its been over a month and im losing hope of these thoughts ever going away. im so sick of this. every waking second im just over here thinking im a serial killer. i’ve convinced myself the only thing that would make my thoughts go away is if i act on them or end my own life. i cant keep doing this..
I always recommend talking to a health professional to assist in overcoming self-harming. They are trained to help in self-harm situations. I know a month may seem like a long time. Healing is kinda like the saying, “Rome wasn’t build in a day” Healing may take months, maybe years. We all want the pain to go away asap. I get it. Have faith in the process. We all have bad days. But it doesn’t mean we have a bad life.
Don't worry you're not alone
I feel the same way. It drives me mad because I obsess over if I’m “good” or “bad”. I felt like a really bad person for a long time. I’ve talked to my therapist and she made me feel a little more sane when she explained how we literally can’t help having thoughts/intrusive thoughts. OCD can make it so that we start to obsess over thoughts that we’ve had. Since I had one intrusive thought that was so messed up a while ago, I couldn’t stop thinking about it, which led to even more intrusive thoughts. I hope you find your peace soon, just know you aren’t alone. Try to keep your head up.
I’m so sorry you’re still battling this. I hope you know you’re not alone with this and we are here to help you. If you ever need to talk let me know. I’m usually always here to talk. ❤️❤️
i wanna fucking scream and cry over my intrusive thoughts. it's incredibly disturbing and won't stop. i can't stop it. i can't not perform a compulsion(every though it only makes them worse, and i can't ignore it. i hate this. i hate myself. i just want to go to sleep without thinking about this please. i feel so sick and ashamed of myself. i'm genuinely so scared i'm gonna hurt someone. idk what to do anymore. i just want help.
Anyone that has harm ocd not get the “what if” thoughts anymore and your thoughts are just straight out “do it” which obviously id never and I don’t want the thoughts. Just so scary and time consuming because I spend hours telling myself “I’d never do that, it’s okay”
My Harm OCD is out of control. I’m trying so hard to keep living my life, but it’s scaring me even more. It’s starting to feel more real. It’s feeling like I’m right on the edge of acting on my thoughts and that I actually want to do it. It feels like this is never going to go away and I’m now this person who is going to harm someone. I’m at work because I’m supposed to keep living my life and not do compulsions. But not doing them is terrifying me. I feel like a complete monster and I don’t know what to do.
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