I had a major breakdown last night in front of my husband and he said that it’s fine but I know it’s frustrating for him bc I deal with relationship ocd. He told me he just wants me to be myself. Which isn’t so easy when u are so confused by all the contradicting thoughts and feelings in my head. I also felt REALLY intense pains in my chest today where my heart is. I’m really afraid that my anxiety will ultimately cause me a heart attack. I’m CONSTANTLY STRESSED and I’m afraid it’s actually killing me.?

I’ve had many different intrusive thoughts over the years, but I can’t seem to shake this obsession with my heart. I continually think it’s going to just stop or that it can’t handle being elevated. I don’t even have family history of heart disease or heart attack or anything of the sort. I keep myself healthy between exercise and diet. I’ve reassured myself a million ways from Sunday. I saw a cardiologist once, years ago, who reassured me that my heart palpitations were nothing to be afraid of. I try to look at every workout as an exposure, pushing myself to trust my heart and ignore the thoughts. But sometimes I just want to relax and enjoy dinner with my boyfriend or being out with my friends without ruminating over what would happen if I had a heart attack in the restaurant, the bar, where’s the nearest hospital, can I trust the people I’m with to know what to do, etc. It’s exhausting.

Hello, I was diagnosed with diastolic heart failure and I am also dealing with anxiety/panic attacks from OCD. I’m always worried I’m going to die, and that I can’t tell the difference between a heart attack and a panic attack. No one seems to believe that I in fact have a debilitating illness and they just blame my OCD and that I’m overreacting. I hope that is the case, but I feel like it’s more than just that. I also feel like I want to make amends with everyone in my life right now, as you never know when you’d die. The problem is, that’s just a luxury I can’t afford. Let’s just say that my brother is more than pissed off (over something that happened over 4 months ago) still, and that if I do in fact die soon, I won’t be able to have any closure. It’s the most horrible feeling ever. But I already tried to apologize to him, but it was declined. I’m wondering if anyone has had a similar situation?

To start, I’ve had off and on chest pains on my left side for months now, I’ve had literally 6-8 EKG’s, 6-8 Triponin blood tests (checks your heart enzymes) and a chest X-ray and everything has been perfect. I’ve been very very anxious the last 3 days and this morning I woke up and was immediately anxious, then my chest started the aching again. I’ve been to the ER for this literally 7 times since march. They keep telling me I’m fine. They keep telling me it’s anxiety. I know anxiety can cause chest pain. The logical side of me knows this isn’t a heart attack, it’s been happening for so long, if it was imminent, I would be dead by now. But the ocd side keeps saying “what if this time is actually your heart?” It’s been on and off aching for 6 hours and my anxiety has been really high all morning, I’ve already had 2-3 anxiety attacks since I woke up. My pulse and blood pressure have been normal all day, I check them constantly. I keep telling myself “maybe it is, maybe it isn’t.” I’ll feel calm for a few minutes until the ache comes back and it starts the cycle all over again. I’m so tired of somatic symptoms. I’m so tired of living like this and constantly thinking today is the day it all ends for me. I’m so exhausted and sad and want to give up