i really need answers for this

i dont ask for reassurance all the time but omg i just remembered when i had this thought(intentional) about what if the guy that confessed that he liked me worked out, we were in 3rd grade that time and i remembrr having the thought that he was handsome or sumshit or like i admire him and like his personality. i dont really remember when i had this thought but it feels recent (probably thid year) mind you, im 17 now and i know deep down that there was never an intention of me reminiscing because he was a kid, infact it didnt even cross my mind that he was (in my imagination) but now that i realized it i feel so guilty because why am i thinking about something that happend when i was a kid. i feel really disgusted pls answer me.

veinsoul

Date posted: 1y

hey! I don’t have an answer right now because I have gone through this as well a couple months ago I think. hopefully this helps you feel less alone. in my situation, it was about my first crush in the 7-8th grade. I’m 21 now and I ask myself if what I thought was illegal. even I had dreams about him and sometimes we were in school and other times we were in college. it’s so weird and I don’t know what to think of myself. but I get the guilty feeling. I have never dated a guy and I am single after a breakup a year ago, so thinking of something I was cheesing over long ago, brought me some warm comfort that I long for. now it’s just like….am I a horrible person for thinking back at that? someone will have an answer and I’m sorry I can’t provide that right now. you’re not alone in this.

auschili

Date posted: 1y

@veinsoul may i ask how did you get over it?

veinsoul

Date posted: 1y

@auschili hm, I wouldn’t say I’m completely over it since the question for me still stands if me thinking back was wrong or not. but other than that, I just moved on. it was a “wtf” moment at first and ofc the rumination being present but then I realized I had to let it go. I still don’t know why I dreamt of my childhood crush sometimes. those dreams suddenly stopped and I focused on other stuff. perhaps find other things to focus on. I can’t remember exactly what I did to make it go away since it just kind of left by itself. what I already know is that I’m into adults & that’s how it is. but yk the mind likes to play tricks and u doubt a lot which causes anxiety. what I learned online is that you can find people (regardless of age) to be objectively attractive, meaning u don’t have to like have a crush on them or anything. just that you find them to be pretty/handsome and that’s it. nothing more. this helped me calm down when I was going thru some real events. I get triggered at times but it’s getting better than how it was before. I’ve been exposing myself more to my triggers to get the thoughts and anxiety away. just let the uncomfortableness sit and move on with it. it sucks but that’s how you get out of it. you got this 🙏🏽

auschili

Date posted: 1y

@veinsoul ty, ig ill just try to move on from it

auschili

Date posted: 1y

@veinsoul ty, ig ill just try to move on from it

dee012

Date posted: 24w

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tw// 18+ please help Mention of self intimacy ok so during self intimacy time, there’s this memory of when I was intimate with a friend of mine. I get off / fantasize about it but what makes me feel weird is it happened when me and the other person was a child. i obviously do not try to picture children and sometimes there’s no faces or it’s the face of how the person looks now. but then it makes me feel weird since the memory we were both children at the time. and then sometimes images of how they look as a child come in my head and my brain is like “do you like that or are u attracted to that” but i end up just like cringing or shaking my head and continue thinking about it how i originally was. idk if it’s wrong to fantasize about that since we were both children. ive fantasized about this memory multiple times without issue but it seems to be an issue now.

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 18w

Can someone please offer words of advice :(

Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared

🎀🧸🩷🤍

Date posted: 17w

I feel soooo guilty

Is this pocd? OCD?? Please no judgement!! This has been on going for years and I want the thoughts to stop and enjoy anime again :( not the other way around I used to love pride from an anime fmab (full metal alchemist brotherhood) when I was 14-15. And I feel so guilty because he took the form of a kid cause he’s a villain who can disguise himself and possess. I never liked the kid but more personality. I don’t think I NEVER EVER had romantic attraction to the body. I feel so gross talking about this as I’m older now and know what this is. The thing is Pride the homunculus character is ancient years old but his disguise is 10 years old and they have the same height but Pride is literally just a shadow with eyes and mouths in in the general lore of the anime. I do not like him now. As I got older I stopped liking him. Not in a sxual way even at all but just in general but my brain is making me think I like him or I used to in just a sxual way or ftish type of way but I DO NOT!! Idc I just feel disgusting. And I don’t want to have him as a favorite character anymore. How can I explain this to a therapist?! Any advice? No judgement please.

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