiotherapy treatment for a spot there, but turned out it was benign. OCD was quiet during this time. However, now OCD has come back big time, and I'm wishing I hadn't been so fortunate with diagnosis. Tired of going through this like groundhog day, and worried that there will come a time where I won't cope. Can't tell anymore if this is OCD or I'm just losing my mind. All plans and dreams gone now.

I’m so glad everybody has a comfortable job where they can pay for therapy. But I’ve realized my ocd has gotten worse at the job I’m currently at and I don’t want to quit because the job market is never hiring and I always have bills to pay like every freaking week on top of that I’m still in college. I think being stressed is making my ocd worse.