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I have pocd and am dealing with a real event situation with it. I did something really really odd when I was 18, like really weird. It kinda involved a child but no one was hurt and nothing s*xual really happened. What I did tho was really weird and although I’m kinder to myself and not calling myself a p*do anymore I still can’t shake how weird what I did was. Im not talking something cute and quirky weird like im talking weird weird and strange like mentally not with it. I feel like I’ve ruined everything and base my life on this thing I did. How do I stop feeling like this when I feel like I deserve to be put in an asylum.

Username: ivrecivrec

Date posted: 19w ago

Someone was hurt and that was you. If there is nothing that you need to make amends for then you need to forgive yourself. We all do dumb things that we regret but not repeating that behavior means we have learned better actions. Think about what you would tell a friend in the same situation. Usually we are kinder to others than ourselves.

Username: hi3456hi3456

Date posted: 19w ago

@ivrec “someone was hurt and that was you” that’s kinda just changed my whole perspective, wow, oh my goodness

Username: ughhhhughhhh

Date posted: 19w ago

I dont know what happened or the context but i think its important you remind yourself of how things happened and if you took accountability for your actions if you did something wrong. A lot of us did weird stuff when we were teenagers but we must accept them and improve ourselves for ourselves and others Again i dont know what happened but you need continue to do what your doing and strive for mental wellness and other things to continue your mental healing journey. A lot of us on here know how you feel your not alone but you must continue to take care of yourself too.

Username: hi3456hi3456

Date posted: 19w ago

@ughhhh Thank you, it wasn’t illegal or anything and no one was hurt

Username: chamomilegirl

Date posted: 4y ago

I have Real event ocd about things I did as a kid at 12/13. It’s killing me because it really happened but I feel like a different person now completely. my actions disgust me and it makes me feel like i don’t deserve to be alive. I constantly have flashbacks about the events and it sends me into a state of panic, I feel as if my younger self has traumatized my older self. i’m so scared that things I did make this true, i really am a bad person, even though i’m an adult now and would never never ever do that again. I’m so scared. All I want is to be a good person but I keep remembering gross things I did and now I feel like the biggest fraud to friends and family and everything good in my life.

"Pure" OCD

Username: bluesapphire

Date posted: 3y ago

I did something specific when I was 13-14 that I found now really really disgusting (I'm almost 18 now), I feel so ashamed about myself. (i didn't hurt anyone, it's just really not something you should do) i can't get it out of my head I really wanna tell someone but I'm afraid people will think I'm weird and disgusting I feel so guilty, I don't know what to do... I wanna feel normal. This memory triggers my thoughts about children a lot because I feel like a perv (again, didn't hurt any child it's just really weird) Help Lol

POCD

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 40w ago

Is this POCD or did it happen please help

Yesterday I tried to commit suicide because I started remembering things from my childhood that I did to another child and ask I kept thinking I remembered other instances of doing other things to them and I am really disgusted with myself and I don’t deserve to live. I’m scared to tell any even my therapist because of what she might think of me. I’ve also have intrusive thoughts about children, I know that I don’t find them attractive but my brain tells me that I do and I get all of these weird thoughts in my head all at once and I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I actually did this to them or if I’m making it up because of my trauma and anxiety. I tried asking them if they remembered me doing anything uncomfortable when we were children and they said no and were getting annoyed and dismissive.

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