What if I am what my OCD says? What if I am deep down a horrible monster and my ocd has been right all along and I’ve just been trying to fight it and deny that I am what it says?
You are not what your OCD says. People with OCD are commonly what they fear most, by you coming on here and saying the words “horrible monster”, is you indirectly acknowledging how wrong the OCD is. You wouldn’t be uncomfortable by the feeling, or fighting it. You’d just be it. The anxiety we get with OCD is proof of genuine humanity, the fear and discomfort about those thoughts.
Tell yourself, “maybe, but I need to focus on the moment” It’s not you saying you are a monster or you are ok with being one, it’s just accepting the possibility (even if it’s 0.001% chance of it being true) and moving on with life because you shouldn’t be ruled by OCD and it’s tricks
Your conscious is telling you what you will be if you act on those thoughts. Not that you are. Your moral compass is doing what it supposed to do. I would say thank you to it, for keeping me inline.
Horrible monsters, as you said, aren't scared of hurting other people. I read somewhere that people with OCD are actually among the most empathic and kind people there are because if your worst fears is causing harm to others then you definitely care a lot about them. You got this ❤️
Thank you guys, it means more than you could imagine🩵
Don't worry, I've been there I know how it feels. Learning about OCD saved my life actually because WE ARE NOT OUR THOUGHTS. You got this, we got this 💓.
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
i’m trying to not let the thoughts bother me but it’s just so stressful. even me typing that feels like i’m lying when i know i’m not. i’m scared because even my therapist tells me that it’s just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly don’t believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know it’s ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like “dude, your therapist said it’s ocd, she isn’t wrong” but the back of my mind is like “she is wrong, it’s not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and it’s your fate”. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling
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